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Oral History: Gillian Lewis & Colin Humphries

An oral history interview with Gillian Lewis and Colin Humphries conducted by Anila Ladwa for the In/Visible Labour project, part of the In Living Memory programme.

In/Visible Labour responds to the radical and resilient experiences of collective family making through a programme of artworks and oral histories works by a diverse range of Lewisham communities and their support networks across the borough.

Gillian Lewis and Colin Humphries met when she ran her own touring theatre company. Colin is a professional theatre prop maker. Gillian is an active member of the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign and coordinated many different faith groups in Lewisham to get involved and support the campaign. Gillian came up with ideas for visual props and approached Colin to make these to lead the campaign protest marches including ‘Jeremy the Vulture’ who can be spotted on some of the archived images from the march.

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Gillian: Well, I am a Lewishamite born and although ironically, I might as well throw this in, I was actually born in Charing Cross Hospital when it was in Charing Cross because my mum was booked into the unmarried mother’s ward, which just sounds absolutely bonkers today. But back in 1956, although in fact she got married before she gave birth, it was too late, she was already booked in. I was born within the sound of Bow Bells in that case. But I was then brought up in Lewisham. I’ve done lots of things in my life and I’ve lived in lots of places but I’m back in Lewisham.

I’ve been in Lewisham in the flat that I’m in at the moment though, I can’t believe it, 39 years in my wonderful flat which was actually special lettings, and had an enormous number of Goldsmith’s students in it in the 1980s. So, that’s how I got it. Everything has changed with housing, so everybody lives there, families live there, and a lot of much, much older Goldsmith’s students live there. So, anyway, I’m just going to continue because it’s sort of links into Colin if I say that at a certain point I set up my own theatre company with another woman.

And we toured all over the country with shows, and we always commissioned writers and we had the music professionally recorded and composed, and all the rest of it. And Colin and Becky became our designers, props makers, costume makers, and our whole blinking design department for our theatre company.

Colin: Becky is mainly the designer, and I was – we both made stuff together.

Gillian: And inputted ideas.

Interviewer (Anila): What was the theatre company called?

Gillian: It was actually Open Wide Theatre, and our first show was called A Wheelie Bin Ate My Sister. Sorry, thinking back, so in 1996, maybe 97, we did the town mouse and the country mouse. So, I can’t believe I’ve known you all these years Colin, 25 years. But that’s how I met Colin, it was all about theatre and art, and we were all very young and probably beautiful too. And now –

Interviewer: You still are.

Gillian: So, when this sort of like bomb dropped and we could not believe that Lewisham Hospital was going to be the victim actually of the very first action under a brand new law when David Cameron got in, in 2010, actually sorry, I just want to say this very quickly, but ironically when he got in, in 2010, a completely independent foundation in America had – it was called the Commonwealth Foundation had done an 11 country, a sort of survey and study of different types of health systems and as always, as with every study that’s virtually ever been done the NHS came up right at the top. And that result was posted in July 2010.

David Cameron had not long been in. Anyway, the point is that they published a white paper saying that they were going to change the way that the NHS functioned and totally reorganise it, and the most crucial thing about it really, or one of them anyway, was that they were going to revoke the legal duty of the Minister of Health to provide healthcare for the population. So, you can see where they’re going.

So, although we’d had this fabulous relationship artistically actually we folded our theatre company in 2009 and after many, many years of successful touring when I was still in touch with Colin, and so this artistic endeavour to support the massive effort to stop this hospital being sacrificed and closed so that a nearby hospital that had a deficit – what that actually means is that the government wouldn’t underwrite – in other words it was underfunded, that’s what it actually means.

Of course, I turned immediately to Colin because I knew that they did all sorts of things for parades and sort of festival type events where people carry very big eye catching marvellous creative works of art, so we continued to have a collaboration –

Colin: We do a thing called Hope Festival and we do a workshop for the kids, and have a procession, and they make costumes, banners and things. That’s in May I think.

Interviewer: Whereabouts is that festival?

Colin: It’s in Biggin Hill on a campsite there. I’ve lived in Lewisham all my life, although I too was born actually in the sound of Bow Bells. Dick Whittington Hospital in High Gate because my parents were city people. They lived and worked there. I was one year when I came to Lewisham, so I’ve lived in Lewisham since the age of one. My mum still lives here, and she’s 92 I think. And so, I’ve lived in this house in Brockley since 1984. Nine flats in it, big garden. Obviously it was one big family house originally in Wickham Road when it was a really gentile road.

And back in those days – we know this because someone actually knocked on our door once, and they actually lived here, and born here I think. And they remember in those days Wickham Road was a private road and it had a barrier, a police barrier at each end, and anyone coming into the road had to have either a letter of introduction to say they were working in the house.

Interviewer: A private road, wow!

Colin: They were known to the police because they lived in the road. It was a very posh road. Community really. I mean the [unintelligible 00:06:38] is separate, self-contained, but we have a WhatsApp group so we all sort of communicate with each other and have regular gatherings in the garden and stuff. We have got some dialogue about various issues as well in the house. And it’s always been an artistic and creative environment. We’ve got a lot of musicians that have lived here, actors, and artists. In fact, currently there’s some girls, art students living here. And there have always been artists. We kind of attracts artists this house, it’s a Bohemian sort of house.

Interviewer: Perhaps we could move on to your time working together, coming together for the campaign. Colin, I don’t know how much you were involved in participating or attending those meetings.

Colin: I’m not really sort of part of the actual organisation, that’s Gillian’s thing. She calls me in now and again to help with projects and stuff.

Gillian: And I always wonder whether you dread it when I send you a text. It’s like oh God, what does she want now.

Colin: Whenever you receive the message you’re thinking what’s she wanting now.

Gillian: What outlandish and incredible thing. Well, shall I just try and sum it up briefly. Sort of dim memory is that it somehow came up online, maybe via 38 Degrees, which is another campaign or change.org, or something, but I remember the very, very first meeting which was when they very first published the white paper. So, then there was a period of time where we’ve tried to find out whether this white paper was going to become law or not, and while that was – there was a lull.

And I know that that first meeting I went to was at the old or rather the 1960s Lady Wells Baths which has subsequently been pulled down and is now prefabricated flats, which is – but they are quite good, because they are council flats thank goodness. But I just remember that at that very first meeting there were well over 150 people and that was in something like March 2011. I know it was 2011, I’m sure it was March.

And to really just sort of try and pinpoint certain important aspects of this, first of all I had absolutely no idea until all of this started to erupt, I had absolutely no idea that there was any difference between what private companies provide health wise, and what an NHS actually means, and actually is. Especially after a lifetime of only ever having heard negative reports in newspapers about, you know, money being wasted in the NHS or people waiting on waiting list, especially in the Margaret Thatcher era.

So, my attitude was one of why does it matter, what does it matter if this company provides this service or not. So, I very, very quickly learnt and understood that they are not the same thing at all. They don’t resemble each other in any way, shape or possible outcomes, anything. Because in a service the determinant for what kind of treatment you get mainly is what your need is, you know, as a patient.

Whereas the determinant for a private company is largely dictated by what they will actually get paid for. And whether it’s profitable, and so, I very quickly learnt, for example, that they past this law that was going to be called The Health and Social Care Act, and I always remember the very first sentence by a GP who tried to explain it to everybody who was at this first meeting. The very first sentence was there’s very little about health or social care in this proposed bill. It’s actually just a financial reworking that will allow private companies to bid for a lot of money.

Whilst at the same time giving private companies the right to refuse treatment, regardless of whether they’ve got the budget for the treatment or not. There’s a very, very good example actually in the hospital at the moment, the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign worked very, very hard last year to not have an outsourced contract for pathology. In other words, the testing of bloods and whatever else, and they were successful in preventing that from happening in the hospital, which is very, very important.

Because when the pathology department does the test the consultant can meet with the pathologist and that’s how they come up with an appropriate diagnosis. And for the patient this crucial, absolutely crucial to their treatment that they have this discussion. So, the hospital, and in fact they were going to do the same thing with the GPs, the hospital was going to carry on testing for the GPs, but the GPs were part of this huge £6bn outsourcing contract.

And so, now what we’ve had inside information from somebody working in a GP’s surgery, that what happens is the tests are all done within the GP practice, they then get whizzed off by a courier, but they never get the same courier twice, so there’s no relationship there. When it gets to the private company it sometimes takes time for it to be done, so a lot of tests come back saying that they’re out of date and that they’ve got to be done again. They don’t get to have the conversation they need to have with the consultant.

And in fact, all the tests get delivered on a Thursday evening which leaves the GPs wading through these tests because they’re so important to start the treatment for the patients over their weekend. So, if you ever wonder why it’s hard to get an appointment with a GP, these are the sorts of things that are adding to their workload. So, I’m just giving you one example of how the minute that you end up with private interests within a so called then National Health Service, you get completely warped and skewed outcomes that do not serve the doctors, the clinicians or the patients, and that’s just one teeny weeny little example.

Colin: I tried phoning the doctor, you’re waiting at least an hour before you get through every time. And we know that because I recently – Becky has been trying to get appointments, every time she phones, there’s been a few times now, it’s at least an hour, there’s a queue, you’re in a queue.

Gillian: That’s right. And my question would be as somebody recently said on the stage of an NHS conference that was held hosted by Keep our NHS Public, the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign is the Lewisham group for Keep our NHS Public which is a national organisation. And they hosted and set up a conference which was also their annual general meeting a couple of Saturday’s ago on the 12th of November. And somebody stood up on the stage and said if we’ve been 10 years now of privatisation how is it for you when you try and see a GP.

If it’s so great why are they doing even more draconian measures now. But anyway, the most important thing is I came to see and understand very, very quickly that private provision is entirely different to a service. A business is not a service. They could not be more different. And I’m not sure if many people understand that. I feel that even now after 10 years most people have no idea whatsoever that our Secretary of State for Health no longer has a legal duty to provide healthcare for the nation. It’s just a guidance.  The guidance is it’s a good idea to do it, but there’s no legal duty.

Colin: It’s still called the National Health Service.

Gillian: It’s still called the National Health Service and that logo, and those words are preserved with great fervour by the current government because hiding behind that logo in many cases, many, many cases are private companies. You could even go to your GP and think that your GP is National Health Service, they might not be. More and more GP surgeries are being taken over by American corporations, and I doubt people know that.

Colin: We don’t have to pay for your GP when you go to your –

Gillian: You don’t have to pay for a GP when you go to one that is owned by, for example, Centene, which is a US health giant, they’re an insurance giant. No, you don’t have to pay. But what you might find is that they’ve got all sorts of cost cutting measures where it’s even harder to get to see your GP, even when it’s an emergency.

Colin: That’s definitely true.

Gillian: Because what they’re doing is not spending the money on patients in order to keep as much of it in their coffers as possible. Anyway, going back to the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign, this is what’s really important, one of the most amazing things about the campaign is that the people who were able to inform the great majority of people, because the meetings were massive. There would be 200 to 300 people at any given meeting. When the government representative, who’s name, I can’t remember what his job title was for the minute.

I think it was TSA, or something, but when he came to hold the first public meeting in Lewisham for this proposal to downgrade the hospital there was enormous anger because they had hired – sorry, the lecture theatre they’d hired at the hospital was full, so they also then had to additionally use a local community centre. That was full. The backup room in the community centre was full. And there was a crowd of about 400 people in the street outside who couldn’t get in. And he was supposed to be answering questions from the concerned members of the public of Lewisham, and we couldn’t even get into the blinking meeting.

So, right from the word go the sort of mobilisation of people was absolutely massive, and that very, very special important thing I was going to say about the campaign was that the understanding of the proposals for downgrading the hospital, in particular the maternity ward, which was a brand new ward by the way, brand new. The hospital had spent £12m upgrading the A&E and having a dedicated children’s and family A&E, and creating this brand new maternity ward which all the people that I ever knew that ever went in there were agog at how amazing it was.

So, they did all of that and the proposal was to close Lewisham because Lewisham had no debt. I mean the debt was miniscule. Of course, no hospitals have debt, it’s actually a gap in funding is what it is. But this new law meant that hospitals became – they had a new sort of legal financial structure in which they all became individual competing businesses. So, they were seen to be having debt, and because the nearby trust, which was the South London Health Trust, they had a bigger debt because they had a government sponsored debt called a public finance initiative.

Which was costing them something like £1m a week, £50m a year, which actually believe me in comparison to the amounts of money this government has been squandering is not even noticeable. However, they were going to keep that open which protected the payments to the banks for the interest on the building of the hospital, that’s what a private financial initiative is. And close the hospital, which was more easy to close because believe me, this was the thing that – I keep not mentioning what the really important magic thing was.

So, the important, in a way the power of this campaign is that the people that were leading it in no other sense than that they had the experience and understood what was going on, and what the significance of all the proposals was, were the ex-head of the children’s department, for example, of the hospital. And it was the best children’s department of the district general hospitals of London. So good that it worked hand in hand with the Everlina Children’s Hospital at St Thomas’.

So, the calibre of the people, the GPs, members of the British Medical Association, nurses that were working in the Lewisham Trust, the calibre of the people that were doing that was such that they were really able to highlight and pinpoint why the proposals were absolutely bonkers, totally bonkers. Honestly. There’s no other description. The medical staff, particularly the GPs of Lewisham, were completely supporting the campaign as was the staff of the hospital.

So, that’s how you get a very formidable opposition to proposals that aren’t based on anything real. That actually matter to the patients, the population etc. And you got us to introduce ourselves and our links to Lewisham. Lewisham Hospital is an example of a district general hospital where the majority of people walk into A&E. I always remember that coming up at the time. It’s embedded in the town centre. It actually does wonders for the economy of Lewisham because it employs loads of people.

But most importantly there are plenty of hospitals which are outside towns, where you’ve got a car, the proposal was to move everything over to – or the A&E and the maternity ward, to the already struggling hospital on Woolwich Common, the Queen Elizabeth Hospital. It used to be an army hospital when it was built and guess what, my dad worked there as a telephonist. That hospital would have had to have coped with an extra 275,000 population of Lewisham.

And it’s A&E was already full to bursting. These were proposals that could not work. And the other thing that was explained to us was when the close an A&E and a maternity unit, and you replace them with a clinic for cuts and grazes, there’s a name for that, I can’t remember what it’s called now, but it’s just an ordinary sort of clinic where you can go for injuries and so forth. What you’ve done is you’ve removed the blood transfusion facilities from the hospital.

And very, very quickly what it means is that all the other – like the important wards where they do difficult surgery, not elective surgery like a cataract or a hip replacement, but all those multiple difficult surgeries, if you haven’t got blood transfusion the hospital starts to die. We put a video on the website, the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign website because the government said that it took an extra two minutes. So, in other words, if you were living in the borough of Lewisham and you had to get to Lewisham Hospital you only had to add an extra few minutes to your journey and you could be right in the middle of Woolwich Common when there are no train stations.

Colin: Two minutes.

Gillian: So, we got people from our campaign to do that journey. We got them to do that journey in the evening, not even in the rush hour, and it took them well over an hour, and they had to get three buses. Everything about it was a lie.

Colin: It’s unbelievable, it’s mindboggling how they could possibly –

Gillian: One of the things is, as well, if somebody had a problem in the middle of giving birth transferring to another unit in a hospital three town centres away, you know, every second can count when a person gives birth. Speaking of which I’ve just got to give you one little fact that I’m wondering if the maternity midwives may or may not remember, but one of the things that the government had to do by law was a consultation. And they printed thousands and thousands of these consultations but most of them didn’t get posted actually.

We gave out loads of them and ultimately made a very, very large bonfire outside the hospital with them on the last day because they were useless. But what our extremely well informed experienced, and in the know leaders of the campaign were able to do was explain to everybody how they needed to understand each question in the consultation. And here’s one about maternity that will make your hair stand on end. Because one of the questions was do you want to see improvements to the – sorry, do you want to see improvements to the infant mortality rate.

Now, anybody in their right mind is going to say yes, who’s going to say no to that. Until you know that there – there was no infant mortality at Lewisham Hospital so how can you improve on zero for the last seven years that is. But if you put yes, that would then count as a vote for their plans to close the maternity unit. That’s the kind of thing that you need experienced knowledgeable people to explain to you because you are an innocent when you’re up against these kinds of methods.

And that fact always stuck in my mind because it’s so disingenuous and it really showed up that their motives were just at all costs to close the maternity unit and the A&E.

Colin: It all still there isn’t it, the A&E and the maternity.

Gillian: It certainly is.

Colin: It’s fantastic how it is still there thanks to mainly your campaign.

Gillian: Although being hugely impacted by the deliberate defunding of all of the NHS but –

Colin: Across the board they’re defunding it and have done for years.

Interviewer: I’m going to ask what your exact roles were in the campaign itself. Colin, if you want to kind of just give us a little bit of insight into your creations that you’ve shown me photographs of.

Colin: And I made various things that – visual sort of, striking things on Gillian’s lead. I mean Gillian had the ideas to do – we made a vulture which was called Jeremy, after Jeremy Hunt, who was the Health Secretary at the time. He’s now Home Secretary isn’t he?

Interviewer: He’s the Chancellor I think.

Colin: Yes, sorry. And it was basically kind of like a big sort of thing you carry, and it was actually – it was a vulture on top of the National Health Service sign, and the vulture is pecking the sign to represent the health service being basically being slashed and pecked away at by vultures. Another thing we did was we did some banners detailing the various deaths that occurred during patient’s being kept waiting in the corridors on trolleys. And detailing all the figures and everything that had just been published.

And the other one, well we made a big birthday cake for the 70th birthday of the National Health and a big march for that. A great bit birthday cake.

Gillian: That must have been 2018 mustn’t it then, because it was formed in 1948.

Colin: I suppose so, yes. We also did a border control post because there was a big sort of issue about people not being allowed – they had to prove their status as – to get treatment, and they had to give all their details for the data, and there was a risk that they would be deported if they weren’t legalised, citizens, refugees, you name it.

Gillian: Or people who are just waiting for a decision. They may not have been told that they’re not entitled to health care, that’s what that border control booth was for, wasn’t it.

Interviewer: So, I’m sitting with the mastermind and the making of –

Colin: Gillian is the mastermind, for sure.

Gillian: I’m not honestly. I might have a few ideas but believe me –

Colin: We just made your ideas basically.

Gillian: I mean there’s always a lot of you in it, isn’t there, the design of it, I mean the vulture – it reminds me of, because by the time you’re holding it on a pole it’s got to be at least 3 to 4m in height.

Colin: Yes, it stands up above the head and shoulders of the crowd, so it’s seen.

Gillian: And it has featured on ITN News at 10 a few times, and all sorts of other programmes. I mean it’s got the wow factor Colin.

Colin: It’s been on several demos.

Gillian: It’s worthy of the National Theatre where you worked at the time.

Colin: Yes.

Gillian: When the Romans used to carry, what was it called, not a banner, it was something else, a –

Colin: SPQR.

Gillian: Yes, and maybe an eagle or something for their regiment, and we used to carry that with –

Colin: Legion.

Gillian: And it certainly is eye catching and it gets an awful lot of attention which is what these – the fact is what you’re making is – you’re bringing to life ideas that are going to enable people to understand at a glance what’s really going on. And also, to get their attention in the first place.

Colin: Our little marching band plays a lot of demonstrations, it’s called Les Wang, Zoings. The Zoings. We do quite a lot of demos.

Interviewer: How many in the band?

Colin: Mainly about five but there are other additions as well. Can be up to 10 sometimes depending on who’s available. Quite often we do the TUC march and the anti-war march as well, that was the Iraq War. Mainly brass. There’s a couple of saxophones, baritone saxophone, tenor saxophone, alto saxophone, trombone, sometimes trumpet. And percussion. It’s like a little marching band.

Gillian: Does Becky play the accordion still?

Colin: She does play accordion but in Les Wang she plays drum, she plays snare. We have other percussion as well. It’s quite a rousing joyful noise.

Gillian: And also, just to interject and say that the TUC march, which is where we suddenly came upon you, were you standing on the cenotaph?

Colin: That’s a good place that we go, we stand in the middle of the road in Whitehall. The procession just rushes past you, you’re in the middle and you’re playing basically.

Gillian: And also, just to add that TUC march had an absolutely massive health contingent, so all the campaigns like the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign, we were there, we were carrying out banners. I was marching next to – honestly, I’m not making this up, the Royal College of Midwives. I’ve still got one of the Royal College – I just had to pick it up, Royal College of Nursing placards which says, “Understaffing costs lives”. And also, this was really relevant, I was desperate to get hold of one of these people because the Association of Physiotherapists was next to us as well. So, there we were embedded in this fantastic huge representation of – so it’s all linked back to the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign as well.

Colin: I mean I think Lewisham Campaign was one of the first demos we did. I think that was the first time we got together actually.

Gillian: Wow, I didn’t know that.

Interviewer: That’s like 10 years ago then.

Gillian: I don’t know where the time has gone but one thing to note is that however negative any of the things I’ve said are, in particular, the NHS wasn’t supposed to still be here. It was supposed to be gone by now, and it’s an absolute tribute to giving – nobody knew we were going to go through COVID and all of that, but it’s an absolute triumph that yes it is still there. And the most recent question that is coming up can we really afford an NHS. And it’s the exact opposite question, can we afford not to have an NHS. Because when the NHS was formed the biggest worry of GPs in 1948, and in fact they objected to there being a universal healthcare system, because they were terrified that it would be too expensive.

That it couldn’t possibly ever treat the population and it ended up being just over 4% of GDP. This is another one of the great myths that universal healthcare is more expensive. It absolutely isn’t. If you have somebody, I can’t begin to tell you how many people I know who have been in Lewisham Hospital, I mean it’s nothing to do with me honestly, I’m not guilty, it’s just because it’s local, it’s in our community, and if you need to have a blood test or whatever don’t forget pathology and the consultants, they’re still in the hospital, in the trust.

Being able to give those diagnoses on the spot on the ground, but one of the statistics quite possibly from the World Health Organization is, and this was one of the really big objections to the A&E and maternity unit being dumped in Greenwich in the middle of Woolwich Common where there is no public transport virtually, is that when people are rushed into hospital it doesn’t matter what you’ve got, there’s a statistic which says that people who are visited by their families are more likely to recover more quickly.

But how difficult is it going to be if you’ve got to get two or three buses depending on what part of the borough you come from to actually even be able to visit a member of your family. And what if you’re working. I mean I’m still working even at my age. I could have retired this year, but I love my job, and that’s – I’m a guide, but that’s so easy in Lewisham Hospital. There’s about 15 buses aren’t there Colin that stop outside the hospital. It doesn’t matter where you come from in the borough.

Interviewer: You’ve just reminded me Gillian that your role was kind of – were you involved in getting all the faith groups together?

Gillian: Yes. So, what happened was we were in one of our massive meetings with about 300 people one night, attending, and it just happened to come up that the lady who had formed a group, she’d been reaching out to churches, I think she probably was a church goer, and she had a very, very good response from all these different churches. But this lady, how ironic when I tell you, had to actually go into Lewisham Hospital with some condition or whatever. So, she hadn’t been able to carry on this work that she’d been doing.

So, I put my hand up and I volunteered, and I took over. And we had an amazing group of different faiths in our interfaith group. At the time there was an interfaith minister in the hospital. He was part of it. He’s moved on subsequently. We had the Catholic churches. We had the Church of England of course, but I’m talking about the whole South Eastern Dioceses of many, many churches, they donned their cassocks to march to be visible. We had the most marvellous Hindu Temple, and two thirds of the people on the board of that temple were either retired consultants or still were medical people.

And fully understood the significance. We had Captain Nigel who was the Salvation Army person that was running the very big Lewisham, you couldn’t call it an office, it’s like a hub, Salvation Army Hub, he was an ex nurse. How about that. And he understood very, very clearly what detriment that would be to the people that he looked after, because one of the jobs of the Salvage Army is in supporting people who have fallen on very hard times, and that can be people who are abusing substances.

And he gave one very good example that on many occasions when people were very, very badly ill because they’d been homeless or whatever their situation was, he would have the bus fare. He put them on a bus with strict instructions to get off at the A&E of Lewisham Hospital, and he wondering how on earth he was ever going to manage to do that with a hospital that was three bus journeys away on Woolwich Common. And he said so many lives that he personally knew about, people who managed to get into A&E, people who managed – we only ever hear the bad stories don’t we.

Because whatever happens to you, if you’ve got to get there quickly, this is what the World Health Organization says, it can’t be three town centres and four miles away. Not if you want to live. We had the Seikh Temple in Woolwich which covered Lewisham and Greenwich. We had the Baptist Church, now the lady who ran that wasn’t very well. She used to pray for us though. I’m probably leaving out – oh, how could I leave out the mosque, because the mosque is practically opposite the hospital.

And what you’ve got to remember is that quite a few of these churches, especially with their work around the world, churches, faith communities, really understood what the detrimental effects of private medicine are which most English or British Citizens simply don’t get because they’ve never – it’s been there all their lives and they think somehow it’s going to survive. It really isn’t. There was the interfaith group, and they came out, particularly on the day of the judgement, and very cleverly we had produced many – something like 150 placards that said the fight goes on.

If we’d lost that court case. And another 150 placards that said victory for Lewisham, so whatever way that judgement went we had it covered. And outside the Royal Courts of Justice shoulder to shoulder there were representatives of the Synagogue who I didn’t mention a minute ago, the mosque, Captain Nigel in his full Salvation Army uniform. The Seikh Temple, which was run by a woman, Church of England. It was an absolute shoulder to shoulder event.

Our hospital, Lewisham, and most people think of it as our hospital, cannot be closed in a kind of honest open way by the government they can’t do it full frontally, let’s say, because it has that judgement. And when the government appealed in full knowledge that they were going to lose it was the fastest judgement in history that appeal, two minutes, nobody even managed to get their coats off. We couldn’t get out of the court in time. The judges came straight back in and upheld the original judgement. And they wasted nearly £100,000 doing that.

But there are many, many other ways to close a hospital or bring it to its knees. Don’t give it the money. I’ve been to Lewisham Hospital board meetings where they’ve been discussing the fact that that month’s money simply hasn’t arrived. And they’re down to only a few bandages or something like that, people don’t realise how close to the bone it is. And you’re absolutely right, so we have never stopped campaigning. And just to talk about babies, mothers and babies.

One of the things that Colin made was the border control kiosk because doctors and nurses, and hospitals, the trust as a whole are being asked, as Colin pointed out, to be border guards because – and what’s happened, what we discovered in Lewisham anecdotally was that there were parents who were afraid to bring their children in and that children had died as a result. There were mothers who were afraid to come, and one mother came in way too late, she didn’t go to any antenatal classes etc. and lost her baby.

And we set up a working group with the maternity unit because the hospital wasn’t exactly clear about – some of these people had every right to be treated. Every right to be treated, legally every right, but if you’re not a border guard how do you know. But if doctors and nurses, and the trust, but particularly doctors, if they are discovered to have treated somebody that then subsequently didn’t have the right to be treated their entire career, forget losing their job, that is the end of their career.

So, this is what’s hanging over people’s heads and this is the work that the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign is still doing with midwives, the trust, and the hospital, to save the lives of innocent children. So, if you’re paying huge rents how are you going to pay the bill that you’ve got to pay because your child needed to see a doctor. It’s really evil when you start to look at the hundreds and thousands of millions that have been given away to private companies, that money was there for the NHS, but it doesn’t go to the NHS. That’s why we’re still here and we still will be here.

And you probably know this Aneela, but we’re changing our name. We’ll be having new banners made and all the rest of it because we’ve just had our AGM, so believe me, we are going into 2023 with our sleeves rolled up determined never to give up, ever, ever to give up.

Colin: Yes, because the NHS is the whole country, it’s not just Lewisham. Obviously, the Lewisham Hospital Campaign is the local big focus but –

Gillian: It’s part of the bigger story. Definitely. Because you specifically referred to the war, since World War II, well I just wanted to say one last thing which is I was listening to a programme a while ago, and it was about the lost sort of practice speeches that Winston Churchill did, and they were in a cupboard. It’s called His Cabinet, and he used to practice them out loud and record them, and listen to them, because he knew how important communication really was. And we’re still very, very familiar with his speeches about the war. And fighting the war and never giving up.

He made speeches about universal healthcare because he believed that people should have it. He believed that was something that in a civilised country you should have universal healthcare.

Colin: And he was a Tory.

Gillian: I know. But the reason why I want to just mention him is because when he was asked about the war he said, they said to him did you know that Britain was going to sort of survive and not be defeated, and he said, “No, but I knew it was better to fight.” Better to fight than to just lie down and give in, and that’s the attitude that all around the country, not just the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign, but certainly that is the attitude of the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign. Win or lose, and we’ve done a lot of winning, but win or lose we’re never going to stop. We’re never going to give up. Never. Ever.

Colin: Just like Winston.

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Oral Histories: Brian Fisher

An interview with local GP, Brian Fisher conducted by Anila Ladwa for the In/Visible Labour project, part of the In Living Memory programme.

In/Visible Labour responds to the radical and resilient experiences of collective family making through a programme of artworks and oral histories works by a diverse range of Lewisham communities and their support networks across the borough.

Brian Fisher is a Lewisham GP and was the Chair of the initial Public Meeting of the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign. He is a committed campaigner and a long-term campaign member, now focusing in particular on adult social care.

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Brian: I’m Brian Fischer. I’m a GP. I’ve been a GP in Southeast London since 1976 and I was a full time GP based in Sydenham, and then I retired and now I do much less general practice over the last 13 years or so, but still in Southeast London and New Cross. I grew up in West London and I’d always wanted – well, I wanted to be a deep sea diver, then an astronaut, and then when I was about seven I always wanted to be a doctor, so it kind of happened that way. I was very lucky. I headed into medical school and moved to Southeast London when I got a – to train to be a GP you need a year in a general practice to learn the ropes and to understand consultation and understanding people.

So, I had that – I was fortunate to have that in a fantastic practice in the Elephant and Castle, and then I kind of stayed in Southeast London. The other link was that when I started in my first practice which was in Peckham I found that there was a strange thing called a Community Development Hub, a little way from the health centre where I was, so that sparked off a whole set of interests in community development which has never left me. So, I’ve been interested in that for a long time. One of the things I’ve been trying to do for a long time, ever since then really, is to persuade the government that community development is something that ought to be available across the NHS and linked up with local authority.

I haven’t got very far with that. It’s not a very successful campaign but that’s something I’ve been very interested in. So, I think it’s a long ago now, I’m not sure that I’ve got all the details right, but my recollection is that I and a few other people had been very concerned about the threat to the NHS. And the cuts and the increasing privatisation of the NHS. So, I and another couple of people set up an organisation called SOS NHS I think. And that probably was a little while before the threat to Lewisham Hospital. We were just beginning to get operational and then the threat to Lewisham, the very clear physical threat to Lewisham Hospital became obvious.

And so, we kind of merged into the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign. It was obviously the same kind of thing, the same – and we were local people, so it made absolute sense to kind of – for us to be absorbed in this bigger and more precise campaign which was about Lewisham. So, I guess I was involved right from the start. The SOS NHS campaign was probably half a dozen people I suppose, and I think the first beginnings of the Lewisham campaign – because there was an organisation, I don’t know if it’s still around, I haven’t heard about it for ages called 36 Degrees.

And that was a big national sort of campaigning organisation and that helped to gather, to help us organise the initial meetings, so the initial meetings had quite a few people in it, 30 people, 40 people I guess. They met in the Waldron Health Centre in New Cross which has a nice meeting room, one of the doctors, Dr Irvine, was a GP there so it was relatively easy for her to get this space. There was a great deal of enthusiasm and my involvement, I can’t remember really what I did particularly early on, but when it became obvious that one of the things that we were going to do was to ask for a judicial review I began to write a document that sort of summarised why we needed a judicial review, and what the basis of that might be.

And my recollection is that I brought various people together. We put the stuff that I had written on the screen and people commented on it, and one of the things that I thought was – would be very helpful for us was that the – Jeremy Hunt had set out, or somebody had set out, there was a set of criteria really across the NHS which made it clear that changes did need local agreement. It was sort of three or four key things, and I can’t remember what they all were.

But anyway, they all played into our hands that the CCG had to agree, local people had to agree. As I recall. And it seemed to me that those would be a good basis for a good judicial review and when the lawyers got involved that is the kind of basis on which we fought the judicial review. What was pretty amazing really about the early stages was the way everybody pulled together and the way – there was some pretty imaginative, like the buggy army, there were lots of other – we held hands around Lewisham Hospital.

The whole thing was a very clever – I mean none of those were my ideas, they were a very exciting process really where people accumulated ideas and they were just very nicely put together, and everybody was very committed to making a difference, so there was huge voluntary activity. And it really pulled hundreds of people eventually in the March, thousands of people together all with a very strong ethos about preserving the NHS as  whole, and preserving Lewisham Hospital specifically.

And it managed to bring in the staff members, MPs, it was a very comprehensive and coherent campaign which I think Keep our NHS Public was a key intellectual and sort of ideological support really, it was very helpful indeed. So, I did bits and pieces. I remember I appeared at – there was a sort of people’s enquiry. There was organised – which was sort of officially run by Michael Mansfield QC, and there were lots of people giving evidence, so I gave evidence to that from a GP perspective.

So, it was a very supportive and encouraging process. And my interest in community development was sort of encouraged by all of this because one of the things that I think is most important is that we support and encourage the development of a participatory democracy, so there’s formal democracy where you vote, you have councillors and you vote for MPs, and all of that is very formal but there is also another layer which is a participatory democracy and I’ve always been interested that community development could support that.

And I think the campaign was one fantastic example of ways in which people got together, took control over their own area and made a huge difference to the outcome. It was an honour to be a part of it, a privilege and an honour to be part of the process. And my recollection of the actual judicial review sessions, and I’m not a lawyer, I know nothing about it, but the first session the Judge kind of set out the scene really and he – one of the issues was whether – to what extent the Secretary of State had the power to do this, and as I said we were arguing that he couldn’t do it unless there was local involvement.

And that the phraseology of these three or four specific criteria that local change had to meet, the Judge said, “I think this revolves around the word with” or something. The meaning of this particular word, if we can get to the bottom of that, that kind of – we will be able to unravel the legality of this process. It was very – I would never have thought of it that way, but that is indeed I think how the argument transpired. Whether they had the power over or the power with, or what the word with meant, something like that. I may have got the details wrong.

So, from a legal point of view it centred in a very odd way around the meaning of a single word. Anyway, we won and that was great. And it made a huge difference. I found it quite frightening the idea of setting up a judicial review because we had to pay the lawyers if we failed and I was – I think I was the most of anybody concerned about how we would raise the money, but actually we raised the money really easily. I was worried that if we went ahead with this judicial review that if we lost then we’d be landed with this – I remember being much more frightened about it than other people.

You have to be fairly up with the documents and what the local managerial people were deciding about it, so I think a large number of people were clinicians or professionals, NHS people, employed by the NHS so I think there was a large proportion of those, but that shifted. There were lots and lots of people who got involved who had to learn really a lot about the way the NHS functioned. What’s happening to privatisation and what’s happening in the legal changes around the 2012 Act. And so on. That was – I can’t remember quite timing.

One of the things the SOS NHS group was trying to do was to challenge this act which – I think I’ve got the timing right, which was a big step in privatising the NHS. So, I think the main issue that we were concerned about was that every single time the NHS commissioned a service, so they said the contact for Orthopaedics is running out, we need to re-contract for Orthopaedics, every time something like that happened they would have to go to the private sector to look for somebody who would – it wouldn’t necessarily go to the private sector, but it had to be – it could go across Europe as a contracting option.

And somebody from anywhere could come in and offer this service from the private sector as well as the NHS competing for it. And we were very, very – everyone was very, very concerned about that so I think we spent quite a lot of time talking to Lords and MPs about this, and that was the kind of background I think to how this all happened at Lewisham. It was a different issue because Lewisham wasn’t particularly about privatisation, it was about cutting, but the sort of privatisation process was in the background. And of course, all our critiques of that Act were played out very quickly and we were completely right. It really did mess up the way the NHS worked.

Many years later the NHS went out of its way to kind of unravel all of that because it was so time wasting, and money wasting. So, that wasn’t directly to do with Lewisham, but it was part of the political background that this happened in.

Interviewer (Anila): The irony of like conducting these interviews while there are strikes at the moment today is foremost, yes.

Brian: Yes, I was on the nurse’s picket line this morning and various people, there were almost more press than there were nurses on the picket line actually for a while. They wanted to interview anybody they could find so one of them asked me has the NHS ever been as bad as it is now and I said, “Yes, sort of, at the end of the last Tory administration before Labour got in, before Blair got in.”

It was absolutely appalling so there were routinely two year waits for cardiology and people would die on the waiting list. A lot of deaths waiting for operations. So, it has been like this before and of course the picture is that that’s what happens under a Tory administration and you can see that if you do put money in and respect, and consideration, and thought for how you make this all work it’s possible to turn it around. And obviously, I hope that Labour will be in a position to do that after the next election.

So, you know, there is a solution. It doesn’t have to be like this. I think the march was the most fantastic, it was organised like a military operation. All were given their tasks; it was pretty amazing really. The weather was good, and people were out there in their thousands, and it was tremendously inspiring. I think that was the highlight. The current campaign we continue to be, you know, a local group who has lots to say about local services and national things, national services, national issues, so we’re supporting the strikes and doing all sorts of things.

But I’ve no idea really whether that has an impact on Lewisham as a whole, I don’t really know. People will certainly remember and feel proud that we managed between us, between all of us, between the 20,000 people or whatever it was that between us we managed to make such a significant difference. That was one of the clever interventions was that we showed that it wasn’t possible to get to the A&E, if the Lewisham A&E closed that it was actually very difficult to get to the one that would be open in time. We actually took public transport and videoed the process.

It was very clear. So, it was – there were some very intriguing ideas that people put together, very effective.

Interviewer: And as a GP, I mean did you feel in terms of Lewisham’s families and their ongoing struggle with services, I mean does a lot of that come through to you as a GP?

Brian: Yes, it does, and there was also some selfish elements. If A&E disappeared I would have to send people a long way away and that would impact my patients very dramatically. So, I was concerned about my clinical practice if that had shut, and then obviously the concern was that that would have a knock on effect and Lewisham as a whole would shut, so that would really make life difficult for me personally and the patients that I served in Sydenham. It was a big, absolutely essential part of the clinical structure around. It would have been very difficult.

And of course, the same is happening now. I was speaking to somebody, a mother with a six year old on Tuesday who had the – the child was ill, temperature, took the child to Lewisham Paediatric A&E and was so full that there – hours and hours of wait, and kids were sleeping on the floor, it was an absolute chaos there apparently, so she left and went to an urgent care centre. And I spoke to her on the phone when she was waiting outside this urgent care centre in the cold, so that’s Tuesday, minus temperatures.

And they wouldn’t let her in, and they couldn’t guarantee that they would see her either. In the end it turns out, because I phoned her to find out how things had gone the next day, and anyway they did let her in. She waited for nine hours before she was seen. You can’t run a service like this anymore. The Tories have just run this thing down. So, I don’t know whether they’re running it down deliberately and they will then say you can’t fund the NHS like this. It obviously doesn’t work so we have to go for a private arrangement, like the US or like Europe.

And I said this to a reporter today who was a health reporter and he said, “I don’t think that this is deliberate, they’re not clever enough to do this long term project of running down the NHS and then transferring it to some other payment process.” So, they’re too incompetent to do that, so I don’t know whether it’s a deliberate process. Anyway, they have threated millions of people’s lives and it is a very serious desperate state of affairs, and my patients are suffering.

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Oral Histories: Iain Wilson

An oral history interview with Iain Wilson conducted by Anila Ladwa for the In/Visible Labour project, part of the In Living Memory programme.

In/Visible Labour responds to the radical and resilient experiences of collective family making through a programme of artworks and oral histories works by a diverse range of Lewisham communities and their support networks across the borough.

Iain Wilson is a nurse at University Hospital Lewisham and a committed health campaigner in the community. He is a founding member of the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign, where he was initially Secretary to the campaign. Iain describes his role during the successful campaign at a time when his wife Mel was herself pregnant with their first child.

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Iain: My name is Iain. I am a nurse in – currently at Lewisham Hospital, I’m the team leader for substance misuse, so that’s the office we’re sitting in now is the office for that and safeguarding. I have been a nurse for 14 years, so at the time of the campaign, in 2012, I must have been a nurse for four years then. And I was doing substance misuse nursing at Queen Elizabeth Hospital which is the hospital the administrator was sent into. I grew up in Worthing on the south coast, moved up to London to do a sociology degree in 2000.

Sort of had jobs and didn’t have jobs for a few years, and then trained to be a nurse. And there was this moment where I suddenly thought why not. I was sort of thinking I’d go work abroad or do something slightly worthy, and then I didn’t know what useful skills I had, and then suddenly I thought I’m not squeamish, I quite like being nice to people, I could do nursing. And they paid for it. The government would pay £8,000 a year bursary. So, I did that two year training.

And then I found myself at Queen Elizabeth Hospital via jobs at Guy’s Hospital, and at a detox unit, and at a prison. And then pretty much the day after – very soon after I accepted the job at QE I think I might have even just given in my notice, I got home, put the radio on, and there was an announcement on the radio that the Health Secretary, Andrew Lansley, has appointed an administrator at the South London Healthcare Trust and this was a first, and only time I think. That’s me mainly. And I have a wife and two children.

That was 2012 one of my first days at work there was the summer Olympics happening, the London 2023 Olympics. I must have moved to Deptford in 2008 and the Tory Lib Dem coalition got elected 2010, and the Health and Social Care Act was brought in by them. So, I’m sort of starting at the beginning here. And in order a group got set up in Lewisham called Lewisham Keep our NHS Public. It was set up by [Helmoot Hive? 00:03:01] and Louise Irving so at some point – that Act I think got passed in 2012 so it would probably have been about 2010/2011.

The Lewisham Pensioner’s Forum down the road, they put on a public meeting for people to explain what is the Health and Social Care Act and what can we do about it. Back when the Health and Social Care Act was being introduced there was – Lewisham had an anti-cuts alliance and it was sort of resisting cuts to the libraries, there was disability benefit cuts, there was all sorts of activism going on in and around Deptford, but nothing health specific except for the Lewisham Pensioner’s Forum had put this on with Louise.

So, me and my girlfriend at the time, we all went to that talk. And then I don’t know – did we wait and chat to Louise after, or at some point in among all the anti-cuts stuff we saw Louise once or twice. There was an anti-cuts carnival and, there was quite a few hundred people sort of paraded up Lewisham high street banging on saucepans and stuff. A bloke, Ray, borrowed our saucepan and it must have been bucketing down because what I remember is this wooden spatula here is banging our saucepan with, he was doing it so vigorously he just smashed it to pieces and hadn’t noticed.

So, there have been things like that. The Labour council and Labour mayor, there was a feeling that they were implementing rather than resisting cuts. It’s a tricky one isn’t it. I suppose they’re budgets are being set by central government and how much power do they have, and how much are they coerced with this threat of administrators and things coming in. So, anyway, they – so Lewisham Keep our NHS Public became a group. At the same time the Labour Party had a group I believe called SOS NHS, maybe.

And that was one of those – because it was mainly me, Mel my other half, Louise, Helmoot, there was like four or five of us, so we’d have times of being very active, protesting, Simon Hughes was the Lib Dem councillor, so part of the – he had more influence to maybe stop the law, so we would leaflet and demonstrate around Bermondsey. Just again the four or five of us, and at the tube stations at Canada Water and places. And put on street theatre.

Interviewer (Anila): Who did the street theatre?

Iain: I think a bloke called John Hamilton might have written it. Louise would know. At one point I wrote a thing, oh what was it, it might have been Bullshit Bingo or something, this is like a thing I always come up and think is a great idea, but I couldn’t make it. I was working or had a shift. And so, everyone else had this script which apparently made literally no sense and I think they were just like what the hell has Iain done here, we’ve got to put this on in Market Square in Bermondsey. We were trying to exert pressure on Simon Hughes, the Lib Dem MP, and get his constituents to know what he’s doing.

And I think educate people about the Health and Social Care Act. I started work at QE. The administrator came in. Ostensibly they said the administrator was going in because Queen Elizabeth Hospital was losing a million pounds a week, I think, or the South London Healthcare Trust, so that was Queen Mary, Princess Royal, and QE, so Bexley, Bromley and Greenwich hospitals. Queen Mary had already been shut effectively. They’d shut that hospital down. Told QE they would open 80 beds, never opened the 80 beds. QE A&E was already out of control, 100 people in a department early in the day.

Ambulances queuing around the corner. People in corridors waiting 12 or 24 hours, so QE was bursting at the seams because they didn’t have enough beds, but they – my understanding is, Louise knows more about this stuff, they were OK at MRSA which was the big thing at the time. There wasn’t especially high MRSA rates, there wasn’t especially high mortality, it was a hospital performing OK but losing money. And it had a massive PFI debt on the building. So, the building cost £200m to make, it was going to cost the government £1.3bn.

Interviewer: Can you explain what PFI is?

Iain: A private finance initiative, so over the weeks after the administrator going there the Labour party and Tory party each blamed each other for this. Labour said this had been almost signed and sealed before they took power in 97. Labour party signed on the dotted line early like May 97, Tony Blair had his photo taken outside on the building site, we’re building hospitals. They way they were buildings hospitals was by giving astronomical amounts of money to private venture capitalists, offshore tax avoiding companies, and then we’d rent the building back for like 25 years.

And they had a monopoly. The owners of the building would have a monopoly on any work that happened in the building. So, any time you need to adjust it because people’s healthcare needs change, something needs to happen, this company would say you owe us another few million. So, like our office, they once needed to replace the blind or something and the quotes and stuff were like hundreds and hundreds of pounds. This is just insane. And they own the car park next to the hospital. They charge astronomical sums.

This building, we’re sat in the Riverside Building, this building is a PFI. So, the estates in the hospital can sort of patch up and repair anything else, this building the company who own it call the shots. It’s the reason the hospital was losing a million quid a week, nothing else. Everything else paled in comparison to the contract that was signed to just handover way, way above and beyond what a hospital costs. And yes, and this was a totally standalone independent trust. And that was spoiler alert, that was why the High Court reversed the decision, said it’s illegal.

Matthew Kershaw, the Administrator, his jurisdiction was to South London Healthcare Trust so the idea that he would close next door’s hospital, bonkers isn’t it. On the one hand they’ve marketized and split up the NHS, and said there’s all these little things, and then even within that they can’t help themselves and say let’s pretend this standalone entity owes a lot of rent and in order to pay their rent they’re turfing out their neighbour. And selling their house.

So, that some of the background of why they wanted to close it, and Lewisham Hospital. And it was only at the point at which Louise sent an email to those of us in Lewisham Keep our NHS Public, and some other people she knew, that said the Administrator is going to try and close Lewisham Hospital. Like it did, it seemed totally out of the blue that that would in any way help anything, particularly like I said QE needed beds, it needed investment. What it didn’t need was the next door hospital closing.

But you get paid a tariff, each person who comes into A&E you get a tariff. And they wanted to cut their building costs so they would sell stuff here, more people would go through the doors at QE, that’s more money to service the debt at QE. So, yes, I’ve got Louise’s email here if you want me to read it. Or not.

Interviewer: Go on then.

Iain: Here you go. Urgent meeting of Lewisham KONP, that’s Keep our NHS Public, and then Louise just said, “Dear colleagues, I’ve heard it’s very likely a proposal will be made by the Special Administrator to close Lewisham A&E as that will provide increased patient flow to struggling PFI hospitals. If A&E goes then other acute services will go too, and Lewisham will be downgraded.” And she said, “Let’s meet up” so then a bunch of us met. That was 17 September 2012. And the meeting was then pretty soon after that.

Brian was there, who you spoke to, Louise was there, I was there. Helmoot, this is at the health centre where Louise works, and she told us that she had a very reliable source that this was going to happen. And it was one of those meetings where everyone just sort of says things and not much is happening, and I remember just sort of near the end saying I think we need a Twitter account, and a website, and posters, and leaflets. And Louise had said we need a public meeting, and a demo. Was there a demo, at that point she might well have said a demo.

But that then basically became the outcome, and I went out after the meeting and said, so I said I can set up the Twitter and website if no-one else wants to. And then that was it. Went home. Learned how to do WordPress on a YouTube tutorial. Looked up some other things and decided on savelewishamhospital.com. Got going on that. It was such a high I think, those few months where we suddenly got up to 3,000 followers, and I was getting relentlessly tweeted and retweeted.

I sat down, put on BBC London news literally never do it, one Friday evening and there was a health correspondent, and he said, “I have just been told that on Monday that Matthew Kershaw is going to announce the closure of Lewisham Hospital and obviously there will be some local opposition to this” and it just was like, for whatever reason they press released it on a Friday, and I was like – that bit – I think smarter people realised that that would all happen because once you sort of pull and A&E –

A lot of acute services in a hospital, my understanding is because they’re anaesthetists who can urgently highly heavily sedate people, so that normally brings with it the maternity, the A&E, the ICU, emergency theatres and stuff, and if you pull of the A&E part normally means that whole core rapid response type things goes, and all those other bits go. And I didn’t understand that was happening until the actual thing came out on the Monday. So, it was quite brief I think. It’s probably – I guess the BBC have it somewhere.

Interviewer: Do you remember how you felt in particular?

Iain: I was sort of buzzing. I really felt like right, game on, because we’d sort of talked about it and – because I sort of knew because of the good source that it was going to happen, and then had the website up and running, I’d already tweeted and drawn the attention to the website. I tweeted at Lewisham Council and said are you going to support us if the A&E comes under threat. I’d tweeted at the Mayor I think. I tweeted all the local blogs, back then 2012, blogs were like a thing weren’t they.

And I said pay attention to our website. Rumour has it this, but nothing like – probably still only had 10 followers or something, but it was just sort of putting it on people’s radar, and the website looked – the front page looked like a website. And I think it just had one big like take action button or get in touch button, or something like that. So, it just very quickly – I guess I must have called Louise, I was like they’ve just said it on the BBC, and so that gave us a few days.

I feel like that gave us a real few days to actually set the agenda, and I’d been reading up all this stuff about search engine optimisation, have you heard about this, it’s so dull, it’s awful. And so, had Mel my other half to be fair, and we were oh jeez, it’s too boring to talk about. But it meant we felt like we can fill this space. We can set the tone of the debate and position ourselves as the people here, because what the hell were they doing over the weekend. I couldn’t quite believe they’d done it.

And so, started doing things like that. So, then we were all set and waiting for the trust Administrator report. Funnily enough Mel, she was six months pregnant with our first child, so like I shouldn’t have been spending all this time doing this. But I couldn’t – at the same time you sort of have to, do you know what I mean, it’s quite – it was very – I was very conflicted, and it was –

Interviewer: Does that mean Mel didn’t get to go on the buggy march then?

Iain: No, she would have. Definitely came on one or two so it was perfectly timed for that.

Interviewer: And did you have your baby here at –

Iain: Yes, we did, in the birth centre. Every time I walk past it at work, I like it. And so, it feels so real. When you’re having your maternity stuff here and you’re antenatal classes, and all of this, and you think bloody hell, what if that goes. And we had moved from Deptford to Ladywell so sort of in the shadow of the hospital, and it is the biggest employer in the borough. Lewisham doesn’t have, it’s not Southwark or other boroughs where they’ve got all these big things on the Thames, and lots of things. Lewisham has less stuff. It felt like – it’s slap bang on the high street.

Interviewer: Essentially it’s probably shaped, the current population, the infrastructures around it, they’re all –

Iain: Undoubtedly. So many people born here every year, and the Registry Office is next door. There’s been hospitals here, like you were saying earlier, for hundreds of years. Like the idea that somebody one day could just say when it is busy and functioning, and there clearly is a self-evident need for it, and then they turn around and say no, you’re wrong, we know best. With the maternity stuff as well, what was funny we were having our antenatal classes down in the green zone there and we met some people who are still friends, and this would have been our second or third weekly class.

And that must have been on a Monday, or the following Monday or Tuesday, and they said, “Have you heard that Lewisham Hospital might close? It’s gone viral.” And I was like yes. I know, I can’t believe it’s gone viral, and it never – I was like that’s me. I did that tweet, I got all that going, but obviously everything else is everybody else isn’t it. There’s in no way shape or – like what happens then is everyone then is in on it, and is retweeting it, and owning it, and sharing it. And having that shock when they see it. And having that reaction of like shit, what are we going to do about.

So, then it was off and running. And then, the report came out and I was generally speaking at work in – at QE, my job was based in A&E so I could see how busy things were all the time. And trying to keep on top of all the tweets, media outlets, can we talk to someone about this and this, and trying to write articles on my Samsung Galaxy S2. Just trying to quickly write why are they closing Lewisham Hospital. And so, I’d be writing, I was generally at work, seeing patients, going on the phone, doing stuff. Probably fielding calls from Louise, or Tamsin, or people about all the things which very quickly needed doing.

Because I guess we must have straightaway put on the website about the public meeting and they would have – I think I always, or we probably had a what are we trying to get people to do, what is our thing. And every one of those things involves a tonne of work, and very quickly it felt like you don’t really want to direct people too much because the offers of help and other people, what they do is brilliant. So, we’d get offers from lots of people, like someone from Millwall Football Club, I think this was after I went – said I work in office at Millwall, you can have whatever you need, it’s yours.

So, when it came to the Riverly Ballroom stuff they printed off all these tickets, at the semi-final of the FA Cup they had all these Save Lewisham Hospital t-shirts on. Just provided admin support. Unions getting in touch saying we will help with printing and things. A lot of things, and not everything happens just as you want, but a lot of people saying what can I do, I’ve got this skill or time. I put just the bank details up on the website at one point, I thought people keep offering, let’s put the bank details up.

And Rosie said, we’d get significant donations from people saying I was born in Lewisham, or I trained in Lewisham, and now I’m living elsewhere in the world, I can’t be there, here’s some money and stuff. So, the way the website, there’s such a resource for all of that now isn’t there. There’s tonnes of stuff. I’m trying to think. A lot of people then took it, people then wanted to go to the – the Administrator was having meetings all over the place to explain what was happening, independently of us. And also, Helmoot was quite a fan of this. He went right what do I ask him, what I do I do.

So, we sort of printed out Bullshit Bingo and when he says certain things you tick it off. Some of it became quite angry, police were needed to get him in and out, but people – various organisations would get in touch and put stuff on, and do things. And it was a bit of a case of go for it. But then once the campaign was out, once the word was out then people just did stuff, and I guess we just tried to keep involved on Twitter really and on the website. And then the public meeting happened.

Interviewer: Were you able to be there?

Iain: I was there, yes. Jeez, that was like nuts as well, that was a thing. Do you know the Less Off Auditorium, so it’s in the hospital grounds here. I can’t remember how many people it holds, a couple of hundred, it’s big, and Louise has been doing health campaigning for a long time, and your crowds you’re normally talking about 20 or 30, and then she called one day and again I was at QE and got this phone call from Louise saying the police are saying that hundreds of people are coming, and we’re not allowed to do it because it’s not safe on the hospital grounds.

I don’t believe, you know, I think we were a bit like, no, hundreds of people don’t turn up, that’s just bollocks. That’s just the police being police, it won’t be that many people. And I think it did get quite real and I think Louise was personally, as the chair, this responsibility was on her, and so I then – shit what do we do, so I called up Tamsin from the Pensioner’s Forum, Tamsin Bacchus and she said, “Hang on, I’ve got an idea, have you heard of a three ring circus?” and no I’d not heard of a three ring circus.

But it is, there will be like three big tops and the performers go from one to the other to the other, so then you’ve got three crowds on. Tamsin said, “So, we can do that – the Saville Centre was booked, the Calabash Club down the road on George Lane, she got that booked, that’s like a Caribbean day centre, so that’s a good few hundred yards away. And then we had maybe the Saville Centre was also a place, and then also the hospital AV team. So, the hospital obviously were apolitical in this but said have our room, have this really big room, we’ll put it on the big screen, the projector and we’ll find a way to do it.

And then the logistics of that was just totally nuts because it was – having, at the last minute, hundreds of people did turn up, and I remember at the Calabash people on crutches who were older, and again turning up with family, and they had travelled up from sort out into Downham and Bromley, and saying we have to stop this. I was like born here, they’re with their family, and there’s not room for everyone in the Calabash, so a lot of people spilled out on to the street once it was full up. People are walking around with buckets. Again, we weren’t short on volunteers. People were like how can I help. And people were just chucking money in the buckets and saying I’ll collect the money.

And people were mostly forgiving and understanding, some were a bit pissed off that they’d made this journey only some of them were in the overspill room with it on a projector, and I was running up and down trying to make sure it works. I would take questions from people and then I’d run down to the lesser – I vaguely remember it mustn’t have worked because people were pretty pissed off with me, one or two. I’ve come here, you’ve advertised this, and now they had some sympathy, but it started late.

I think – who was talking, Louise must have talked, Brian, I think the MP, the mayor, and they weren’t expecting just to be shuffling around Lewisham, but it looked – and afterwards in the Lewis Club, the social club here, I remember Brian saying, “That was a disaster wasn’t it?” and I was like, “But it’s like Woodstock, everyone says Woodstock was actually crap if you were there but I’m sure it looks good.” And then, of course it did, it was on BBC London that night and they’re filming the Calabash Club and it is just teaming with people, and their backed up. People are really angry about this.

And those meetings were quite – same sort of time then suddenly – a lot of our stuff had said Save Lewisham A&E and it was on the day that the thing came out, it was suddenly like oh my God, maternity, children’s, all the paediatric stuff, so then we were sort of trying to insert that into the posters as well.  And obviously we’re leafleting every night at Lewisham Station. And the leaflet was going like hot cakes. So, then it was on demo next, which going to be hands around the hospital I think was the theme. I don’t know how well that went.

But everyone again had ideas, some people were like I want to organise hands around a hospital, and someone was like I want to have a choir on at this point. And today at the nurses picket I saw someone who had just come to support the picket, and then had mentioned – so I went along in solidarity with St Thomas’ and people mentioned that I work at Lewisham, she was like I was born in Lewisham. I was like oh right, do you remember the hospital campaign, she was like yes, it was brilliant. And she was a teenager at the time.

It’s good to think that they’re still supporting pickets. It probably would have happened anyway wouldn’t it, but I think it just was an issue that made people realise, I think particularly people in Lewisham that you have to resist these things. People were suspicious of each other. Some people did not like the Labour party one little bit, and didn’t want the Labour party to be even talking at the demo. Those of us, me included, felt like you have to have the MP and the mayor because they are the elected representatives locally, and they have political power, that’s what they’ve been elected to have.

And we need them on our side. And they wanted to be on our side. There was nothing suspicious about the way the Labour party were in our meetings either, there was never a feeling that they were high jacking stuff. There was always a sense of what do you want, and people from were every day chatting with us. It was very collaborative. And that ended up happening. So, that came down there, and that was where my abiding memory of that – because we needed to get some money somehow, and I said let’s try and get some t-shirts printed.

Do you know Martin Rowson? He’s like a Guardian cartoonist who lives – you’d be able to see his house out that window, and we knew he was a lefty because his next door neighbour who – he helped us, actually he went on to help us loads and loads of design, and the next door neighbour Richard Procter he did later on fall out with the campaign. So, we asked Martin Rowson if he would do a picture and we’d put it on a t-shire and he said it would be a pleasure because he once got rushed to Lewisham A&E because he had had wasp sting while drinking some red wine, in his mouth, and gone into anaphylaxis. It was the most bourgeois emergency imaginable.

So, he did this picture, God it was a real effort getting these t-shirts made. Someone in Greenwich offered us a bit of a discount but this was all really last minute, so I only picked them up that morning. Louise drives down and sets up a gazebo and Mel is now like seven or eight months pregnant, and just has a tonne of these t-shirts. I was meant to help her. The idea was that we would both do this stall together and sell all the t-shirts, but various people blocked other people from comparing. So, it ended up, I don’t know, but I was like the inoffensive choice.

Interviewer: It was a lot of pressure for you then.

Iain: All of this would just be like – because everyone is busy, and this is all happening quickly and we’re working. So, I remember Louise would say it felt like plate spinning and like all the plates were crashing, and people would make a lot of demands because it wasn’t a constituted organisation. It had just suddenly become very big, and Louise mainly was holding responsibility for who gets on the – who speaks at this. That was how decisions were made, there would be meetings, 50 or 60 people in a planning meeting.

Everyone piles in. The funny thing is as well the unions who we’d approached right at the start of the campaign who wanted – we quite vocally saying they want nothing to do with us, that they would submit their own stuff, actually there is more to the proposals than this. They have to think about their members who might transfer – at this time as well, and we felt like Lewisham Hospital was being asset stripped. Or the local health economy was being asset stripped and made more lucrative to private investors to come in and do this.

That was in the background anyway of people’s thoughts about what was going on, and a lot of that – and the PFI stuff was another thing that would – difference of opinion on this between Labour party and other activists, or Labour party policy was quite big, so people didn’t really want – some people didn’t want the Labour party involved. So, then at the last minute, at the demonstration, I’ve now got to compare this thing. The stage is tiny. It’s raining. I was 10 years younger than I am now, so I was 31, and nobody knew me really at all.

Compared to Helmoot or John, or the people who had been left activists in Lewisham for a while, and I was very nervous. But I did it. Poor old Mel had to do this t-shirt stall and I could just see across like this wet field, you know, just this sign up and all she had was like a biscuit tin, or a celebrations box to put money in. And I think we just did tenner a t-shirt. People just kept giving 20s and things, and these sold out. I think we had 3,000, we made like £3,000 in a day anyway. Suddenly we had money as a campaign but Mel just like afterwards, this biscuit tin full of notes in the middle of Lewisham.

She’s like oh my God, what do we do. Get home. Quick. It must have been so exhausting, like unbelievably so. Again, nobody knew me but Louise just after she’d been appointed chair said, “I know Iain is good, I’ve done stuff with him, can he be secretary” and the people voted for me, and then someone else said, “Can Helmoot be secretary as well? And also, Iain’s wife is very heavily pregnant, and this does not seem sensible.” Anyway –

Interviewer: Did you take the role then?

Iain: I did take the role, yes. So, as secretary in the meetings, and I was less involved after my son was born. Then we had money, we had t-shirts. And we didn’t have t-shirts anymore. My other highlights were doing a Thanks Lewisham hashtag on Twitter one day and just thought why don’t people say what they want. And it was one of those where you sort of think this is going to backfire, people are going to take the piss, but it was so moving, to me anyway, to just read all these people. It’s probably still out there and saying all the things that the hospital had done for them.

And it kind of focuses the attention. You’re just like oh my God, this is actually much more to people than I probably appreciate. We did – the Trust administrator had a consultation, and someone had come to one of our meetings, so they were closing hospitals in West London. At their consultation there were only 401 responses to the official consultation, and they said McKinzie and these companies, consultancy firms, they have hundreds of workers, so their consultation, they lost by 230 to 190 or something.

With positive and negatives, and they were like these consultancy firms instruct their employees, go in here and say these things. So, I went away and was like right we’ve just got to nail this consultation so we set up – and again, Barbara and I think other people, you know, we would make up proformas for people. I just had quite an explicit guide on the website, tick no question 4, yes to question 5, say this in this. And Cheryl I think, I think a lot of people just really – that then became a real focus, let’s swamp the consultation.

So, it was good – we had people’s attention and then there was always something else to do, so then it was – after the demo I think it was that. And in among that some people on Twitter, including the Lewisham Hospital choir, do you remember them, they had just been on telly at this time and so they sang at the demo. Gareth Malone had set that up, that was all good, it was all extra attention and Chiddy [Edgemofoe? 00:40:16] who is an A&E Consultant here and was in the choir, we must have tweeted him, but he knew Tony O’Sullivan and people anyway.

But he – I think it was him, someone sent me a letter and said this is our response to the consultation and I think it was the A&E – I feel like it was the A&E consultants went first. It could have been the gastro bloke called John O’Donoghue. So, they sent their letter and they’re so amazingly written, they’re so articulate, they’re so precise. They’re evidence based arguments about the harm that was going to happen if the hospital closed. It’s like can I put this on the website, and they were like yes.

And so, then I ended up sort of – that sort of snowballed into us maybe on Twitter encouraging – if your department has done a response send us your thing. We will do the consultation on the website, we’ll put it up there, and it was big. It felt huge and it felt like that was important because it felt like we weren’t just going to win the argument by force, we were going to win it by reason, and that we had all those reasons there. So, that was another highlight.

We’re sort of getting to a point where I probably stepped back a bit not long after some of those things. Just before Christmas, I think 23 or 24 December, I just handed over all the passwords to Olivia and said like – and went –

Interviewer: At this point you were a new dad.

Iain: I was a few days away, yes. Luckily, the due date was the 28th and God I should have stopped sooner but it was just difficult. After the first, one of the very first meetings Tony O’Sullivan came up in quite a modest way and was like my name is Tony, I’m a Paediatric Consultant, my daughter Layla can do social media, do you want a hand with that. And I was like yes, because I haven’t got enough hours in the day, that would be great and then I totally forgot about it. And then he came up again in a subsequent meeting at the end.

And then he was like – I was like yes, OK, let me take your name. And this was similar, Vicky would come up to me and be like I’ve got this – whatever, do it, I know – I can’t – my time is full. And then I mentioned it to Louise and she’s like oh God he’s like the Director of Children’s Services, I know the family, they’re great. Get in touch. Reply to him. And then that was it. For a month, and there was a month of a newborn and on that first – the second demo, the big one, was like late January. So, Finn was a month old, and I brought him out, and I think Mel was quite poorly.

I think we’d all been poorly, when just everyone gets sick and I sort of limped out, I was like in and out of that demo. It was wet as well. I think I joined it as it went quite near the house, went to the end, said high to various people, off again. And yes, I sort of then was in and out of everyone arguing with each other. Louise or people would be like we need the “secretary” to do something, or can you – more things, there was always another email, there was always something else to do.

And then the Rivoli Ballroom Party I think was about the only other thing I really got involved in, and that was because the Rivoli Ballroom is great. Have you been there?

Interviewer: Yes, I have.

Iain: It’s like an excuse to go there and for that, that was a real effort, we must have got a babysitter, that must have been – the kids must have been months old, and we spent it sitting in the cloakroom with Lucy Pepper from Millwall, most of it. You’re just tired. You’re happy to be out and you wander on to the dancefloor for a bit and then – but that sold out and before it had sold out at some point again I can’t go into a meeting and not end up taking something on. We sort of like said the prices, and then I went and looked at Eventbrite, and Eventbrite take money for everything don’t they.

If you do an event through Eventbrite they take a quid or two, and I said I’ll do the admin for that, that’s just silly. That’s like if we sell 700 stuff that’s like a grand to people, we could have that money, leave it to me. They can do it to my PayPal, and jeez, that was again, you know, sitting in the twilight with like a baby lying there just exhausted for hours. Because you’d have to tally up your PayPal to your thing, and a lot of people would do things on trust with us.

The fact that they’re just paying it to me, and there was always I think – it felt very – lots of things felt like they were very personal between people and the campaign. I can’t remember what the lineup was. I sorted out the Tombola and the Tombola – that was another fun one. You sort of send a tweet out and say has anyone got any good stuff for us to give away on a tombola, so Martin Rowson, who’s like – his cartoon’s go for £1,000 a piece, he’s like you can have my NHS Jeremy Hunt original, Cheryl won that. Have you heard a Banned Public Service Broadcasting?

Interviewer: Yes.

Iain: Someone will go – Wilberforce, he had kids born, anyway he had a connection to the hospital, lived down the road. So, Mel again on her maternity leave, had quite fun knocking on the house of public service broadcasting, oh great are you from the campaign, brilliant, there you go. Great, thanks. A fella who does the Tour de France presenting knocked on our door with things at the same time our baby was choking, and Mel was like can you help, he’s like – there’s was lots – and I think there’s probably millions more stories, thousands more stories of people.

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Oral Histories: Sheila Wharton

An oral history interview with Sheila Wharton conducted by Anila Ladwa for the project In/Visible Labour, part of the In Living Memory programme.

In/Visible Labour responds to the radical and resilient experiences of collective family making through a programme of artworks and oral histories works by a diverse range of Lewisham communities and their support networks across the borough.

Sheila Wharton came to work as a midwife at Lewisham Hospital after seeing the 1977 Battle of Lewisham on the news. She later traveled to Bolivia where she volunteered in maternity care and returned to Lewisham when she was about to start a family of her own. Sheila continued a role in family services while living in Lewisham and although retired, continues a role at Lewisham Hospital as a buddist nun through the Chapel Service, offering weekly meditation sessions in the Healing Garden.

Transcription

Sheila: How I came to be in Lewisham, goodness me, and it’s also bound up with being a midwife. So, in the 70s I’d actually spent a couple of years working as a nurse in Bangladesh, and when I came back from Bangladesh I had at that point, I was a general nurse and a paediatric nurse, but I thought I will want to go away again in the future, and I will need to be a midwife next time. So, after Bangladesh I found myself living in the countryside in Oxfordshire, near my sister, and really it was so difficult, and I got to the point if I see another cow I’ll go mad.

And then I heard about what was happening in Lewisham. There were the Lewisham riots and people standing up to racism, and I thought yes, that’s where I need to be. I was part of the anti-Nazi league but in my very Conservative area in Oxfordshire I think there was three of us, I remember, so I was probably the chair and the treasurer, and anything else. Lewisham seemed like a really good place and having a look, and certainly not Googling it in those days, but I did realise that there was a hospital in Lewisham and that they trained midwives.

So, it seemed pretty obvious. So, I came to Lewisham, let me think, I think it was 1980, or it could have been 79. And I came and joined I think there was six of us in my midwifery group, and what I really liked about the hospital as well as Lewisham was it’s cultural diversity. So, I felt really at home. That this was a place where you could be whoever and even though I’m a White woman, I feel much more comfortable in a place that welcomes everybody.

And certainly, there was that feel in the hospital. However, I mean because of where we are in time and the place, I saw as much racism in the hospital as anywhere else, it would have been very strange if that hadn’t have been. I never doubted that I was supposed to be here. So, my memories of training in the hospital, I mean it was very exciting. I had the idea that midwifery was going to be a celebration of life and I thought it would be – I just spent a year in Oxfordshire’s Pain Unit, working with a lot of people with terminal cancer and so I thought midwifery would be very different.

And it was a bit of a shock to find that it wasn’t always so. But getting into it, meeting the sort of people, there were people who inspired me, and I loved being with mothers and babies, and dads. And while I was training I got to be part of a very new organisation called Radical Midwives which was, I think probably still is a marmite organisation, some people welcomed it with open arms, other people felt rather threatened by it. And certainly, that was my experience. And also, I was a student, so it was very much as a student challenging people that had been qualified for many, many years was an interesting experience.

I have memories of resisting doing episiotomies, resisting doing shaves, and enemas, and talking to women about their rights, and that wasn’t really encouraged. That took a little bit of courage and it led to some funny things. But also, it was good, and I do remember people – some people who had been qualified for a long time, they were really interested to hear that actually this could be done another way. And so, it wasn’t all confrontational. Some things were quite funny in the confrontation.

At that time the Active Birth Movement and the work of Leboyer was really at the forefront, and this thing about babies being in bed with their mums for bonding. And I remember on the post-natal ward at night I’d go round sort of tucking babies in with their mums, and then the next midwife would come and take all the babies out. Then I’d come and put them back in again. So, there was this sort of pantomime during the night. I really felt for the babies being in a nursery with the lights on. I found that quite painful.

But anyway, and the other thing that sort of I have to smile about now, when I was working in the antenatal clinic women coming in blood tests, and they’re actually very important blood tests to see if there is any abnormality or potential abnormality of the baby, and the women weren’t being told what the blood tests were for. And there would be long queues of women waiting to be processed before having their blood taken. And I would be taking my time explaining what all these tests were going to be for. And it might have repercussions, dah, dah.

But it meant that the queue went on and on, and that was a bit of trouble, but it was good, and it was an important phase. I mean the very thing about being a midwife and bringing those babies into the world, and empowering women. I mean when I started midwifery it was just delivering babies, and I remember the first delivery I ever saw, I thought I cannot believe women have been doing this all this time. How come. We don’t know.

I remember my jaw just dropping watching. And I was very lucky because I saw a very normal delivery. It was my very first one. But I thought oh my God, this is immense. And the privilege of being there. I mean as I just remember it I’m moved with the memory and seeing women holding their babies for the first time, and seeing the fathers being with their babies. I think because of what I was doing and with encouragement of radical midwives really coming to see how childbirth – I mean I came to regard it as almost a political act.

And it was an opportunity for empowering women in a way that they might not have been empowered before, and how important it was through that experience to give them a voice for who they were, and it became very important not just the bonding of baby and mother, but I became really aware of the importance of bonding between baby and father. And also, bonding between mother and father. I would then really be very mindful of this incredibly important time that could make or break a relationship as well.

So, it became incredibly important and how the midwife is in that, that the midwife is not the most important person, but a facilitator of this miracle.

Interviewer (Anila): Did it inspire you in terms of having your own family?

Sheila: No. First of all, I thought oh God, this looks very painful. And I think the work itself was nourishing me, and I was giving as much as I could emotionally. I was a very committed and once again this got me into trouble because if I went through a labour with a mother and it looked as though the birth was coming in the next few hours, and people would be saying time for you to go home, I was saying no way. I have always believed in continuity of care.

You stay, it doesn’t matter if you don’t go home until the middle of the night, and that wasn’t very popular either. It was quite popular with the mothers and the fathers, I didn’t ask the babies, but it didn’t inspire me. I still felt nurtured enough by my work. I very committed in the work that I did. It’s really funny because just talking about it out loud does bring so much back.

I did my stint at Lewisham Hospital, and it didn’t feel like the best place to have a baby, I’ll be perfectly honest. And there was some definite misogynistic views around and sometimes it was quite painful. And at that time there was a book put out by Sheila Kitzinger called The Good Birth Guide and so Lewisham didn’t do very well in it. But there was a hospital that came out top and it’s called The West London Hospital, which is no more. So, I thought well having been at one end I’ll go to the West London.

And to be honest, there was hardly any difference. There was hardly any difference at all which was a bit of a shock. So, you know, I left Lewisham, so that was up in Hammersmith, although I still kept my little bedsit in Lewisham. I was living in Deptford at the back of The Albany, that is really known for its midwifery service which I think isn’t there anymore, but it was an absolutely brilliant service. And I lived at the back in some – a cooperative housing. I mean I didn’t work there.

And I think it all sprang up while I was away because having left Lewisham and then did a few months at The West London, and thinking oh crumbs it’s all the same, I decided that I would leave the country. I’ve always been one for big statements. I went and worked in South America as a midwife for three years. And found still the same terrible attitudes. Then while I was in Bolivia I became pregnant, thought about it, and I think I would have been OK having the baby there. I had a really good obstetrician, but their knowledge of sick babies wasn’t good, and I thought if my baby wasn’t very well I think I’d want to be back.

I looked at where in England am I going to go to. And I thought actually I want to go back to Lewisham because I know that Lewisham has got good services. So, this was 1984. I thought this would be a good place to bring a baby into the world, and I’m afraid I still didn’t want to have my baby at Lewisham Hospital, and I had decided I would have a home birth. I felt that was going to be the safest way in the even I didn’t – but the day before he was born we found he was breech so I actually – all my politics went to the wall. And I had a private delivery in a centre where I had him naturally. Actually, he had a very nice birth.

Interviewer: I remember you saying that you used all your savings for that.

Sheila: Yes, and we didn’t have much, and it certainly didn’t cover – but when we told the obstetrician that I’d been working as a volunteer in South America as a midwife he just said, “Well, give what you want” so yes, we gave it. And it wasn’t lost on me that politically having a private delivery wasn’t what I’d ever thought of, but I wanted my baby to have the best, and I think he did have the best. And the obstetrician was lovely, and I was very grateful. We were also homeless at that time.

We were living in a room in somebody’s house, and it wasn’t good. It was luxury going to this place for one night. I could have stayed there. But anyway, we came back to Lewisham and enjoyed what Lewisham had to offer. I mean in those days they had something called a baby gym which – because my partner at that time, we got married very quickly, while I was pregnant. In Lewisham, next door to Lewisham Hospital, we got married in the Registry Office. All of these connections weren’t lost on me.

But I quickly became a single parent and there were lots of things that were available for me. He would go off to the baby gym. We also had free swimming. We had a wonderful – it was called friendly gardens playgroup, so I went there, and we had all this free care and a thriving library which isn’t – not working now. We had so much that really contributed to my son having such a good start even though for a long time I was on benefits, he really benefited from what Lewisham gave.

And even when he was small we went to lots of free activities. In the summer I remember when he was six going to circus workshops in Ladywell Fields where he decided he would be an actor. And actually, that reminds me going for a discount to, when he was eight, at Lewisham Theatre, there was an amateur production of Oliver! And that’s when Toby came out and said, “This is what I’m going to be doing.”

I stopped being a midwife when I was pregnant, and it was tough being a midwife in Bolivia. It was tough being a midwife anywhere I think. There’s always been this tension between midwives and obstetricians, not all, but a lot. And so, when I came back from Bolivia it was like well what on earth am I going to do now. I’m a single parent, on benefits, realising that as a single parent I couldn’t go back to nursing or midwifery because I didn’t have family support. I didn’t – so what was I going to do with a baby.

So, I was a childminder for five years, registered with Lewisham, so I was a proper paid up childminder. And benefited from training and courses from Lewisham, and I really enjoyed being a childminder for local families. I had a lot of children that came through my hands and I’m still tracing some of them down. I did that for five years. Then I retrained to be a social worker, and then worked mainly in Greenwich. I did work for a little while at an assessment centre in Lewisham just for six months looking at some of the tougher cases that were going through court.

And then about nine years ago I retired. I had to retire early because I was ill and not getting any better. And couldn’t just continue which was a real sadness for me. I was then a social worker and a play therapist working with children in care. Some of them were placed in Lewisham. I got better and my own spiritual journey really developed. I decided to become a nun, I’m a Buddhist. Soon after that, getting over my illness thinking what do I want to do, feeling this love for Lewisham, and thinking I want to give something back.

And because of my background once in the NHS you’re always in the NHS, my admiration and love for the NHS, yes, I know that people who work for the NHS will feel it even if they despair of it. And I thought the only thing I’ve really got to offer anymore is about who I am and what I am now, so I teach meditation. I thought maybe I have some skills that I can offer to my local hospital. And so, back to Lewisham, I was interviewed and joined the chaplaincy department at Lewisham Hospital, and that was nearly seven years ago.

So, some of that time on the wards. I found it quite interesting that as a chaplain I became more and more drawn to wanting to support staff even more than patients. Really feeling the struggle that staff are having. I just wanted to make myself available under the guise of teaching meditation, but it expands and actually developed during the pandemic. Because of my age and everything, first of all we weren’t allowed to go back into the hospital.

So, what I did was I put myself forward on the wellbeing thing to have online work, and in actual fact I’ve done far more work by not going into the hospital than I did there. By being online I’ve been able to offer support to staff at a time that was OK for them, instead of it just being for two or three hours once a week. I see somebody online at half past seven in the morning before she goes to work. And then somebody at the end. So, that’s been all through the pandemic.

And now I’m going back into the hospital because of the healing garden, and so that’s yet another phase. And being able to bring all my experiences of knowing what it’s like to be a staff member, and how hard it is. So, what I love is being able to support Lewisham Hospital employees, that really brings me a lot of pleasure. It’s been a wonderful opportunity because it’s led me into lots of memories.

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Oral Histories: Fay Smith, Kathy Johnson, Catherine Ngozi Ezeigwe

An oral history interview with three retired midwives conducted by Anila Ladwa for the In/Visible Labour project, part of the In Living Memory programme.

In/Visible Labour responds to the radical and resilient experiences of collective family making through a programme of artworks and oral histories works by a diverse range of Lewisham communities and their support networks across the borough.

Fay Smith came from Jamaica when she was eighteen to become a nurse and then trained as a midwife. After a short time working abroad she returned and did a refresher course at Lewisham Hospital where she remained and met lifelong friends Kathy Johnson and Catherine Ngoigwe. She retired as midwife but still works part-time as a community midwife for the service at University Hospital Lewisham.

Kathy Johnson came to the UK as a young girl and grew up in the Windrush generation. She went to school in Dulwich, where she was one of the only black children. She had wanted to be a scientist but eventually became a Community Midwife at Lewisham Hospital where she made lifelong friends with Fay Smith and Catherine Ngoigwe. Catherine Ngozi Ezeigwe originally came from South Nigeria to join her fiancee and followed her dream to become a midwife. She worked at Lewisham Hospital where she met lifelong friends

Fay Lewis and Kathy Johnson. A retired midwife, she still lives in Lewisham and remains friends with Fay Smith and Kathy Johnson. She is a grandmother and full time carer for her own mother.

Transcription

Fay: I’m Fay Smith and I grew up in Jamaica. I went to school in Jamaica and then I came here when I was 18 to come and do nursing. Wasn’t my choice but my parents decided that this is what they wanted me to do, so I came. I did a four year course which was two years psychiatry, two years general and then at the end of that I had both qualifications. Registered Mental Nurse and General Nurse. And then after that I did my midwifery.

Interviewer (Anila): What made you decide to take up midwifery?

Fay: Well, I mean in those days you weren’t considered a complete nurse if you didn’t have midwifery. You’d do your general and then you’d go and do your midwifery to complete it. But for me, it turned out to be the best for me because once I started doing midwifery I didn’t want to know about general, just too much hard work.
Interviewer: And at what point did you then come to Lewisham?

Fay: I came to Lewisham, I had been in Bromley, then I’d been abroad for two and a half years. Came back and then I started doing agency at Lewisham. And they sent me to the maternity department. And once I’d been there I didn’t want to go back because before that I’d worked at King’s in the medical ward, and it was horrendous. I just remember it being very horrendous, there were two nurses and the HCA, and a ward of 30 odd patients, and I just kept running around all day. Not finding where I was, because there was just so much to do.
So, when I went into the post-natal ward at Lewisham I thought oh, this is much better. And the fact that I’d worked abroad, over there we never had that many patients in a ward in a day, the wards were much smaller. So, you had about maybe 15 patients and there would be five or six nurses. When I came back to that I thought no, that’s not for me, and that’s how I ended up in midwifery. And because I hadn’t practiced midwifery after my training I went to Lewisham to do a refresher course, and then after that I just stayed there.

Kathy: I’m Kathy Johnson. I originally came to the UK as a child, I went to school in Dulwich were my parents lived. I went to an all-girls school in the Windrush generation I might add, so life was a lot different. I felt an outsider because in the school of over a thousand girls in the last school where I was there was only two of us, and then the other school was three where my other sister was. And it was not the best time of my life I wouldn’t say, however, with strong people, so you made it through those turbulent times. You couldn’t complain to your parents that you didn’t feel comfortable because we’re lucky we’ve come to the mother country.

And you’re supposed to take what you can from the mother. However, it wasn’t always like that. After I left school I went to work, in fact I wanted to be a lab technician, so in general I wanted to be in a hospital environment, however, in the girls schools in those days you didn’t have the sciences in the same way. I had biology but not chemistry and physics, and things. So, that was a bit difficult to take. But I had a job in the laboratories in [unintelligible 00:04:58] the biscuit factory, it was quite exciting.

I was the only person of colour there and the head chemist was very good to me I must say that I felt at home with those people more than I’d felt at school. And while I was there they allowed me to go to day release to increase my science abilities, so that was good. And what I decided at that moment that I didn’t want to remain in an environment like that doing lab tech work, I wanted to be a haematologist.
So, therefore if I’m not going to get to the point of being a haematologist I’m going to go train as a nurse. And that’s when I decided to apply to be a nurse. In those times a lot of people of my nationality were sort of syphoned to do the lower grade nursing but I took my test and with flying colours, they couldn’t tell you hadn’t done well, so therefore I was able to do the registered nurse’s course. And we were a mix there because there were lots of foreign people who had come specifically to train, and it was quite a lively bunch of people.
And when I completed my general training I decided to do my midwifery training, I spent six months in surgical surgery and then went on to midwifery. And having completed midwifery at that time I decided I’d seen so many children who had had birth injuries, which I never knew about, and to see where they started and how they came, so I went to Great Ormond Street Hospital and did children’s nursing. After that I got married and was living in North London, and on the birth of my first children, of course I’m from South London, I had no family over there, so I moved back to the Southeast in 1976.
And at that juncture I worked at the Sydenham’s Children’s Hospital which was part of Lewisham community, and I thought no, this is not like Great Ormond Street so I’m going back to midwifery. So, in 1977 I applied to be at Lewisham midwifery unit, got the job. In 2011 then I continued to do a day for them until 2018 and worked in all spheres of the midwifery group, and the community. So, Lewisham I only knew since 1976 when I started to live in the area.

Catherine: My name is Catherine Ngozi Ezeigwe. I originally come from Nigeria in the Bibo section, South East Nigeria. I came here to join my fiancé then in 1973, May actually to be precise, and I arrived here. Within three months of my arrival, we had our wedding, a church wedding, and we lived in Fulham then. Working, I was just working, but what I really wanted to do was to be a midwife. All my life.
Because when I was a child in Nigeria where we lived my uncle, I spent most of my life with, was in the government and wherever the government premises are there is always a maternity unit, and I just admired the midwives so much. And the work they did, and the babies, that’s all I wanted to be. When I first came here my husband so much wanted me to teach actually, wanted me – I could never see myself as a teacher, so I didn’t go along with it. I even just to please him came to an interview in Goldsmith’s here and got admission and everything, and then in the end I said that’s where it’s going to end.

They kept the admission open for me for years, but I didn’t – meanwhile I was searching for somewhere to do my midwifery. Then you couldn’t do midwifery without first being a nurse. So, I had to go through nursing training, and then it’s finding a hospital. I lived here in Deptford but all the local hospitals that were doing training were so difficult to get nursing training, one big palaver until I got a place in Ladbroke Grove, St Charles’ Hospital.

And did my general nursing training there. Towards the end of my training, I think St Charles amalgamated with St Maries’ in Paddington, and that’s where I finished. And I still had the burning to get on with this business then you have to do your general nursing, and then practice for a minimum of six months before you can go on and do midwifery, there was no integrated courses. During your nursing training you had to do what they call specialists options, like the psychiatry or children’s nursing. But I chose midwifery, and I did it in St Mary’s.

And while I was in it was just – it was so much what I wanted to do, I enjoyed it so much, but there was something I saw there that I did not like from the outset, and it made me even more determined to become a midwife. Because the midwives, for some people who are working in a place such happy events that happen the majority of the time, they were all so miserable. So, I was so determined that I would be a midwife and I would be a different midwife.

So, at the end of my training in St Mary’s I had to then work in St Mary’s Hospital. As I was working my six months I was searching for where to do my midwifery and exactly six months after my training, general nursing course, I enjoyed it, but it was not what I wanted, I got an admission into St Mary’s Hospital in Isleworth to do my midwifery, and then some of the midwives that you interview will tell you this, part 1 and 2, but by the time I did midwifery it was integrated so you had to do one year of absolutely solid work.

Whereas your one year is measured in minutes, you had to do all those things, but it was enjoyable. It was quite energetic. In the meantime, during my general nursing training, I had two kids, which was quite something, and towards the end of my midwifery I was expecting my third child. As soon as I finished my training I went on leave and came back to the unit to work, I think we had to work back your maternity leave or something, you couldn’t just up and go. So, I worked that time.
And in the meantime, then I got a job simultaneously both at Guy’s and at Lewisham to work in the maternity unit, so I didn’t quite – it was quite a thing to choose. They were both equidistant from where I lived but in the end I think the reason I chose Lewisham was I could do my shopping on my way home because there was nothing like [unintelligible 00:13:33] when I finished work I went to Lewisham to do my shopping. And I was very glad I did. I started my general training on 31 December 1973 and left the service on 4 January 2014.

Interviewer: So, just a year after the campaign. That historic moment.

Catherine: Only six months of that period did I not work full time.

Kathy: When I joined Lewisham Hospital it was quite different because the places I’d worked in previously was a greater mix of staff but for me when I went to Lewisham it was predominantly people like me, and I thought that would be even nicer, but it wasn’t always nicer, but you learn to accommodate having faced all the challenges all the years from school days, to even nurse training. You were seen in a different light. You never got all that you really should have.

And as people together we could test and see that we were not really given as much as we required, however, we were fighters, and we stood our ground, and we made our ways through the systems even though they were stuck against us. So, coming to Lewisham was an eye opener to say well yes, there’s a lot of people like me here. But it didn’t sort of make me feel that it was all that I required. So, yes, but you learnt to get on with everything and be the person you want to be.

Fay: Because I started Bexley of course most of the population down there were mainly White but the nurses, there were quite a few, there were a lot of Africans, there were quite a few West Indians, and then I mean in my year there were I think probably half and half. We all got on very well. But when I came to Lewisham because at Lewisham there were a lot of Black people there I thought oh this must be nice working with others, but it wasn’t. Because some of them just thought, as Kathy said, you just coming here. And they weren’t always very nice to each other, which is what I found.

Kathy: One of those things that I thought that made them feel different I believe, I didn’t know it at the time, that in those days a lot of those midwives were just registered midwives, where a lot of us like myself, I was a registered midwife, I had done paediatrics, and I had done general nursing, and in those days some people were what they called SENs which is sort of a – in the present day way they are just a helper, auxiliary nurses, people that help the nurses.

So, they thought that you – because you have all this you might be thinking that you’re better than them, but it wasn’t that at all. You were just there as a midwife, and you did the job that you were called to do. But people did look down on you if you had more qualifications than themselves. And I think that was probably what it was, but you didn’t know it at the time, it’s only as time evolved and things were changing, people were needed to go and do their registered nursing, or upgrade themselves, then you realised that that probably was one of their bugbears.

There were some very strong characters who perhaps we would say own their territory. They’d been there a long time, yes, so they probably saw themselves as this is our territory, you’re now coming to upset the apple cart, and particularly if you had different views of how things should be.

Kathy: Quite different from where I worked before and of course where I worked before I was a student, so the role is now different. You come in, you’re a midwife, and hey ho, not like this, hand holding that is happening here, but mind you West Mead trained you. When you came out you were a midwife. They really did train you in everything. So, yes, I came in and everybody knew how experienced or inexperienced you were, you were just chucked in at the deep end.
And the systems were as they were. Nobody wanted to know whether you had children or not. You did not mention children at work, that’s how it was then. You just don’t talk about kids. So, we got on with the work, I’m quite a worker. And that’s it. I worked, first of all I said to them because I had a small child I opted to do night duty which was what I did until my kid was – my husband looked after them during the night, and that was it.

It was predominantly Black, we were like Caribbean, Asians, Chinese, and who else now, I think that was the mix. Of course, people had their clicks but on the whole it was fun, it was really fun. I can’t say I went off duty any day crying, I didn’t have the time or the energy. I just came, did the work, and went home. And then outside of work if you were sort of – if you had a child, we all got on so well. She would come from her house in Sidcup to Deptford to take my child for me so I can go and do whatever, because it’s not like today where you have to be mentored and all this.

And given orientation. There was no such thing in those days, it’s just these are what became new, very, very new later on. Not to talk like I was somebody who has just qualified basically, you enter the room and then you’re given students as well, and you say – but I think at that point as well you’re sort of firing with all the things you learnt still quite fresh in your head. You’re just doing them. There’s one woman that is Blacker than me, she came from the Congo or something, and I went to her, and she said, “Oh no, they will not touch her, she cannot come all the way from there to here to be looked after by a Black person.”
And nothing you do is right. And you don’t understand that it’s not what you’re doing – that same lady that didn’t want me, I said OK, and I went, and yet when it was another day when she was actually in labour at night, and then I was on call as the supervisor on call, and the midwife that was with her was in trouble. And guess who she called. And when I said to, you know, I said to her, “I’m sorry I had to come because it’s an emergency but remember” she said, “I don’t care, please, please help me” so I said, “Are you sure because I don’t end up” – it was travellers, they cleared them, built all these things in Lewisham. That used to be them.

And you get used to the fact that in community you might come one day and see them. That’s again what you have to teach the people that you’re teaching. When these people turn up at clinics if you catch them you do as much as everything you can for them at that point because you might not see them again. And then you make sure that they’re all off today. Even people who will say they don’t want this, or they don’t want the other. Some people even when the scans became prevalent they said they don’t want them.

Those are the kind of people who realise that, yes, those carers, at least somebody has needed to be with me. To give support as you’re carrying the family. And then afterwards somebody might need to say to you how do you feel or whatever, it didn’t happen. You just went to the next one if the shift continued. I’ve travelled to different parts of the world, where was it we were the last time, and one woman came to me and said, “You are Kathy aren’t you?” I said, “Yes”. She got her phone, got this picture and I was weighing her baby.

Interviewer: That’s so sweet.

Kathy: Things like that, even when I retired I was doing one day in the antenatal clinic and one of the women came into the antenatal and was asking them “Would you know if Kathy still works here?” and she saying that to the reception, of course the reception didn’t know me, and they were saying – and as they were saying that I ran out of the room, she was just one big – it was in the reception area, the waiting area. I just ran out of the room to pick something from the reception “There she is” she screamed out, and she came and she – I don’t remember her from anywhere. The parents do remember their midwives.

Catherine: We had hospital base and community base, but the midwives would go north, south, east, west, where it was in the borough. You wouldn’t be just allocated to surgeries say in Forest Hill, surgeries on the borders with Greenwich. You could be going from one to the other but then it was more channelled to the people who go to those surgeries, people that were evolving all the time. You would see them of the time, maybe not all of the time because you have life events, we’ve got holidays, and you have to share across the borders.
But for most of the time you would see the same midwives and that’s what really mattered, and as Fay has said we recognise that it’s not so much seeing the same face all the time, but seeing people that really cared and really would sort of make you feel special.

Fay: Once we started this we sort of – each midwife was based at a certain surgery. So, all the women who came to that surgery would see her, except of course when she is holiday, so therefore they built up some trust.

Catherine: I suppose we’ve always seen people come and go, you know, if you’re on a shift there’s people you get to know, and then as I branched out into community – I think you were already in community, before me, so therefore the community group they were more together. They supported one another in a much wider way than those that when you were working in the hospital. You felt more belonging there. The hospital side of things could have been a little bit segregated in their little clicks, and so forth.

It wasn’t quite always the same as it was in the community. I might add. And of course, it meant that people tend to want to work with those people more because you know while you were on duty with them you would feel it’s worthwhile being here. The reason why I went to community was one of the person’s selected to do this regional health authority project which was to look at childbirth and how they could make it more inclusive for the parents.

And we had teams. You had caseloads that you had to look after. And it was very demanding. We know at the end of the research the researcher in her write up said the people enjoyed it, however, it was not sustainable because we would be burnt out.

Fay: When we first started in the community we had 18 of us, and then you lot came in and added to it. And then we would meet first thing in the morning in the office to sort out the work and if your team is a bit light then I would help, or vice versa. Things like that, but of course –

Kathy: I think one of the things that has evolved over time is that they’ve now separated out certain groups into a team of people that will take care of them. Like teenagers, teenage pregnancy, we know that they said that it was still on the up and they had a specific midwife who were going to look after them. They weren’t amongst all the other mix. Likewise, those with mental health issues, they also were creamed off to a certain proportion of people who could sort of give them that closer one to one for the process of their whole pregnancy.
And of course, there were those who had complex pregnancy but wanted to have normality because they have to go and see the obstetrician, but they wanted to feel normal, and so there were a group of midwives again who were able to come alongside those so they could help them to enjoy even though they’re not totally normal, or going to be normal, but they knew they had a midwife and not just an obstetrician. So, yes, those were positive things.

How well it all works is the bit that you don’t hear about because midwives have life events, they have families. They have to take holidays etc. and therefore when those times come if they’re not seeing those people it could put a spanner in the works for them, albeit the person they are going to see will be able to give them as good care as anyone else without the extra little niceties that the team may have done for them previously because they’re not focusing on those. They’re focusing on giving them the quality of care that is going to make them, and their baby have the best outcome.

Well, for me I’ve always had good neighbours. We got on very well. The children got on with their children well in Lewisham, so that’s a plus because you never know when you move into a new area what your neighbours are going to be like. So, for me, I have no problems with Lewisham. The main reason why I was there I was working in the area, I wanted to be somewhere local that I could get home if I get a call to say your child is not well. If I can’t get on the bus I might be able to run it there, and that’s really why I stayed in the community.

I was not sort of wanting to go out to Bromley, to wherever else, so – and I had no problems with Lewisham. Of course, over time certain parts of the place will have got a bit run down. Again, for all the wrong reasons but I presume that’s the way communities evolve. The women who want that water birth, whether they’re second baby, third baby, or first baby we had to ensure that providing all the parameters were normal they could have this.

And having done one a few in the hospital you started getting the feel for knowing the – how to handle those people. The fact that they don’t go into the pool too early. If they go in at a certain point you know that this makes them feel so relaxed, it does speed up labour, and once you do a few you really felt the joy of this baby coming, and putting it on the mother. And she’s there in the pool with her baby. It made you feel that you’ve achieved what they wanted, and you were there to help them to accomplish what they also desire.

They had their beautiful music in the background. Yes, there has been some lovely ones, and one of the women had this video done. She did share it with me, but I couldn’t tell you where it is now, because it’s so long ago. And of course, they always give rave reviews and are grateful for what the midwifery team has done for them.

Pauline was a good worker, as I said she was part of the team that I led and likewise when she then went to the senior midwife’s post, she was then my manager, wonderful isn’t it, and the relationship remains the same. They know that you’re standard of working, they know that you work well, and therefore – we had a good relationship in many ways. There were times we would visit her home and things like that in the early days, but we never felt that you’ve lost that person because they were still that person regardless of where they’ve been.

Whether it’s a community post, where she is now, or whatever and I’m sure had we not had that relationship she wouldn’t have been able to signpost you to people for this project that she knew would deliver what will reflect Lewisham.

Catherine: I came to Lewisham in 1980 with a six month old baby. I worked with Kathy on the ward and then I went out in the community before her, and Fay came out as well. And then we all started again, the three of us led teams in the community, and we worked so close together. Again, I was saying there were days that we finished, everybody has gone home and we’re sitting trying to thrash what happens the next day and making sure it was running. It did – it was incredibly hard work. I even remember when the first HIV patient came to Lewisham.

HIV was such a big thing, a lot of people ran, it was one of those things that once you catch it the only thing is death, that’s how it was. I think it was Kathy that did the first delivery of an HIV patient.

Kathy: Well, I was involved in a project where the change in childbirth came about for the Regional Health Authority as it was then, where we had teams of midwives who looked after caseloads, and we saw them through beginning to end. And the whole project was excellent, but you gave a lot of time to it, and at the end of it all we recognised that it was not sustainable in that form because you were out day and night. You really gave time that we would think it would even have allowed you not to give enough time to your family, particularly if you had a young family at the time.

But it was very rewarding. The people who we served really were overwhelmed with the way you were involved in them. And they felt that they got the best and they would have liked all that to have continued but, as I said, it would not have been sustainable for us as a group of people. I don’t think it had all that we wanted it to have at the beginning, but other things had evolved after that to make it good for them. Being special. But on a smaller scale. I think it was about two years.

Fay: Can I just say that from that we did a project after they had finished and we interviewed women who had had their care, who had had just the normal community care, and from that it came out that they didn’t let – the women didn’t really mind who looked after them but the main thing that came out of it was they needed somebody that they knew, that they trusted. And that seemed to care for them. When they rearranged the community then we sort of looked at that rather than what they had done.

We did a little bit of what they had done, but as you say, it wasn’t sustainable. So, we had the community divided into our areas and we had one part of each team who would do traditional care, and another part would do as close as we could get to what they had done.

Kathy: Special memories of my time in midwifery, I was the one that did the first water birth at Lewisham. In fact, we were higher up on home births in the whole community, in England, at a point until many others were doing more home births. So, we felt good even though that our percentage was the [unintelligible 00:40:00] students had put me forward for a national award. So, I was given an NHS Heroes Award in 2010, I received that on behalf of all of us really.

Catherine: After my training the head of midwifery called me and she said, “Catherine, there is a paper made pattern for you to choose what you want to do” I thought that was so nice. And I told her what I wanted, how I wanted to work, because if I did it that way, and you know what, that thing she did I took it with me all through my midwifery because when I managed people that’s what I did. It’s no boasting that when I was in charge of people I got the best results from most people than most of my colleagues.

Interviewer: So, giving people a choice –

Catherine: To make sure they have – you take on board with whatever and just pick up things and throw at them, and they will accept it because they wanted – and then they will deliver. So, I worked there happily. My time and then they were so sorry to see me go, and to some extent – because the journey was quite a lot, and I stayed in Lewisham. The management did their best but this kind of care that existed almost was the end when I was finishing my career, it was not there. There was nothing to care for staff, you just came, and you worked.

So, what that did is the workforce, we kind of got together and supported each other, and we made lifelong friends. As you can see some of those people who you are interviewing are part of that team. One of our night superintendents passed away and we all went to her memorial, it was such a reunion, everyone one of us. If I like had childcare arrangements, we just supported each other because nobody else did.

Interviewer: Outside the service you became a family.
Catherine: Within the service and outside of it. Some extent the workforce were scared of us, but we were not militant or anything like that, we would work, and the work would show.

Kathy: For me the [unintelligible 00:42:36] is fine, I’ll support anything that is happening in Lewisham. I go to the local meetings when I can and of course when Lewisham Hospital had their trials with the Health Secretary I made sure that I was on those marches to ensure that a place that has so much promise, good bus connections, everything, why do we want to close it for something that’s in a corner somewhere where people can’t even find which bus to go there. So, yes, I made sure that I identified myself on those as well.

To me it was just that maybe people didn’t think so many people would have come out to say look we need our hospital. We need our services to be with us not take it somewhere else where we can’t even get there by our local buses. That might have surprised people a lot, that people were so committed to ensure that this does not happen.

Catherine: Lewisham is very central, it’s on the high street, you couldn’t be anymore central than that. The thing that sticks out to me most of all is the fact that he said that doesn’t know what the problem is because it’s just five minutes from Lewisham to Queen Elizabeth. I don’t know where – how did he measure that? Because it takes at least half an hour or more whichever direction you’re coming from to get to Queen Elizabeth. There’s not that many buses from Lewisham to Queen Elizabeth. There’s all the buses going up and down towards the hospital, the trains. So, I don’t know how he managed to work that out.

Kathy: At the protest wherever they called them to be there because numbers is power. And we want to be there to ensure that they know we are standing together with those who are able to be at the forefront to say this must not happen to the services that we have in this area. And even when structures are changed the other hospital appeared to think that they were better than us, when in fact we were never in debt, but they were. Shaking. So, that was quite a moment I would say. And also, in those early times when you were having HIV positive patients.
When many people didn’t want to take care of them I was roped in to go and look after a person without knowing what I was going into, but that was a person that needed care and I would give care no matter what. So, yes, those were daunting times but nevertheless I gave the service that I would have given to any other individual. And of course, in the community we’ve done lots of memorable water births. So, that was great.

Catherine: Where do these women – we had 4,000 births a year, when I was there we had over 4,000 some years. So, where would they just – do they just disappear, I don’t know. I really didn’t understand it. Because when people want to – that’s the government, when they want to save money they just close their eyes and do things that are silly sometimes. A&E is the same. It’s not even like you go in the A&E, you walk in, you still have to wait forever, and in all of them. So, it’s not like there’s no demand for it here. I didn’t know where it was all based, I didn’t understand it at all. It just makes you wonder how do they come to those decisions. Where’s the evidence to show, because they always say everything has to be evidence based, OK, where do you want to – how did they get to these places.

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Oral Histories: Barbara Veale

An oral history interview with Barbara Veale conducted by Anila Ladwa for the In/Visible Labour project, part of the In Living Memory programme.

In/Visible Labour responds to the radical and resilient experiences of collective family making through a programme of artworks and oral histories works by a diverse range of Lewisham communities and their support networks across the borough.

Barbara Veale, is one of earliest Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign members and continues to be an active member within the community. She was the organiser of street meetings and for leafleting for the campaign and had a key fundraising role for the two fundraising events at the Rivoli Ballroom. Barbara describes her role and ends the interview describing fond memories of growing up in Lewisham. Interviewed by Anila Ladwa.

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Barbara: I’m Barbara Veale. I’ve lived virtually all my life in Lewisham apart from a six year trip across the borough to Greenwich and then I came back. I’ve lived where I’m living at the moment here in Hither Green for over 40 years. Was married, my husband died nearly 14 years ago now, and I’ve got two lovely girls. Was my first sort of experience of doing any campaigning because when I was 39 years of age I was pregnant with my older daughter, and my husband and found to our horror that at that time if you had an amniocentesis test which involved drawing placental fluid from the uterus to do various checks and examinations on it.

You, as the patient, were then expected to travel to Guy’s Hospital with your sample to make sure that it got to the right lab. And we were both horrified because the procedure is a nerve racking one, and also you’re told to sort of take it a bit easy afterwards because there is an inherent risk of a miscarriage just by having the test. And we just said no way should this be happening. So, I wrote to the hospital afterwards and said this really is not on. And in fact, they realised that it wasn’t a good thing for people to be on trains, buses, doing this kind of thing.

So, they changed the system so that the hospital then collected any such samples they had and arranged to get them to Guy’s for the appropriate test, so that was my sort of first taste of direct campaigning on a health issue. And then, my husband had been unwell for a number of years with a liver problem, and he was in and out of both Lewisham Hospital and then ultimately was in King’s which is where he died early in 2009.

And I rejoined the Labour party at that time, one of those weird things that you sometimes do when I was – I phoned the Labour party to cancel his membership, having resigned myself over Blair’s insistence on going to war in Iraq, and they said to me, “Thank you for letting us know. Sorry about your husband. Is there anything else we can help you with?” and I’d always thought that once Blair had gone I would rejoin the party, so I just made the instant decision, I did that. Got back involved in the local Labour party itself, and found that there was a very small health campaign running at the time which I joined.

But I have to say we weren’t anywhere near as effective as the Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign became. And then around the summer of 2012 when people – campaigners were first picking up that there was going to be this big report and recommendation from Matthew Kershaw, I think he was the head administrator guy, about making massive changes to the services at Lewisham Hospital. Louise Irving called the first meeting of anybody, any groupings that might be interested in campaigning against this and I was part of the inaugural meeting.

And then became a very sort of active member of this sort of campaign that really picked up over the October and November 2012, and got very involved in all the organising that we did as part of big general meetings of interested people, but I was very keen to get involved in the leafleting side of things. And getting people – mainly shoppers in Lewisham Market, it wasn’t obviously just me doing this on my own, but we were there pretty much every Saturday morning and sometimes it would be longer in the day.

Getting people to sign a petition against the rejigging of the services at Lewisham Hospital, and then when we decided to have the first big march on the 24th of November 2012 we were putting posters up, handing out leaflets and I was a steward on that march. And then throughout 2013 there was just a whole rolling programme of all different types of activities to keep things in the public eye. But always backed up with lots of leafleting, lots of approaching people, lots of discussions with people on the street. Going on demonstrations, and just making the Lewisham community aware of what they were in danger of losing.

And I think we had – it was 10,000 at least people marching in November 2012, and when we realised that Jeremy Hunt, who by then was the Secretary of State for Health, was not taking a blind bit of notice, we had to – as we put it, we need to march again and we campaigned for a second march on the 26th of January 2013 where 25,000 people came out on the streets, and that was a time of year where we’d had in the week running up to that very heavy snow and ice. So, not brilliant conditions except that on that day, although the snow and ice was still around, it was beautiful sunshine and blue skies. That worked well.

Interviewer (Anila): I was just wondering what people’s reaction was, getting them on board.

Barbara: Initially virtually everybody was on board. You had obviously a number of people who just got their shopping to do, or whatever, and they don’t want to take a leaflet, they just want to walk on through, do their business and so on. And of course, you’ve got some people who were Tory supporters, not that many I have to say but some who would stop and argue with you that this was all really necessary, this rationalisation of services and so on. But lots and lots of people in Lewisham were thinking what, you know, we can’t have our A&E downgraded.

And our maternity services downgraded, especially as the hospital had spent a lot of money on upgrading the maternity facilities. Which all would have been a complete waste of money had the Kershaw plans, and I suppose we must call them the Hunt plans as well, actually come to fruition, and I think those of us who know a little bit about the way that if hospital services start being chipped away quite substantially, if you downgrade an A&E and then you get to the point where the A&E is closed that very rapidly can have a knock on effect that major surgery doesn’t get undertaken at the hospital either.

And so, then that really is putting the skids on to something and could lead to the whole hospital closing. And we had ludicrous things in the reports that the government put out whereby they employed at vast expense people like Deloitte’s, the management consultants, who reckoned that it would only take about nine minutes to be able to travel from the area around Lewisham Hospital to the Queen Elizabeth Hospital in Woolwich. And everybody said this is mad. They did have a little caveat because where they put this in the appendix to one of the reports it had in brackets assuming no traffic.

So, really they might have done that at 2 o’clock in the morning on a good weather night, and putting their foot down and hoping there weren’t any speed cameras around. But in fact, one of the stunts, if you like, that the campaign did was to have somebody videoed travelling on a bus from the Lewisham area to QE, and they had a mock bandage around their head and a bit of sort of blood coming out of the bandage. But again, it was, if I’m right, at least an hour, might have been closer to an hour and a half.

So, just the whole premise of what the government was trying to do was just full of holes from the off. And the other thing that we’d found is that Lewisham people were also incredibly generous in terms of donations that they would give when we sort of moved up a little bit from just doing leafleting. We were allowed to have a temporary stall and we had mugs commissioned, like the one you’re drinking out of at the moment, and so we had badges. We had wristbands. We had mugs. And bags, we moved on to producing all different types of bags.

And the number of times people – they’d say how much was the mug, now I can’t exactly remember whether it was £2.50 or £3 or something like that, they would give a £20 note and say keep the change, that was their way of doing a donation because when this campaign first got going we didn’t have any cash from anywhere. So, it was our own fundraising activities initially, and certainly when we got into the – what was the fight to fund a judicial review in the High Court alongside the separate judicial review that Lewisham Council were doing.

That’s when we got bigger community groups involved. The leading one being Millwall Football Club who offered to match the fund up to a certain level. What we raised for the High Court they would match, and that made a hell of a difference because it’s pretty hard in this country to take something through the High Court if you haven’t got a bit of money behind you.

I suppose the first memory would be the first public meeting that the campaign organised in early November 2012 where we’d got the date booked for what would be the – what we hoped would be a big demonstration later that month. And it was seeing people, it was a packed meeting at Lewisham Hospital in the Less Off Theatre, there was an overspill in the Calabash Centre in George Lane. And there was just a sense of excitement that people were coming together to actually fight this proposal.

I suppose the next big thing for me was actually on the first Saturday, the first march, the weather was foul. It was absolutely peeing with rain. It was windy. It was cold. And I suppose a little part of me thought oh, will people turn out for this. And then when we just saw people coming and coming, and we marched from Reynolds Street, as it was then, in Lewisham Centre, and through the High Street, and up to Lady Well Fields it was just fantastic to see the level of support. And the number of families that were there.

It wasn’t something that was just what you might call the old politicos turning out and sort of – yes, another chance to sort of stuff it to the Tories. Yes, there was an element, but there also was the families, the older people who rely so much on hospital services who are wanting to say their piece, so that was great. We had the disappointment in a way that Hunt wouldn’t accept that they’d got this wrong on what they were trying to do, so very early in 2013 we knew we were heading for trying to do these judicial reviews in the courts.

And then as I say we knew that we had to march again. So, 26th of January 2013 and – I mean to have been delighted at 10,000 turning out two months earlier to then – counted and was verified by the police who do their own checks on these things at 25,000 people was just amazing. And of course, it made you feel that all the hard work that you were putting in on building for this was really worthwhile doing. And again, we ended up actually on that march up in my local park, Mountsfield Park. It was like a mud pit up there at one point.

But we had people writing messages on a huge roll of paper that just kept being unwound more and more as people wrote their messages. People were signing the petition. And it was a really good community feel that the community really was behind what we were trying to do. And then throughout the months of – from February to July here were lots of different things that people organised that I was involved in on the fringes, or I attended some of them, but not all of them. And so, for example, a very good friend of mine Vicky organised the buggy army demonstration which was outside the then offices of the Department of Health up in London.

She got loads of parents with young children in their buggies and went up, and they were singing various sort of songs that people had composed in support of the hospital and so on. And I mean I went along with that and that was really terrific, but that wasn’t my work, although I would give out a leaflet about it the previous couple of Saturdays but the actual organisation and pulling that together was done by others.

As was the thing that was called The Hunt for Jeremy Hunt in his own constituency in Farnham, in Surrey. He didn’t really want to answer for what he was trying to do in Lewisham, so a group of people travelled down on Saturdays and campaigned in his own area, outside his constituency office, wanting to talk to him. Of course, he just hid all the time, but I mean people went off and did that. But I tended to stay on my patch as I called it in Lewisham shopping centre, or just outside, doing the usual Saturday morning selling merchandise and giving out the latest leaflets.

And I mean we just had so many different leaflets, giving up dates, different slants on things. And that was why we needed to keep the fundraising going because obviously it’s expensive to get posters up, leaflets put out. We had another thing where Boris Johnson was Mayor of London and periodically he would go out in the different boroughs and have the – it’s a bit like the question time thing that you have on BBC TV, he would do a question time.

Well, of course the time when he came to Lewisham, which must have been in about the April or May of 2013, he got a real roasting from the audience, and I mean he was as hopeless and helpless then as he was recently when Prime Minister. All full of bluff and bluster. Hadn’t got a real grip on the detail of anything. He also promised to have meetings with the campaign, and he would have representations with Hunt, and he did bugger all, but that’s Boris Johnson for you.

The other big thing that I wasn’t directly involved in but on the day this happened I was at the Broadway Theatre at Catford, it was the people’s commission, very much sort of led by Tony and Olivia, this was the event that was chaired by Michael Mansfield. We have to say KC now don’t we, he wasn’t then obviously, which was a fantastic piece of work that just took evidence from some experts but an awful lot of community people who were giving their views on what Lewisham Hospital had done for them, and why the service was so vital.

And that was a piece of work that was so very well received that the lawyers from the campaign side and from Lewisham Council made reference to this in their representations at the High Court. And I suppose if I had to pick out one thing that was the absolute highlight for me on the 31st of July 2013 was the day we got the judgement on the – the two judicial reviews to try and get this proposal stopped in its tracks. And we had people inside the court to listen, but I was part of the group that was waiting outside.

And we had a huge demonstration of us there in the morning, as everybody was going in, but I was the person who had – was the link that as soon as what was announced in the High Court, I got a text saying what it was, and then I was the one who had the privilege of being able to shout out to everybody we’ve won, we’ve won, because even at that point there was still, not me, but I do know that some people in the campaign were thinking no, the establishment will always win on these things. There’ll be a way that they – they won’t allow this. We won’t win this. And of course, we did.

We’d also sort of tempted providence to some extent but we had already got made up our – some victory – I’m just showing you one now, on the old wooden sticks, but they were wrapped up in black plastic bags, but of course once we knew that we had won we could open up those bags and then everybody could brandish Hunt Defeated, and then we very rapidly got some A3 size, the bigger size, and got them plastered up all around Lewisham and Catford, sticking them on railings and things so that people could see.

And there was such a big gathering outside Lewisham Hospital that night. The community came out. The staff came out. I mean that’s the other thing I probably should have said right at the beginning on all this, it was Lewisham staff as well as – who were so important in the campaign and how it was run at the big meetings we had.

Interviewer: So, the poster says Victory for Lewisham, Hunt Defeated, and it’s a red background with white typeface which Save Lewisham Hospital Campaign weblink, and it’s done in the style of the Keep Calm poster, that’s very famous. And actually, just to say my mock says Don’t Keep Calm, Get Angry and Save Lewisham Hospital which became the sort of motto I think I’ve seen the most really.

Barbara: It was our brand. I mean once we’d got that first poster done that then appeared in small versions on all of our literature. Also, the time of year when – of the first demonstration, it was the run up to Christmas, and part of the thought was if we can get these posters into so many windows the bright red would stand out and it would be that sort of splash of colour. I mean I am useless on designing stuff, and in many instances wording of leaflets. I mean I have a background in local government for most of my life before I became a teaching assistant, before I retired. I’d be too wordy on things. You need this eye catching but punchy set of words.

Interviewer: I guess it’s the colour of danger as well isn’t it.

Barbara: I think that’s right. And then of course, Hunt tried to sort of prick our bubble shall we say because he decided to appeal and again, you know, some people thought no, this is really when the establishment will come together and they will find a way, but then a lot of us said no, we’re going to fight on with this. So, there was the further leafleting, the galvanising and the demonstration outside the High Court. And I can’t now remember exactly when it was, I think it was some time in the October of that year that the High Court met to hear the appeal.

And I was actually inside the court listening to all the deliberations, it was over two possibly three days, but it was very short anyway. And then, the lead judge just said to everybody OK, we’re going off now, we will consider what’s been presented to us. But the words, I can’t remember his exact words, but it was – what it meant was don’t go too far away because we’re going to be back fairly soon I think. And so, the three appeal court judges went out, and literally they were back 10 minutes later to effectively say to Jeremy Hunt bog off, you know, this is unlawful. It stands. Off you go.

So, that was another sort of big, exciting thing. And again, once the word got round the community everybody was so delighted. But then at that point we realised that it wasn’t over, the campaign wasn’t over, because we’d already by that point had inadequate financial settlements for the NHS, let’s be kind. Cuts really. And the writing was on the wall that the NHS was not going to get the level of money that it needed, and as we now realise now the forward planning on the staffing levels that would be needed to deal with an ageing population. And where so many people, because they live a lot longer, have got more chronic conditions to live with. And that is a big burden on not only the hospitals but also on the community support, the primary care.

The community care, and that side of things, is just abysmal the way that’s been neglected. And don’t get me started on social care. I’ve got an aunt who is 101 who will be 102 in January, fingers crossed, who’s in a care home. A good one. But I know the struggle that there is to staff them properly, staff them well. And the level of pay is abysmal. Absolutely abysmal.

The first big fundraiser we had, yes, 27th of September 2013. The campaign had these – what we called working parties, so those that were interested in literally working on a particular aspect of the campaign would have regular meetings and discussions, and then having worked out proposals and ideas would then take them back to the bigger campaign meetings. And a guy called Pat was the one who was the leading light behind the first fundraiser. All manner of brilliant local bands were happy to come along and perform for free.

Bill from the Rivoli provided the premises for free. And I have to confess I can’t remember how much money we raised from this first fundraiser, but it ran into many, many thousands of pounds. I think you’d probably have to ask Olivia because that would be on the website somewhere what this raised. And it was an absolutely brilliant evening. We ran a raffle, one of those where you give out the tickets on the night, and loads of people bought raffle tickets and we had various prizes and so on. And I got my girls, and their friends came along, and a great time was had by all.

In Hither Green there was this fantastic group, they must have set up 15 or more years ago called Haven’t Stopped Dancing Yet, and they’re still going and have got bigger and bigger, but they do all this great 80s disco music and a couple of those came along to sort of lead a section of the evening. But it literally was a couple of very small speeches, you couldn’t even call it a speech, it would be like why we’re here, what it’s for, and then the rest of it was given over to having a good dance, a good time, and a good drink.

Then we still carried on doing our weekly stalls and leafleting at Lewisham because I know that I was at least for 18 months, maybe 20 months, more or less every Saturday, apart from being on holiday or ill, was spending time at Lewisham doing stuff, and it was continuing to sell mugs, it was continuing to sell bags. All of which was to bring in money so that we could carry on with the campaigning. And then, where are we, the October of 2014 we had a second fundraiser which I led on that, but I mean again there was a working party, there was a group of us behind all the arrangements.

One of the things that I’m quite proud of is that – I used to volunteer in a local primary school, Sandhirst, and they had a great summer fayre in, it must have been in 2013 where it’s one of those where they did a raffle, but it wasn’t just sold tickets on the day and then drawn. If you get agreement from the council, and it’s part of the Gambling and Lotteries Act whatever, you have to get permission and pay for it to run a raffle than can last over a period of time.

So, you have a chance to sell lots of tickets and then as long as you print on it when it’s going to be held, the draw is going to be held and when, so it’s all above board and you have to do a return to the council afterwards in terms of what you’ve raised, what the purpose is, and the key prizes you’ve got. I saw this being done as I say at the primary school, and I thought I’m going to pinch that idea.

So, earlier on in 2014 when we were talking about what we wanted to do by way of another fundraiser I said do people feel that they could go out in their own workplaces or around their own local communities and actually sell raffle tickets, but you couldn’t sell them on the street. It wasn’t like we could sell them from the market, it had to be that people – you’d go door to door, so some people did that. Other people as I say went to workplaces, held parties at their own home, people came, they bought raffle tickets.

And so, that was all going on. We had a top cash prize, I think it was £250 was it, then somebody – Brian in the campaign has got a cottage in Suffolk, and so one of the prizes was that somebody could win a weekend in the cottage. And we then had this wonderful woman, Tina Turner, tea lady who did this disco bingo evening and then the usual music, and stuff. But I remember a bit more, I suppose because I was sort of like the lead on the working party for this.

The upshot was that the ticket prices and donations on the night raised about £5,000.  The raffle alone raised £2,400 and it was sort of like – it was gobsmacking, whoever has held a raffle when it’s a – if it’s like a big organisation that does a national raffle, like some of the big charities or political parties with a huge sort of admin machine behind them, raise more than that, but this was our local campaign and everybody mucking in, and everybody working so hard to raise the money. Nearly two and a half grand on the raffle.

Interviewer: That’s amazing. I would love to meet the Tina Turner tea lady, that’s fantastic, she sounds great.

Barbara: Yes, she did a very good passable impression of Tina Turner.

Interviewer: You were so involved with being in the market, at the market every Saturday, I was wondering about your childhood memories of growing up in Lewisham.

Barbara: I grew up in New Cross Gate and the market that I would regularly go to with my mum was Deptford Market, and so I have lots of memories as a – well I’d had to be a bit beyond a toddler, so from the age of 5 upwards I remember being walked very briskly by mum from home in Jerningham Road down to Douglas Way in Deptford to get whatever shopping she got from there that she could manage to carry all the bags back, or we’d come back on the bus in fact. But I mean do you want some fascinating sort of images that will never leave me really.

Interviewer: That would be great.

Barbara: Mum, as a lot of people did, used to buy broken biscuits because they were so much cheaper. There would be these great big white paper bags, quite thing paper and you’d get that choc-a-bloc full, Lord knows how much it was. That would have passed me by, but next to the broken biscuit stall was where they sold eels for people to make jellied eels, which is a delicacy for some. I’ve never been able to take to it, but I can remember as a child – and I mean this memory will probably appal some animal lovers and people who are vegan and wouldn’t eat anything like this.

But there was a huge tank of live eels with black skins and the guys who ran the stall when somebody said however much weight they wanted they would grab the eels, chop off their heads, chop off the tails, rip down the body with a knife, and with the back of a knife they would slide out the innards into another tank. Some of the eels were also kept in deep sinks, now these are the old fashioned big white sinks and I just stood there as a young kid. I can remember just watching this happening because the innards that went into this big sink bucket arrangement would writhe about.

And I just couldn’t understand what was going on, that something wasn’t instantly dead with its head cut off, but part of it would still carry on moving, and then when they’d got however many eels prepared in that sort of way then with a separate big knife they’d just go chop, chop, chop. Cutting it up into chunks of three or four inches, scooped into – I don’t know what, it might have been a plastic bag, I don’t know what people would have brought along. It probably wasn’t – it certainly wasn’t Tupperware type stuff that you would have these days of bring your own container.

And off they’d go, and they would cook that and make their jellied eels, but it was this sort of regular weekly thing, the broken biscuits, I would go and gawp at this mess next door. And then not every week but occasionally I had an uncle, he was mum’s sister’s husband, and he ran a – he was a barrow boy, but he had – for fruit and veg. And his barrow was very close to what is now Deptford Station, it had as done us as it is now, but that was his pitch.

And he sold his fruit and veg there, and certainly sometimes we’d go along, and mum didn’t get a lot of stuff from him, but it would be just to sort of say, “Hello Alfie, how you doing?” and check up on her sister and all that. But he would give me in the summer a peach and I can remember now eating that peach, beautifully juicy, beautiful flavour, and just – I suppose my childhood memory is that things like that tasted different.

And we used to get so many things like shoes for me, we wouldn’t go to a shoe shop, it would be somewhere that had got a couple of barrows with all these different kids shoes in some different sizes, and you’d stand trying them on, you know, on the pavement or just off and standing on a bit of cardboard so you didn’t mark the soles of the shoes. But I was not a great user of the market at Lewisham, probably until I got involved in the campaign because when I grew up and ended up living here, and I was working, there was the occasional local shop that I would use.

But of course, by then supermarkets had come in and it was more the tradition of I’d go to the supermarket to buy stuff. And again, I suppose that’s also a reflection on what you’re earning because a lot of people go to markets because it’s tremendous value for money. And when money is tight you get a great big scoop of something for a pound, although I think it’s gone up now, it’s more than a pound a scoop. But then of course, when you’re on your own, which I was for a lot of my time before I met my husband and had the girls, and now, I can’t deal with a scoop full of whatever –

Alright, you could freeze it all I suppose but then you run out of freezer space. So, it is more convenient to go to a different shop where you could buy one onion if you wanted it, or just two carrots, that sort of thing. But yes, that – just coming back to the weekly trip to Deptford Market, the other highlight of the Saturday morning, when we got back home with all this stuff my dad would have cooked lunch which was always mashed potato, sausages, fried onions and peas, which I loved. That was a favourite lunch for me.

Interviewer: OK, well that sounds like a really good note to end on. And happy memories of the market. I don’t think they do the eels anymore but there is a good fish stall there, my mum goes and gets fish from Deptford Market, so yes. It’s survived in some form.

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Oral Histories: Ian Elmslie

An oral history collected by Paul Green as part of the In Living Memory project, Where to, now the sequins have gone?

In the interview, Ian discusses his time performing in the award-winning cabaret act, Katrina and the boy and his memories of the lost gay bars of Lewisham that thrived from 1970s-90s.

Transcript

Rosie (interviewer):  OK, so I’m Rosie Oliver and I’m recording an interview today on 12th August at Deptford Town Hall, and I’m speaking to Ian Elmslie. Ian, can you spell your name please?

Ian (interviewee):      E-L-M-S-L-I-E.

Rosie:  Perfect. And it’s I-A-N.

Ian:      I know, there’s only so many vowels a name can have.

Rosie:  Yes.

Ian:      [Laughs] I-A-N.

Rosie:  I-A-N. Brilliant. OK. And the purpose of this interview is for the Avant Gardening Bijou Stories Project: Where To, Now the Sequins Have Gone? which documents the gay bars and communities that existed in the Borough of Lewisham particularly in the Seventies, Eighties, and Nineties. And it will give rise to creative projects that include a podcast which may feature some of the material from this interview. But the interview is also for the wider umbrella programme, In Living Memory: A People’s History of Post-War Lewisham, and an oral archive that’s being developed for that. So that’s the preamble, let’s start.

Ian:      Right.

Rosie:  Ian, just in a word or two could you just introduce yourself?

Ian:      My name is Ian Elmslie, I’m a recently turned 60-year-old performer, author, former teacher, prison liaison officer. Anything where they’ll open a door and have me, and have me chat, I think I’ll go into. [Laughs]

Rosie:  OK. And we are interviewing you because you were part of an act. Tell me about that act.

Ian:      I was in, 1990, under the – or under the orders of one Lily Savage, I united with an old drama school pal called Katrina, and we formed an act called Katrina the Boy, thinking – you know, Savage has said he’ll get us a couple of gigs, “Oh, we’ll just see what happens, maybe do one or two,” and it became a 10 year career where we took one week off a year. And we were just working throughout the whole of the Nineties. We just worked and worked and worked in every single gay bar that was, and maybe will ever be, but it was an extraordinary time. A very, very special time to be working on the gay cabaret circuit.

Rosie:  OK. So before we get into your experience in the Borough of Lewisham, tell me a little bit. Give me a flavour of the act; what was it about?

Ian:      [Laughs]

Rosie:  What were you doing?

Ian:      Well we were – in retrospect, because I had no knowledge of the gay cabaret circuit at the time, you know, Savage spoke about, “Oh, I’ll get you gigs on the gay cabaret circuit,” and this meant nothing to me at all. And it’s only when I started working on it and going to places like the Royal Vauxhall Tavern, and the Black Cab, and the Royal Oak, and The Two Brewers for the first time in my life – I’d never been in them as a punter, the first time I’d ever gone in as a performer. And I realised after a few months how unusual we were as an act, because at the time it was all drag queens, most of them lip-syncing to other people’s songs, and the occasional stripper thrown in.

So to have a loud-mouthed blonde woman singing live and being very funny, and a gay man sitting at a piano not taking his clothes off was at the time really quite revolutionary. And so the first time we ever played venues, when we walked on stage you could see people just going, “What is this? What are they going to do?” And then we gave it to them. Whether they wanted to have it in their lives or not we gave it to. And I think the fact that we were – it was the right time for something new and different and funny and quirky and live. We were completely live which was a big challenge to some of the venue sound systems. [Laughs].

Rosie:  So what songs was … Katrina was singing, right?

Ian:      Katrina was singing.

Rosie:  I mean tell me a bit more about the act. Give me a feel for it.

Ian:      There was nothing we would not do. There was no style of music we would not invade and take as our own. Yes, you could have the typical Sixties girl singers; a lot of Dusty, a bit of Sandy, a bit of Mama Cass, blah-blah-blah-blah-blah, but then we would do Cole Porter, and Rodgers and Hart, and Noël Coward. We’d do glam rock. Sometimes we would finish our set with Devil Gate Drive by Susie Quatro. I think the night we finished with Born to Run by Bruce Springsteen you just saw the audiences jaws just go, “What?” Musical theatre we looked at; we did some original songs. Disney Nights we used to do, Country and Western Nights, there was nothing we would not have a bash at if it worked with a piano.

Because all we had was a piano with a built-in drum machine, and so the song had to have strong lyrics, strong melody, it couldn’t rely on arrangements. So we spent a lot of time listening to a lot of songs to find out ones that made us laugh and were topical. We tried to find songs that were possibly going to reflect what was happening in the world at the time.

Rosie:  Can you give me an example of a song that you might have sung that had a resonance?

Ian:      Gosh almighty. Oh, OK. [Laughs] I mean when Fergie was caught having her toes sucked by someone on holiday, we found the song Popsicle Toes. And I mean you just tried to find songs that – Katrina had a fair old gob on her, and it helped if she could set up the songs in a funny way, and if they were topical. Our first song that we ever did at the RVTR opening gambit was Cruella De Vil which of course we dedicated to Margaret Thatcher with a Phantom of the Opera intro to let them know that this is what we thought about her.

So we would make political jibes and jests, and just observations of what was going on. If we could find a song that was timely, you know taking the theme tune of the old TV show Raw Hide but doing it as if the Pet Shop Boys were doing it. So you’d take this like Rollin’, Rollin’, Rollin Country and Western Song and marry it with a very Eighties disco treatment, and making the audience laugh just with the fact that we’d taken an old song and slammed it up to date. That was a lot of fun to do.

Rosie:  Can you paint a visual picture?

Ian:      Of the two of us?

Rosie:  Hmm.

Ian:      [Laughs] Ah, now I will have to pinch a line here from the legendary Victor Lewis Smith who used to write for the Evening Standard. He used to do the television criticism in the Evening Standard. And it was kind of law that if you hadn’t been slated by Victor Lewis Smith you really weren’t anybody because he was caustic. And he once referred to Katrina – he’d seen us on the telly doing a dreadful game show, and we acknowledged that it was an awful, awful game show, The New Mr and Mrs. I shudder in the memory; we had to film 52 episodes in two weeks, it was just – we got paid. But he described her as looking like Gazza in drag, which I thought was hysterical. And she did have very cropped peroxide blonde hair flipped up at the front with a Tin-Tin quiff.

And when we first started working she was a big woman, 16 stone and proud of it, and with a mouth on her. She was kind of so Dawn French met Alison Moyet met Jo Brand, that’s what we’re talking. In your face, took no prisoners. Whereas I was sat very quietly behind the keyboard, and my stage outfits over the years very quickly morphed into me just wearing a vest and jeans on stage. Not for any predatory reasons, that I was trying to seduce the audience, but actually because the venues were so hot that I could just go, “Oh.” And I don’t like things around my arms when I play the piano, so a vest and jeans. And I didn’t have to carry a wardrobe bag either.

Less things to carry; I had quite enough to carry, so it served our purposes that this very loud, colourful ebullient woman was out front making people laugh, and I was slightly removed and quite silent at the back of the stage which occasionally makes you quite intriguing, especially to a gay audience [laughs] thinking – [laughs] and calling – because I was The Boy. Some people didn’t even know my name, so that again gave me a certain mystery. [Laughs]

Rosie:  Wow. Fifty-two episodes in two weeks.

Ian:      Oh.

Rosie:  That sounds insane, but that’s a [unintelligible 00:08:54].

Ian:      Yes, but by the end of the day, believe me, five episodes, you didn’t care if they knew anything about each other or not. [Laughs] She used to walk on and just go, “Ooh, nasty blouses.” [Laughs] We didn’t say that; you just thought it. [Laughs]

Rosie:  [Laughs]. OK, so moving on to Lewisham, what brought you to Lewisham?

Ian:      I moved to this area in 1984 when I was a drama student. I was a drama student in Sidcup, and you just searched for digs that were along the train line that took you into Sidcup. I always felt very sorry for people who went to St John’s, they must have stood on the platform and just watched trains going because it was forever like, “This train does not stop at St John’s.” [Laughs] Poor drama students. But I moved to Lee in 1985 after one year in Chislehurst. I became resident in Lee in 1985 in a shared flat, and that’s when I staked my claim on Lewisham for many years.

Rosie:  And was that before or after Katrina and the Boy?

Ian:      That was before. I mean I met Katrina at Rose Bruford’s, and so we were friends then, but that was a good five years before we started working together.

Rosie:  OK. So before we jump into Katrina and the Boy performing at the local pubs did you know the local pubs here?

Ian:      I didn’t. And again, it became a voyage of discovery because you tend to think that you have to go into London if you want to go to a gay bar. Which at the time, being a student, money was tight, and so if you could get into anywhere free you went for it. So I was tempted to go into the London to the Hippodrome on a Monday and Heaven on a Tuesday because I could get free tickets. And as I said, I didn’t know about the Lewisham scene until the Nineties, till we started working on it. Until I went to the Albany Empire in Deptford, and people would talk about The Castle in Lewisham in a way that didn’t make me particularly want to go and visit it I’d say. [Laughs] And that was all I knew of gay bars in Lewisham certainly in the late Eighties. That’s all I knew.

Rosie:  So you didn’t know them as a punter, but you did know them as a performer. That’s how you got to know them.

Ian:      Yes, that’s the first time I ever saw these places was when I walked in with my gear to set up, and you just went, “Ooh, OK. Flock wallpaper. Marvellous.”

Rosie:  [Laughs] OK, so tell me which one had a flock wallp- – I mean tell me which venue can we start with?

Ian:      Well, I had to start with where my heart lay and lies which is the Queen’s Arms. I’d known the governor, Joe Thompson, from The Gloucester in Greenwich, that’s when we first met. And he was very famous because he’d won the pools, and that was quite glamorous because you often hear about people winning the pools, but you never actually meet anybody who does. But Joe won the pools. And I think he used part of his winnings, [laughs], I think he bought hairdressers in London called Bonne Arrivée. I think he just invested in places, and I think had enough to eventually lay his feet down in the Queen’s Arms.

And I loved the Queen’s Arms. It must have been the smallest gay bar in the world. It was like being in somebody’s living room, this central bar with this horseshoe bar going on around it. The music was not blasting out because what’s the point, it’s tiny, so it became a lovely place to go and chat with people. It was a very chatty bar, a very family bar, and they did quiz nights going on there. Fiercely competitive at times, really competitive, which is always good to see. And of course we performed there.

And when you played in the Queen’s Arms you didn’t feel like you were going into battle which some venues could be. Nobody was exploring Ecstasy at that time in the Queen’s Arms, it wasn’t that type of place. And nobody was actually out on the pull there. They’d come for a quiet – not a quiet night out, but a safe, gentle, chatty, hopefully fun night out, but it wasn’t necessarily going to end up in them going home with somebody, so your audience for the cabaret was very attentive.

And when an audience is attentive, you can play everything from your catalogue because they’re with you, they’re enjoying it. And if you’re singing a song that they don’t know, it’s three minutes of their life, they’re not going to like go, “Boo” and run screaming out of the building or screaming at you. So it was such a joy to play there. And the bar staff were just an absolute joy because they knew everyone. And everyone had their particular places where they used to sit and stand. I sat by the bar by the flap, down there, and they knew that I would have a pint and a half of Guinness when I came in because I was driving to go there. And that, to me, is the mark of a great bar when the staff know the customers by name and their bevy. There was never any trouble there ever. I didn’t even see a raised voice in their bar apart if they were joining in with the songs. [Laughs].

Rosie:  Yes. Yes.

Ian:      And I think it did have flock wallpaper. [Laughs] But it was just – so you felt like you were in your granny’s front room, but there was something very comforting about that. It was clean and jolly and so welcoming.

Rosie:  Yes, and someone we spoke to last week was saying it was just this real mix of people.

Ian:      Oh yes, they were all ages. I mean it’s one of my – I not going to – sorrows – my observations of the scene now that it tends to be, “There’s the Bears’ bar,” or “there’s the Twinkie bar,” or, there’s the this bar, and everyone feels the need that they have to go and be with their group of people, and only them. But I love a venue that that’s mixed, you know completely mixed – ages, sizes, looks, genders, straight, gay, whatever. Bring them in, that’s how we learn about people, and that’s I think how we can change people.

Rosie:  Do you have any memorable performances in the Queen’s Arms? Was it Arms or Head?  Arms.

Ian:      The Queen’s – oh, the Queen’s Arms. Yes, I would hear Josie Thompson, “Oh, welcome to the Queen’s Arms.” He had this incredible voice like Peggy Mount. He just was really down in his gut. And sometimes his introductions to the act would sometimes last about half the length of time that the act were going to be on. Because he liked to big up the Queen’s Arms and say what a welcoming bar it was, and how we have the top cabaret. And you’re sitting there going, “Can we go on now, please?”  [Laughs]

But bizarrely enough, my most memorable night of doing cabaret at the Queen’s Arms was with a singer called Jamie Watson. Katrina, towards the end of our time together, was doing quite a lot of TV. She was doing a programme for UK Living called The Sex Files which was taking a lot of her time. We were individuals, we allowed ourselves and each other to do things outside the act. It would’ve been stupid to say, “No, you can’t do that.” And so I started working with – doing the occasional gig with a male singer called Jamie Watson, and we did a jazz set together. A predominantly jazz set together. And I remember my boyfriend at the time hearing us rehearsing and saying, “Who’s going to want to listen to this?” You know, “These old songs,” he said. And I think he was worried that it was just going to die on its arse. [Laughs]

But we did it for the first time at the Queen’s Arms, and to see people standing there and really listening to an old song by Rodgers and Hart, He Was Too Good all mixed into a Bacharach and David song, A House is Not a Home, so you’re presenting this medley of what it’s like when a relationship comes to an end. And people were openly weeping because they were in the venue which was sympathetic to cabaret and was an integral part of the evening. People just think, “Oh, I’m going to just listen to this song that I don’t know.”

And once you listen to words written by Lorenz Hart and Hal David you’ve got proper – this ain’t Chirpy Chirpy Cheep Cheep, these are great lyrical songs that tell our story. And the fact that Jamie was singing, He Was Too Good To Me. It was a gay man, like myself, in trousers, singing specifically about being a gay man, and that’s quite rare, even now, for a male singer to sing “he, he, he, he, he.” Even Elton John was singing “she” for heaven knows how long. It took George Michael a while to specifically sing “he.” So I’d always think it makes such a difference especially to young people in an audience to hear someone singing “he”.

And I remember the response at the end of the evening, and my boyfriend was there at the same time, and I was really pleased, and he was like really stunned at the response because it was genuine, it was warm, and it was an appreciation of music. It hadn’t been a particularly funny evening because they were used to Katrina and I being quite funny, but it was “Listen to these songs, these songs are great songs and they tell our story,” so that it was a big tick in my memory book. I remember that evening with real pride, as I do with the work I did with Katrina very much so.

I received a compliment the other day from a governor of a venue that we used to play at in the Nineties, and he said, “Your act was so innovative,” and that, to me, is a real compliment, the fact that we never did other people’s songs. We were always searching for something new and something challenging, and the audience responded to it which was a big relief.

Rosie:  It being in the Queen’s Arms was a very receptive, attentive, sympathetic audience, and you weren’t fighting with them.

Ian:      Mm-hmm.

Rosie:  I wonder if that’s a segue to The Castle maybe.

Ian:      [Laughs]. Yes, believe me, we never did cabaret in The Castle. I don’t think they ever did cabaret in The Castle. The Castle was just – I went in there once with a friend and it was just bizarre because you had to walk through. I mean some venues had a gay night. The Castle had a gay bit, and so you had to walk through the front part of the bar which was the straight section – and we’re talking Catford here – to get to the gay section at the back. So anybody walking through the front bar was – going to the back bar – wasn’t going there for any other reason apart from the fact that that was the gay scene. So to run this gamut of eyes, the ones where I was not shouted at – we were not shouted at when I went in there, I was just aware that we were being looked at. It was like walking through like a haunted house with the pictures in the frames, like the eyes just moved as you were walking through.

But we weren’t disturbing their game of pool. I think we stayed for one drink. If you asked me to describe it, I really couldn’t apart from just thinking I think it was a bit spit and sawdust, just a plain bar. Why the manager decided that it was going to be somehow financially beneficial to him to have a gay back bar, who’s to know. But I’m sure some people have had a jolly down there. [Laughs] I’m not quite sure I did; I didn’t feel the need to return. [Laughs]

Rosie:  No. And you never got the piano out, no?

Ian:      I never offered my services to entertain the troops, which actually is quite unlike me because I used to play at a straight wine bar in Lee Green called Casablanca every Friday night and got adopted by the pub. And I believe they were electricians, plumbers, interesting crowd, but I became – and I use the words with care, you know, the pet poof. And if anybody came in, you know a stranger – and like because I was making Boy George look plain at the time, and with sequinned gloves, the hair was God knows what, I’d look like I just dived headfirst into the Max Factor counter at Boots, I mean everything was going on. But if anyone gave me grief you would just see these people rise up and stand in front of them and say, “You know he may be a poof but he’s our poof,” which I really liked. But whether that would’ve happened in The Castle, I don’t know, but it did in Lee Green.

Rosie:  And what was the name of that act?

Ian:      I was just on my own.

Rosie:  It was just you. It was just Ian.

Ian:      It was just Ian the Poof. [Laughs]

Rosie:  Ian the Poof.

Ian:      But it goes back to what – that at that time, in the mid-Eighties we’re talking, and in retrospect maybe that did take guts, I didn’t feel like I was doing anything particularly brave at all. Maybe, in retrospect, I was really like putting myself on the line there, but I really didn’t care. And as long as I entertained them, they didn’t mind. They didn’t mind at all. And I spoke to the governor only the other day, and actually got the chance to say, “Thank you very much. At a time when we weren’t particularly welcome in venues, for various reasons, that you invited me to play in your bar. You made me part the family, and you protected me on the very rare occasion if anyone gave me a mouthful.” So kudos to him.

Rosie:  Hmm, that’s fascinating. What about the Roebuck? Did you ever perform there?

Ian:      The Roebuck I did go to a few times, and that was … Again, you just had to steal yourself a little bit when you went into The Roebuck because everything the Queen’s Arms wasn’t The Roebuck was. The Queen’s Arms was very cosy, very friendly, very gentle; The Roebuck you always felt that something was about to happen, and it wasn’t going to be necessarily pretty. It just had this slight tension going on there. Not between the fellas I have to admit, it tended to be between the women. And that’s not being misogynistic or anything, it was just – it just had that vibe that if anything was going to kick off it would usually be accompanied by a pool cue, and words would be said, and they’d be above an alto key. [Laughs] I never witnessed a full-on brawl, I just heard enough to know that that’s what occurred. And the couple of times I went there, I just felt this isn’t really my place. Not really my place. I’m sure that there were some people there it was their idea of absolute paradise. But for me, get me back to the Queen’s Arms please.

Rosie:  OK. But you did perform there.

Ian:      Well, we didn’t perform at the Roebuck. I don’t think that even they did cabaret. I think in the vicinity it was only in Lewisham and it was only the Queen’s Arms that did cabaret. And whether that was a financial decision, because you know, they’ve got to pay the act. Whether they thought the punters wouldn’t go for it, I don’t know. And when Stonewall came along – we’d parted professional company by that point – and I know they had a pounding disco that went on in the Stonewall bar, but I don’t think even they did cabaret.

In the late Nineties it was this weird curve, and I saw it coming when the drugs really started to come into the clubs, and cabarets started to become almost an interruption in the evening because people wanted the boom-boom-boom-boom because they were – their pill was kicking in. And so someone coming on and singing a Dusty Springfield song, or saying, “Here’s a lovely bit of Noël Coward,” [laughs] really not quite what they wanted. And certain breweries brought in policies that did not make it easy for acts to perform in pubs.

Rosie:  Yes. Yes, that’s so interesting, that dance drugs, all of that, killed cabaret on the gay scene.

Ian:      Yes, I saw it happening, it was just bizarre. And I found myself having to dumb down the act. And I choose that phrase with care. You look, you think you’re playing this place on a Friday night, they’re not going to go for the Summertime number, they’re not going to go for anything that’s too wordy, and so we ended up doing – and we used to call it “singy-songy songs.” You know, if they can join in and sing along, as long as we’re still enjoying what we’re doing but don’t get obscure, you just – you know, keep it up, keep it bright, keep it gay because you know that they’re going to not hold their attention.

Rosie:  But thinking back to, for example, being at the Queen’s Arms.

[00:26:23 – 00:26:31 – Interruption]

Rosie:  For the record, it’s one of the hottest days of the year – of the millennium.

Ian:      And going to get worse. [Laughs].

Rosie:  [Laughs] Could you give me a ditty, Ian, of maybe something – give me a taste of the act, or maybe like at the Queen’s Arms? Just a line or two.

Ian:      What? Oh gosh.

Rosie:  Just to give a little –

Ian:      Well, for example, now Country and Western, you can’t go wrong with Country and Western. I mean the titles are just so great. You know, what was my favourite country songs? I’ll be Getting Over You When The Grass Is Growing Over Me. It’s brilliant. And I Knew I’d Hit Rock Bottom When I Woke Up On Top of You. I mean it’s just superb. And there’s something so funny about Country and Western which someone described as three chords and a tragedy. But we used to do this Patsy Cline song called Tra La La La La – ting – Triangle. And so we bought a triangle, and Katrina had it, but she did have to say to the audience, “This is quite a quiet instrument, so when I hit the triangle, you all shout “ting.””

So for a start we’d get them bobbing up and down because it’s country – and bo-di-bum, bo-di-bum – so they got to bob up and down. And then they’re shouting “ting.” Then they got to slap their thigh, pretend spitting on the floor. So in one song you’ve got a lot of audience participation going on over a silly little country song that nobody knows called Tra La La La La Triangle. We added an extra verse at the end for gay measure [laughs] to really make the triangle really multi-gender identity. That was quite fun to do.

Rosie:  Do you remember the words for that verse?

Ian:      Oh gosh. No. Oh, no, I’m ashamed to say I can’t. It’s been so long ago. And there’s one song that we used to do which I’m particularly proud of. Lloyd Webber had just bought out Sunset Boulevard. I’m not really a fan of Andrew Lloyd Webber, and I wasn’t a fan of that show. And one night I just started to do a rewrite of one of the songs from Sunset Boulevard. I’m thinking, “Oh, let’s continue this story.” So it went from that into Three Little Maids from School by Gilbert and Sullivan about these three actresses all of whom played Norma Desmond. Then we went into – Petula Clark took over, so we took Downtown and added new lyrics to that bit. And then we finished off with Take That Look Off Your Face, but change the words to “Take That Show Off The Stage.” You know, so you just played around the lyrics.

And it was a big old song to do; you’ve got four movements in that song to get through, and Gilbert and Sullivan were quite complicated to play, especially when it’s a [Patterson? 00:29:17]. Was it Three Little – Three Little – again, I’ve forgotten the words, it’s been so long ago. [Laughs] But it told the story of this show, my views on it, these three actresses fighting about it, Petula Clark coming in, and then just a commentary about Andrew Lloyd Webber saying, “I must be mistaken, I’m sure … ” Oh, sorry. What was it?

“I must be mistaken, [unintelligible 00:29:43],” but just “But haven’t I just heard that song before? I’m sure it was sung at the end of Act One, Andrew Lloyd Webber I know your score. Take that show off the stage, I can see through your style.” That’s about as much I can remember at the moment.

But plucking up the courage to do that song in certain venues, especially for the first time because you thought, “Are you going to get it?” “Are you?” “Are we going to get it right?” “Argh.” And the first time we did it – sounds a cliché, you know – the roof just blew off because nobody had heard anything like it. And it was clever, and it was funny. So I’m proud of the rewrites that we did. But sometimes what you really enjoyed seeing people do was just sing along with a song that maybe they hadn’t heard for a while. You know, It’s Getting Better by Mama Cass, it’s a great song and it was a great opener, and it was such a positive opener.

And as an observation from the Nineties, with everything that was going on in that decade that had been birthed in the Eighties but just exploded in the late Eighties and Nineties, I think every cabaret act realised that they were responsible for being the tonic for the troops. That we could actually walk into a bar and go, “Yes, I know there is all this crap and shit happening outside that is awful, but just for three hours we’re going to stand inside a bar and we’re going to have a bit sing, and a bit of a drink, and a bit of a dance, and then we can go out and face it again.”

But I think we all acknowledged at that time, “Keep it up.” You know, we weren’t going to sing tragic songs at the time, so to see an audience at that time singing along with What’s New Pussycat, or our favourite – because I’m a lifelong Donny Osmond fan. Donny Osmond changed my life. And when we used to encore with Puppy Love, and you would sing the first line, “And they called it puppy love” and then you couldn’t hear the rest of the song because the whole audience was screaming. And seeing these great burly men going “Aaaah,” and reaching their arms out to the stage as if they were Osmond fans was hysterical. Hysterical.

And that’s my joy of remembering, of having that ability to reach inside somebody’s nostalgia buckets and pull out a pearl and go, “You haven’t heard this one for a while, have you?” and now you are free to scream as much as you like, then go out and finish the shit in the outside world.

Rosie:  Ian, what you said, I just loved, and then someone sort of put their – I don’t know what it was.

Ian:      A cleaning device.

Rosie:  A hoover or something. [Laughs] And of course, everyone can hear the words perfectly clearly, but I just wonder, would you mind awfully just making that point again about –  you know, you were saying about the context being the Eighties, and perhaps just to clarify for people who don’t know about the politics of the Eighties and what was going on, and how it was a refuge to boost morale and that kind of thing.

Ian:      Oh, god, yes.

Rosie:  Would you mind awfully?

Ian:      Of course not. I mean during the Eighties, and being right at the forefront of – we started the Eighties with such hope. There were groups like Bronski Beat and Culture Club, and I mean even it was a few since Tom Robinson who was such a hero of mine, but it just seemed like there was this change, and people became more accepting. And a lot of straight people had now gay friends, and they were embracing us. And then – wroooom – in comes – and let’s quote those damned papers, The Gay Plague, and all that fear rose up again.

And Thatcher, and of course Section 28 was just driving us back and back and back. And all that progress that we had made just seemed to be being whipped away from us. Which is why the pubs and clubs became so important because they became, “This is our space, this is our home, and we need each other at the moment.” And that the overused word – phrase, rather – “gay community,” I really started to feel it, that we realised that nobody was going to fight our corner for us, we had to stand together and shout together. And I was really lucky at the age that I was that Tom Robinson Band taught me that, yes, I could be gay and angry that I didn’t have to have this victim label on my forehead. I was allowed to be angry and shout about what was happening.

So going on the Section 28 marches, and fighting for, you know, when they dared not to give us an equal age of consent. They compromised and gave us 18. And I remember an unusual ally, Edwina Currie, at a protest meeting in Trafalgar Square, saying “That as a woman, if someone told me I could have some but not all equal rights they’d walk away bleeding.” And I thought, “Good on you, girl. Good on you.”

But then in the Nineties, when I started working in a scene that I didn’t really know about, but that we were so embraced by so warmly, and you felt the responsibility at that time to provide people with a distraction, a release, a relief from all those headlines, all the funerals, all the grief that we were going through at the time. So just for a few hours we could stand in a pub with a drink, having a laugh, having a sing-along, having a bit of a dance, and it was like topping up your battery. It was like, “Right, I can go out and take another week of Daily Mail-isms and stupid ignorant statements because we’ve been topped up. I’ve had my battery topped up; I am not alone,” and that’s all we need to learn in life.

And it’s such a journey for every gay person that we go through, and every gay person still goes through it now. People say, “Oh, it’s so much easier now,” but as a former secondary school teacher for 15 years, and the number of students who came out to me – I was an out, gay teacher, who are they going to come out to, me. But seeing them do that walk across my classroom, and I know what they’ve come to say, but they have got to say it. They’ve got to have that elevator coming up from their gut which feels like you’re being sick, and – to say those three words.

But at that time, nobody – we all need to feel that we are part of a community, and that people have got their arms around us. And in the Nineties, from my position on the stage, which was such a privilege to see, and seeing people supporting each other. And believe me, I saw people becoming more ill over … If we were playing at a venue, say, once a month, you would see – you would see a deterioration in people. And it fills me up now. And then one week they wouldn’t be there. But to see people standing with them, and holding them, and cuddling them, and for them to come to the dressing room and say, “Oh, you really made me laugh tonight. I love that song.” Blah-blah-blah-blah-blah. And that might be the last time you ever saw them, but you know that you have done something at the time when we felt that people weren’t really – they weren’t helping us that much. We had to find that within our community.

And that’s why I will always support my local bar. I won’t go into town, I’ll go to my local bar, that’s my tribe, that’s my chair, this is the place that I want to say, “This place has to stay open.” Because there is somebody down the road who is plucking up the courage to come in here for the first time, and they’re probably standing outside the door now, looking at the door. And we’ve all done it. We’ve all done it. And if they hear laughter, or if they see – they hear people singing along, chances are they’re going to go in because they think, “I will be safe here.” You know that whole Evan Hansen that’s going around at the moment, you know, “You will be found.” Very clever thing to use as a hook for that musical. “You will be found.” Because there’s a whole generation now thinking, “Where do I belong?” “Where are my people?” “Where will I be found?” And we find them.

Rosie:  OK, so we’re back in the room. The battery just ran out and we’re back in the room. And I was just explaining, Ian, how there’s two sides to this project. One is memories and reflections on that scene which you’ve shared with me wonderfully, and the other is – I mean the name of this project is Where To, Now the Sequins Have Gone? And I wondered what you feel now about what’s available.

Ian:      Oh, that’s an interesting one. I think we are possibly sitting in front of the biggest buffet in the world, and we don’t know where to start. I actually showed a friend of mine the other night the number of flags that there now are, and the number of titles for groups that they now are, and three-quarters of them I don’t know what they mean. I love the fact that I apparently am now labelled. I’m a demisexual. Do you know what a demisexual is?

Rosie:  No, I’m intrigued.

Ian:      No.

Rosie:  Tell me.

Ian:      And there’s even a flag; they’ve designed a flag. A demisexual is someone who can only have a sexual relationship with someone with whom they’ve already formed a strong emotional bond. So in other words, no cruising, no cottages, no sauna, no, that’s never been my way and never will be. But I love the fact that somebody somewhere has come up with this label and designed a flag. Not asked me. I would’ve had paisley all over it. But I worry that people are searching for an identity and there is almost too much choice.

I had a brief [unintelligible 00:40:36] as a school governor, and all girls’ school, and they had a Pride group within the school which I thought, “Ooh, that’s pretty impressive.” And they invited the gay school governor to come and see one of their meetings; of course I went along. And I sat next to this 12 year old girl – so we’re talking Year Nine – and I know Year Nine. As a teacher, I don’t know, they hate everything – they hate themselves, they hate their parents, they hate school, they hate the world because they are a mess of hormones. And this girl was having an open argument or an open heated debate with herself about whether she was lesbian, bisexual, polysexual, or asexual.

And I couldn’t help but think, “You’re 12. You’re 12.” And it’s the only time I ever put my hand up in the meeting, because I was there to observe. And I put my hand up and they went, “Ooh, ooh, Mr Elmslie,” “Yes,” and I went – and I just looked at her and I said, “You will know when you fall in love with somebody. That’s when you know who you are.” Because it’s not about what you are, it’s not about the label. You have fallen in love with someone and that’s when you will know. It might not last, it might be love that only lasts a year before you discover another part of yourself.

But I think I worry that there is so much emphasis or now who am I – what am I, and I think people are losing sight of who am I. I identify as Ian; I’ve identified as Ian since single figures. I knew I wasn’t like other boys. From the earliest I wanted to be a ballet dancer at the age of eight when I should have been wanting to be a fireman. I knew. Being an Osmond fan you didn’t say that on the playground; I did. I came out when I was 16 at a boys’ public school in the mid-Seventies. [Laughs] That took some guts. But I’ve never felt the need to brand myself apart from this is who I am. If I choose to wear makeup, which I still do, does that make me gender fluid or non-binary, no, it makes me Ian on a Friday because I want to do it today.

And I know it is necessary, I know it is, and everyone is going to find their pathway to who they are. I just worry that it’s an ever increasing maze at the moment that it could occasionally lead to a dead end when it sometimes simplify. Edit. Edit your life, [laughs] as you said about writing a book, but which I know, but everyone is on their journey. And whatever anyone has to do to get them to the person that they need to be – not wants to be, that they need to be, that they have to be – do it. Do it. Explore, experiment, call yourself a … That’s how I see things at the moment. But then I think, “Oh, am I just old.”

Rosie:  Well I think it is a big question that people of all generations are asking, aren’t they?

Ian:      Hmm.

Rosie:  And I think we’re all reflecting on our pronouns and all of that. But I guess slightly swerving back towards the bars, I guess one of the questions that we want to ask with this project is finding out about the role that those gay bars like the Queen’s Arms had for people in a really tough period – particularly the Nineties as you said; the Eighties and Nineties – they’re all shut; most of them are closed down now.

Ian:      Yes.

Rosie:  And what has that done to our sense of community, a), and b) what’s the impact on us as individuals?

Ian:      Like too much in society it’s pushed people towards their phones. You know, everyone is just now face down, face down over a phone all the time, and often their lives are focused on their phones. And it makes me sad, and the one local gay bar that I do still go to, the George and Dragon – which I love. I love the George and Dragon. I’ve known the governor 30 plus years. Salt of the earth. Still puts on cabarets. He’s a great, great man. So much time for the duchess. But there will be that time like you see people on their phones, sometimes even when they’re with – in company. And you think, “Turn it off. Look up. Look up.” But the loss of the local gay bars I think is incredibly sad.

Of going to a pub where it is your space and you do feel safe, and you can have a drink, and play pinball. I used to love playing pinball in The Gloucester in Greenwich. I loved it. Having a quiz, having those things that are not what I call the Kleenex Syndrome where you pick people out of a tissue box and blow your nose on it and then throw them away. I think this whole – making anyone – I loathe this disposable society that we’re into, and it’s not just things, it’s people as well. It’s like, “Oh, you’ll do for the night.”

And that’s harder to do if you’re going to a pub and you’re seeing the person that maybe you were a little bit offhand with the previous night, thinking, “Well I’m never going to see them again because they were just on my phone,” and actually they’re drinking over the other side of the bar from you, and they might be next Thursday, and the night after that. So in a way you almost have to modify your behaviour, and get some social skills going on in there, and not treat people quite so – oh, callous is the wrong word, and cold is the wrong word, but actually take some time to get to know people. Go back to a bit of old dating. That beautiful flirtation that used to happen in bars where someone catches your eye, and you spend about five minutes pretending not to catch theirs, and just looking at every part of the room apart of them.

Then you think, “Right, I’ll have a go,” and hopeful that you’ll get that quick eye contact back again, and then, “No, I’m not looking, not looking.” And then it might be a little bit longer, might a little bit of a hint of a smile, maybe the raise of a glass even, and that’s when you know you’re in. And that beautiful dance of dating that happened in bars doesn’t happen anymore, and that’s such a shame because you’re just judging people by statistics. It’s like the old Victoria Wood sketch about Hellmann’s mayonnaise. “Now are you happy with your wash?” You feel like you’re just filling in a checklist, and you get to that survey and go, “Oh no, sorry.” “Oh, if you’re five foot six, no, sorry.” But that five foot six might be the person that makes you happy for the rest of your life.

Rosie:  Yes. Quite. Yes.

Ian:      It’s quite bizarre. And so I miss the very personal – you know, when you’re sharing the same air, sharing the same space as people. And the fact that the venues have gone one by one by one by one is really sad. And I worry that the young people who think that they might have to behave a certain way, that they might have to go into town and into Compton Street, and go to G-A-Y, and have to wear a crop top, and have to have a belly button ring, but “I’ve got to be like this,” because I look around and there are so many people here, and “Oh, I’ve got to look like them,” when in a smaller venue you didn’t have to do that, it was much less pressured. So I worry. [Laughs] I worry. [Laughs]

Rosie:  And I wonder if there’s a generation thing as well. You know, I mean because partly what’s coming across to me is a slightly beleaguered older generation feeling that our venues have gone, our pronouns are all in question –

Ian:      Hmm. Sometimes bad grammar.

Rosie:  [Laughs] Sometimes there are apostrophes in all the wrong places.

Ian:      [Laughs]

Rosie:  Plurals and singles. And you know, “Where’s my place now?” Do you feel that?

Ian:      Ooh, I’ve always felt like an outsider, always. And even when I was really at the heart of the gay cabaret scene I always felt like I was slightly outside of it. You know, because Katrina was the front woman, loud, blah-blah-blah-blah, and I was this the piano player, and so people inevitably talked to her. Maybe about me, sometimes, because I used to drive her up the creek. She’d say, “I’m not his dating agency.” [Laughs] But I’ve always felt that I was just slightly outside of things. And that might be choice; maybe I’ve chosen that as well.

I think sometimes I prefer looking and observing rather than being right at the heart of it. I’m going to plug now; it’s why I called my book A Marvellous Party because I felt that I’d been invited to this marvellous party where all of my heroes – everyone that I looked up to and idolised since year dot – were in the same room and I got to meet them. I got to meet … But it wasn’t about me. It’s almost like I was standing at the edge of the party going, “Wow, aren’t I lucky to be here?” As opposed to the person swinging off the chandelier or dancing on the table, I’ve never wanted that. But as I age, I am quite content to still be an outsider.

What I object to is being made to feel like an outsider by a community that I’ve battled really hard for. Because over lockdown I had no excuse but to record an album of original songs – loved it – called Old Boyfriends. Very specific songs about old boyfriends. A lot of them very funny, some of them bit more poignant. Composed it, recorded it, released it, everything. Got some lovely gigs above The Stag Theatre Bar which now is permanently closed. You know, our one LGBT specific theatre space in London has had to close its doors.

But all these venues who say, “We are all about inclusivity, we are all about celebrating diversity,” not when you are 60, you write your own songs, you perform at the piano, and you do them in trousers. Not a hope in hell. No one will give me a gig. If I was doing it in a dress and singing all that jazz, like they all do, I’d get a gig. But it’s just very interesting. Whether it’s ageism, whether it’s the fact that I wear trousers, whether it’s original material, I don’t know. But not offered a gig, even with my history, and that’s interesting. When you are made to feel that you don’t belong by your own community that’s tough.

And I do like seeing theatre. I saw a play recently called Riot Act, Alexis Gregory, verbatim theatre, three characters – one an original Stonewall Bar survivor, one drag queen probably in his, say, Seventies, Eighties, and one an actor activist – and all giving their perspective of standing up and making a stand. And one of the characters is just saying, “You young people, if you see an older person in a bar, go up and talk to them. Find out where you came from. Find out your history. Because they did a lot of marching and a lot of shouting and a lot of demonstrating, and put up with a lot to enable you to have the freedoms that you enjoy which you probably still moan about and say you haven’t got enough.”

But if you can walk through the streets of London in a miniskirt, a lot of people did a lot of work to do that, so go up and talk to them. Don’t just leave us sitting in a corner, thinking, “Oh, there’s flies buzzing around their head.” [Laughs].

Rosie:  Yes, and I think that goes to the whole topic of that intergenerational connection and conversation, and where can you have that.

Ian:      And I don’t know. I don’t. And when bars and communal places go, you don’t go there. I mean it is interesting at The George, there is a real mixture of ages that go in there. And it’s a very respectful bar The George and Dragon, and that’s all down to the governor. And the fact that cabaret still goes on. I think cabaret, bizarrely enough, is such an inclusive thing, you know, encouraging people. I think it was Joyce Grenfell, who I adore – adore her – she said that when she used to sing in wounded troops hospitals when she was – during the wartime, and she said that “what people really want in times of trouble is to sing together, quietly.”

You know, if they’re lying in the bed, you know, it’s why We’ll Meet Again is such a prominent song. It’s not vocally taxing, it’s not Roll Out the Barrel, it’s this very gentle melody. And sometimes when I see the drag queens in bars singing a song that everybody knows, and see people singing along, it’s such a beautiful thing. And more of it. But when these places disappear, that feeling of, “Oh, we’re all singing together,” goes, and I’m singing next to somebody who doesn’t know all the words, but I only know the chorus. “Wow. You know more than I do. You’re older than I do. How’d you do?” You know, have a chat. Have a chat. So important. So important.

But we’ve got reach out our hands to people. And vice versa. But, again, I was so lucky in schools. I spent my day – [Laughs] I know some people might think this as purgatory – with teenagers, [laughs] you know, with all their stuff. And they were always – they could ask me any question that they liked. They had an out gay teacher; they could ask me anything. I remember this one lad in Year Nine asked me quite a personal question and I answered him. And he went, “You’re not embarrassed at all, are you?” I went, “No,” because I haven’t been embarrassed since I was 10.

I felt sorry for the people who weren’t like me in a way because I’m going to have way more fun than you. [Laughs] Thank you, David Bowie, who pointed out that screen and said, “If you are an outsider come and join my gang because we are going to have so much fun.” We are going to have so much fun, and thus we did. But yes, I will always have this desire within me to let people gently know what they don’t and maybe they should.

I love going into prisons and reading bits from my book to a book club of prisoners in Thameside Prison. It’s great, but you ask them about their heroes; “Who’s influenced you?” “Who would you like to have dinner with?” “Who would you look up to and think, “wow, I’d really like to meet you?”” and then you read. And it is just one of the most rewarding things when you go into a space where a lot of people wouldn’t go and think, “Oh no, they’re going to get to me, they’re going to be horrible to me,” and they’re not. Because we all want to learn about people, and so we should, but in bars, in clubs, you got that opportunity.

If you’re standing next to somebody, ordering a drink, you might spark up a conversation and – shock horror – make a new friend that lasts, that lasts your life. And again, that’s another legacy that will be lost by bars going. I worry about longstanding life-enhancing friendships that were forged in bars. I bumped into my favourite barmaid from the Queen’s Arms the other day, Zara. She’s with a girlfriend now, they’ve got a baby together. We will be buddies till the day we drop, but if it hadn’t been for the Queen’s Arms I never would’ve met Zara. Never. I never would’ve met her beautiful son.

And you know, she shouts at me now, and she calls – because we used to joke about having a baby together; I was sperm, she was womb. I’d walk in, “Hello sperm,” “Hi womb.” [Laughs] The baby’s going to have fab hair, she’s got these fabulous ringlets that used to come down to her [unintelligible 00:57:29]. [Laughs] But now she has got a baby, you know, and so the other day, walking home to where I live, what do I hear from the other side of the road, “Oi, sperm.” [Laughs] I do hope some granny overheard it and went, “What? Where?” [Laughs]

But these friendships that were formed – and talk about the Queen’s Arms, when Joe Thompson died – and it’s damned near an anniversary that he passed away – and that turnout at his funeral filled the entire church in Hither Green. You know, both floors of Hither Green and it was standing only. And then there was a wake drink in the Rose and Crown in Greenwich. And it is wonderful seeing people that you hadn’t seen for decades, because once that bar closed, like any bar closes, people dissipate because it was the one place that people used to come together.

It’s like when The Cheers bar closed, where did those people go? And then suddenly we’re all in the same room again, and we’re greyer, and we’re bigger, but you look in the eyes and the eyes do not change. The eyes never age. And to see these people again, under such sad circumstances. But he pretty much individually created that beautiful space where people could meet and make friends for life, and that’s the loss of … If bars disappear where do people go? We lose our alternative living room.

Rosie:  Wonderful. A sad point to end on I think. [Laughs]

Ian:      [Laughs] I think I should make a joke now. [Laughs] [unintelligible 00:59:14] a filthy gag.

Rosie:  Because I think for completeness, you did mention your book, so do you want to just say a few words about it?

Ian:      Oh, I had to.

Rosie:  What it was, what it’s called and everything.

Ian:      My publisher [laughs] will never forgive me if I …

Rosie:  Yes, quite.

Ian:      I’d left teaching, I’d lost my brother under the worst circumstances, I was completely flat-lined. I love my job, and I just didn’t know what I was going to do next. And a week after I finished teaching, Cilla Black died, and I just – and I’d been with her six weeks previously at Paul O’Grady’s 60th birthday party. And it was the second time I’d been in the presence of showbiz royalty. And so I just wrote this thing about what it was like playing the piano in front of Cilla Black because she’s seen everything. And when you’re looked at by Cilla Black you know you were looked at. And people responded to it, and they said, “Oh, that’s really good. That made me laugh, made me cry, made me think.”

And I thought, “I’ve met a lot of famous people. Let’s just write. Every Saturday let’s write a ticklish remembrance of meeting somebody famous.” But I realised I was writing about my heroes. I was writing about meeting Donny Osmond, meeting David Bowie, meeting Quentin Crisp, Tom Robinson, Armistead Maupin, George Michael, Boy George. Yes, I know, it’s bonkers. And all these people who, in my little outsider land, had just – what I call – thrown down the trail of breadcrumbs. You know, when you’re lost and someone says, “OK, you’re lost, come this way. Come this way. I’ll guide you out the woods.”

And so each chapter was, you know, “The day I met Quentin Crisp,” “The day I met Boy George,” “The day I met … ” blah-blah-blah. And I only realised about three-quarters of the way through that I was writing a book, and also I was writing – because the centrepiece is about the Nineties and working on the gay cabaret circuit, and realising that I was writing a period of our history that could be lost if it wasn’t written down, because so many people who should have written their stories didn’t. They died, or just never found the time or the wherewithal.

And so I wrote what I call a 320 page thank you letter to my community, to my heroes, called a Marvellous Party. And it’s about how, again, we can’t get through this life on our own. We are not strong enough; we need people, whether they be friends, whether they be celebrities, to help us along the way. We can’t do it by ourselves. And I’m so gratef- – and to have the opportunity to say to these people whose records I’d heard, whose books I read, “You changed/saved my life. You gave me a clue how to survive public school, how to survive my parents’ disapproval, how to become better at my job, how to become a better teacher, how to become a better communicator.”

You know, we are permanently in a classroom through life, I think. We are reading, we’re listening, we’re seeing, looking at art that goes, “Wow, that’s a life altering thing.” And I never intended to write a book, but I’m jolly pleased that I did. And my favourite [of you? 01:02:45] – and I will finish with this line from a fellow drag queen of the cabaret circuit, the wonderful Miss Millie Mop who looked like seven foot of Marge Simpson in a blonde beehive – and he said, “You’ve written down what the rest of us were too drunk and drug-fucked to remember,” [laughs] which is the best review ever. [Laughs]

Rosie:  Excellent. Well, we can end on that.

Ian:      We shall.

Rosie:  [Laughs]

Ian:      I gabble away.

Rosie:  Wonderful. And I don’t know if I caught this on tape, I don’t think you did actually – talking about being drunk and drug-fucked – and you, as a performer, were seeing this sober.

Ian:      Completely.

Rosie:  Yes.

Ian:      Yes, we just didn’t drink on stage. I just couldn’t have done my job as well as I wanted to if I’d been remotely sozzled. So, yes, I was taking it all in. I’ve seen people at their best and their worst. [Laughs] But of course I don’t remind them – much. [Laughs]

Rosie:  Excellent. Well, Ian, you’ve been an absolute star.

Ian:      I’ve loved every minute. [Laughs]

Rosie:  Well, I’ve loved every minute. Thank you. Really. Wonderful.

Ian:      My pleasure.

Rosie:  Thank you so much. So unless you have anything else that you’re burning to say.

Ian:      [Laughs] Love each other, just love each other. Please, please, please love each other.

Rosie:  Love each other. Get that, Goldsmith Archive. OK, I’ll press stop.

[End of recorded material at 01:04:08]

 

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Oral Histories: Richard Stableford

An oral history collected by Paul Green as part of the In Living Memory project, Where to, now the sequins have gone?

In the interview, Richard discusses his memories and experiences of the lost gay bars of Lewisham that thrived from 1970s-90s.

Transcript

Rosie (interviewer): The day, today’s the 8th September, and this is an interview with Nick. Nick, can you tell me your full name and spell it. Spell your surname.

Richard (interviewee): It’s actually Rick. Rick Stableford, R-I-C-K, and Stableford is S-T-A-B-L-E-F-O-R-D.

Rosie: Rick.

Speaker 3: Thank you. [Laughs].

Rosie: Sorry about that.

Speaker 3: Start with what’s your name.

Rosie: My name’s Rosie Oliver, and this is for the Bijou Stories: Where To, Now The Sequins Have Gone? exhibition and the archive at Goldsmith. So I’m going to really train the mic on Rick.

Speaker 3: [Laughs].

Rosie: And, Rick, if you could just introduce yourself, and what brought you to the show today?

Richard: Oh, right, so yes, I’ve lived in Lewisham for about 40-odd years and seen many changes. And a flyer was given out for the Drag Race, and that’s where I first heard about it, and so I came. So, yes, I investigated and found out. I literally only live just up the road, so I came down to have a look around, and also to volunteer because I think it’s good to give something back to Lewisham, isn’t it, you know.

Rosie: Yes. And obviously you have some memories of the gay venues in Lewisham, and I wondered if you would share some of those. I mean which one was the one that you’d go to most often?

Richard: Oh, I think one of my favourite memories was when I first came to Lewisham there was a group called the Gay Men’s Drama Class which was an adult education class run by [ILEA? 00:01:45] in the London Education. And I got to make friends here, and through that class, and we used to just scream about, you know what I mean, it was so much fun. And I remember there was a gay disco at The Albany, and the guy who ran the class also set up that disco. And one day he – I don’t know how, we all went round his flat, and we all dragged up [laughs] in the most sort of charity shop drag. It wasn’t particularly good; it was just like slung together drag. And we all put makeup on each other and things like that.

And [laughs] like there was about five or – no, it was probably about 10 of us in all, and we just paraded up Deptford High Street in drag in the late afternoon, walking up. And I just remember it as a really happy moment thinking, yes, “We’re here, we’re queer,” or whatever, so walking to this disco.

Rosie: Do you remember the reactions you were getting from people in Deptford High Street?

Richard: I don’t think I really looked for many reactions. I avoided eye contact I think. I can’t remember, we were just supporting each other and having a laugh with each other really, you know what I mean. People got out of the way, [laughs] I remember that. We were a group walking up, and that’s one of my – probably – you know, it kind of I felt I have arrived in Lewisham kind of feeling, you know what I mean. It was it was good, yes.

Rosie: And when was that roughly?

Richard: Oh, it’d be about ‘88-ish. Around there. ‘88? Yes, it would be ‘88 I think, or ’87. ‘87, ‘88, that kind of time. Yes. Yes.

Rosie: Excellent. So did you go to any of the pubs either with them or with other people?

Richard: Yes. Yes, I went to lots of pubs. It was like, yes, I went to all of them really. It’s like, yes, I’ve seen them all come and go over the years. It’s like even the ones that only lasted a month, it is like, yes, I went to all of them. Some I preferred more than others, but some stayed later – stayed open more than others, so they – [laughs] I went to those as well. So it’s like, yes, depends on whether they’re selling alcohol really. [Laughs]

Rosie: OK, so can we run through them? Which one do you want to start with?

Richard: Oh, well, in Lewisham of course there’s The Castle, Stonewall, 286 or whatever it’s called, 186. Was it 186 or 286?

Rosie: 286.

Richard: 286, that’s it. The Castle, The Queen’s Arms. Oh, there’s The Phoenix of course, and what other ones were … There’s ones in Catford as well that have come and gone. And there used to be a nightclub on Forest Hill, wasn’t there, for a while. And yes, they’ve all come and gone, but I think probably it’s The Castle that was the one that I loved, you know what I mean. Yes, it was a good local feeling there, you know.

Rosie: OK, so I never went to The Castle. Paint a picture for me as to what it was like.

Richard: Yes, as you may know, it was straight at the front and gay at the back, and so you had to walk past the pool tables and run the gauntlet really. [Laughs] To think, “Oh my God, I’ve got to be with my people in the back.” And in the back I remember it as curtains you walk through, I think, but I could be wrong. I think maybe they came a bit later, maybe. And at the back it was – yes, it was a disco or – and it was just people sat around on tables, smoking in those days. And yes, smoking drugs even, you know what I mean. It was like, yes, it was a very relaxed atmosphere, and yes, and people just got on, it was good fun, although there were fights. [Laughs]

And the fights, there was always a fight, and nearly every other night [laughs] something – it was like – and, yes, if someone had probably looked at the wrong person, or whatever, over the time and it would be like some slappy fight going on. Yes, it was usually over as soon as it started, you know what I mean. It wasn’t huge fights, but it’d be like a couple of broken glasses, and you’d think, “OK, we’ll all move down this end of the [laughs] bar,” you know. But that gave it an edge which made it exciting, you know. Yes, I liked it.

Yes. The Ship and Whale as well. You remember The Ship and Whale as well? That was a gay pub for a while, yes.

Rosie: Where was The Ship and Whale?

Richard: That was in Rotherhithe. Yes, yes, that a fun pub. Yes, I used to know – I went out with the barman there. And also Goldsmiths Tavern. I always remember going to Goldsmiths Tavern actually. First time I went there I was [laughs] – there was this – I think it’s the first time I saw a male stripper in London, [laughs] and I’m like … And I was chatting to my mate, we were on the bench chatting away, and I wasn’t really – the stripper was taking ages taking his clothes off, so you got bored. You think, “Oh, come on, get to the exciting bit.” So I was chatting away to him, [laughs] and then the next thing I knew there was a foot on either side of me, [laughs] and this package slapping against my face. [Laughs] I was saying, “What do I do? What do I do?” It was very funny. It was very funny, you know.

Rosie: Is that tea-bagging?

Richard: No, it wasn’t tea-bagging, he still had a leather thong on. It was the leather thong that was slapping against my face. I was thinking it’s very funny.

Rosie: OK, where else was … Did you go to The Queen’s Arms?

Richard: Oh, yes, The Queen’s Arms was literally my local. I lived – well, I still do live about two minutes from it, and I used to treat it as my front room, basically. [Laughs] I always remember during one particularly bad splitting up with a boyfriend scenario I used to go there after work and drink, [laughs] have a drink, and I couldn’t be bothered to go home. And I used to drink till about 11 o’clock at night [laughs] and get really drunk. And yes, and I’d go home, fall asleep, wake up in the morning with a hangover, and Cinders – do you remember Cinders? Yes, you would. Cinders used to phone me up and say, “You left your work bag here again,” [laughs]. So I used to have to pick my work bag up, going back to work, [laughs], go to work, come back, and do it all over again the next night really. [Laughs].

Rosie: Now was Cinders – because I thought Cinders was barman at The Castle, but was he? You said you left your bag here. Was he the barman at The Queen’s Arms as well?

Richard: Yes, yes, he did The Queen’s Arms. He was a barman at many. There was also a very short-lived gay pub up near – you know where the BP garage is, it’s up around the back there. I can’t remember what it was called, it was very short-lived. He was a barman there as well. But I was actually – when I first came to Lewisham he was my neighbour, just by chance, you know, just coincidentally. And I was working as a teacher at the time, and I used to come home really tired, really – you know, it was hard work. And he’d always shout, “Rick,” [laughs] whenever I walked – and he just cheered me up every time. You’d kind of think, “Oh, I am home,” you know.

Especially in those days it was Clause 28 and all that stuff, and you felt bit oppressed really, you know what I mean. And so it was nice just having a camp gay welcome when you walked past his flat. Yes, it was nice.

Rosie: Yes, because I’ve heard someone else talk about him shouting out from the window above the – was it the Admiral Duncan up in Compton Street?

Richard: Yes, yes.

Rosie: Yes. So I just like this idea of this projected voice. [Laughs]

Richard: Yes, so he had a very loud projected voice, yes, he was always welcoming. And yes, he used to do champagne breakfasts before Gay Pride. And because he was my neighbour he used to always pop down and have a bucks fizz or something, you know what I mean, and wish everyone a happy Pride before trolling up to London or Brighton, wherever it was.

Rosie: And tell me about the Roebuck.

Richard: Ooh [laughs] that was a seedy place, really. Yes, it smelt. The first thing that got you was the smell. It smelt like your worst public convenience really. [Laughs] And it had the more rent boy side to it, you know what I mean. It was very Eighties in décor, it was all pink and greys. But towards – I think it closed, what, about 10 years ago maybe, or maybe a bit longer. Anyway it went to be The Phoenix, and closed, and it still had the same décor, you know, like that piney pinky-grey stuff, and it really got grimy and horrible.

The great thing about it though was downstairs was a disco and it would stay open until four o’clock in the morning, you know. And so, yes, when all other pubs have failed you can always go there for a last – a late night drink, you know. And I remember [laughs] taking my – we had a work’s night out, you know me with my straight colleagues. This was when I wasn’t a teacher, I had another job, and I took all my work colleagues there because it’s like, “Yes, let’s go for another drink. Yes.” And they all loved it, we had a great time there, it was a fun night. It was their introduction to the Lewisham gay [laughs] scene was The Roebuck.

But the last time I ever went there, I went there with a mate of mine and you knew it was on its last legs a bit because the – like we were playing pool, me and my mate, and the landlord came up to us and said, “Oh, we’ve got your membership cards.” And we’re thinking, “Hey, what membership cards?” You know, we never applied for it or anything. And he gave us two random membership cards for these two people that we’d never heard of, but I suppose – but it apparently let us in whenever we wanted, or let us in without paying admission or something, you know what I mean. And you knew that that was the last, you know, because why would they give us this? I think they were really desperate.

Yes, yes, it was a shame it was shut down because it was a bit of an institution, but a sleazy one really. A smelly one really. I just remember the smell was – yes, you didn’t want to use the toilets there. [Laughs]

Rosie: Can you tell me about a big night out where you’re going from one place to the next in Lewisham?

Richard: Oh yes.

Rosie: Did you have those?

Richard: Oh big time, yes.

Rosie: And tell me about the sequence and what would you be doing at each different place?

Richard: All right, yes, well it’s like the big night out. It was great because you used to get the bus to Greenwich –

Rosie: From?

Richard: – from Lewisham. Yes, get the bus to Greenwich. You’d start off at The Rose and Crown or The Gloucester. It was The Powder Monkey as well there, wasn’t there, for a short time. I never really liked The Powder Monkey; it wasn’t my scene. But you used to do the trolling between The Rose and Crown and The Gloucester, and then go to – oh, what’s that one? Oh the one on Blackheath Hill. George and Dragon. Yes. Sorry. [Laughs] And see the drag act there; that would be about 10, 11-ish. And then from there go on to either The Phoenix or Stonewall which would be open till three or four in the morning, you know what I mean.

Rosie: Stonewall was what became of The –

Richard: – Castle.

Rosie: Castle.

Richard: Yes, yes, yes, yes.

Speaker 2: [unintelligible 00:14:27].

Richard: Yes, Stonewall became The Cas- – The Castle became Stonewall, yes. Yes, so, yes, it would be like a – you know, the chatty social bit of the evening would be at The Rose and Crown, The Gloucester, and that was a great time because you’d troll between the two pubs. They’re literally only 50 yards apart, aren’t they, and so you’d see everyone in one and, “Oh, I’ll see you in a bit,” and you’d see them in the other one. I tell you it’s almost like a soap opera; same people but in different combinations in different pubs, you know. And then you’d see a bit of show at The George and Dragon, and then a bit of a boogie at Castle Stonewall sort of thing. It was Stonewalls really in those days, yes, and that was a big night. That was kind of fun.

Oh, and end up at The Cast- – you know, if you really wanted a big night, end up at The Queen’s Arms because there would be a lock-in there, you know. I remember when The Queen’s Arms opened, it was like [laughs] we had a march from Stonewalls to The Queen’s Arms. Because they were both owned by Josie, weren’t they? [Laughs]. And we actually had the Gay Pride march and a great – you know, a banner and things, and it was literally just up the road. [Laughs] But they wouldn’t stop the roads for us.

Even though we had a police presence we had to walk on the path. And it was probably about 50 of us or so just walking up, and then we got there, and of course I think Cinders was working in the bar, and suddenly 50 people arrived all wanting a drink and thinking, “Yes.”  It was a really small bar, and it took a bit of time to get served, you know.

Rosie: Yes, someone mentioned how you might spill out into the garden or the street and …

Richard: What, at The Queen’s Arms?

Rosie: At The Queen’s Arms, yes.

Richard: Yes, yes, yes.

Rosie: And there were chains and trip hazards and all sorts.

Richard: Yes.

Rosie: Do you have any memories of that?

Richard: Yes. Yes, there was that. I always remember the day after the Admiral Duncan bombing, yes of course everyone in Lewisham was worried about Cinders. And he was actually in The Queen’s Arms the next night, and he had a few bruises and cuts on him. And I remember chatting to him and he said, “Yes, I’m fine.” He was all right which was good, because the first person you think of in these – it’s a bit like with the Admiral Duncan thing, he was a bit – you know, he was the landlord there, so he probably was the one that was the last person to leave or something, so it was a bit worrying.

But yes, it was great to see him in there. I just remember him sitting outside having a fag and being quite cool about it, really, you know what I mean. Not too upset, you know what I mean. It’s like well that’s what it appeared to me anyway.

Rosie: One of the things that Paul has been interested in exploring with people, I mean from his own experience really, is how the communities were built around the pubs and how everyone would support each other in difficult times. Whether that was the Admiral Duncan situation, or obviously HIV/AIDS. Was that something that you felt was important?

Richard: Yes, when I first came to Lewisham I felt it. I was new to London, new to the gay scene as such, and the London gay scene, yes, it was … As I say, you had the Gay Men’s Drama Group and things like that, it was really useful. And going to Out Dance, or If, as it became, in The Albany was – it was a great club. [Laughs] There was these – I can’t remember his name. I can’t even remember, it’s like their names. Anyway, it was these three gay guys who would dance and almost – I think it was just pre-Vogue days, you know what I mean, but they knew all the Madonna dances.

And so they’d get up and do the Madonna dances. And Oscar who ran the club, you know, they’d get people dancing in a way, you know what I mean. They’d break the dance sides, and I know they – [laughs] And Oscar actually used to let them in free because they – but they took it incredibly seriously actually with the dancers. [Laughs]. You know, “Excuse me. Excuse me,” you know, and get to the bar. “We’re the dancers, we need a drink now, sorry.” [Laughs]. And it was just all really fun. Yes, it was a fun night out.

And yes, with HIV. I’m trying to think about HIV and AIDS though. Yes, there was obviously lots of – you know the Metro Centre in Greenwich was a big plus. And also The Positive Place in Deptford was set up. I don’t know how true this is, but what I heard which I think is quite interesting, is – because I heard it from somebody who was involved in setting up The Positive Place. And the reason it was set up was because The Lighthouse was so far away, you know, and you may as well go to Brighton or something. To get to West London would take an hour and a half, so to have somewhere local – and it was a great idea.

And they got funding from Greenwich, Southwark, Lewisham to help fund this thing because obviously people from all those boroughs would use it. But one borough wouldn’t give any funding because they didn’t have people with HIV and AIDS in it, and that was [laughs] Bromley. They would not. And this is how rumour had it anyway. And you do hear quite anti-gay things coming from Bromley, like when they tried to set up a gay pub there was a petition against it. And also about the Bromley Court Hotel, about how they wouldn’t have people – they wouldn’t do civil partnerships there even though they were licensed. And Bromley Council said, “Yes, that’s all right, you can do that,” even though technically they were lic- – you know, they got the license from the council, you know.

But yes, so I know friends who used – and, yes, I went there for a couple of social dos and things at The Positive Place, and it was a really useful space for people with HIV and AIDS. It was, yes, very, very useful. I think it’s when the Metro Centre started, was it, at The Positive Place? Maybe. Maybe, I’m not sure. I think they were involved in it anyway.

Rosie: Can you shed on why and when the various bars and pubs closed?

Richard: Why and when, hmm. Oh, well, yes, there were ones that just lasted overnight. There were fly by night pubs that were gay, as particularly as pubs generally closed, you know what I mean. They still are, aren’t they, you know what I mean, but sometimes a pub in its last dying days, if you like, would have a gay night just to see – to get people in, you know. But the main pubs, obviously The George and Dragon is still going strong. Yay. But The Phoenix shut about – I think about 10 years ago with all that new development in Lewisham, you know, all the new – well, it was all part of that I think.

And Stonewall’s probably – no, Stonewall’s – I think the last time I went to Stonewalls was actually [laughs] around the Olympic time, 2012, and they did a breakfast. Because a friend of mine, he actually managed to hold the torch. They had a relay race to – you know, the Olympic torch came through Lewisham, and he did it for his charity. And so we all went and supported him, and then Stonewall said they would – or I think it was 286 then – do a breakfast. [Laughs] It was tinned mushrooms. [Laughs] I’m sorry. I’m sorry, but [laughs] yes, you know, [laughs] it’s like – yes. Yes, I can’t eat them. I’ve never eaten tinned mushrooms since. I don’t think I – you know what it’s like. It’s not something you can – you know, they’re not –

Rosie: It’s something that shouldn’t even be tried.

Richard: Yes, exactly. [Laughs] Yes. Exactly, yes, yes. And they tried, do you know what I mean, but I think that was one of the last times I went there. Yes, that was early, sort of 10 o’clock in the morning having breakfast. So they tried to put it on, you know.

Rosie: Yes, so did you get the sense that it was on its last legs as a venue?

Richard: Yes, I think the tinned mushrooms [laughs] made you feel that. “Yes, I don’t really want to come back.” Oh no, I think I went there a couple of times afterwards and did some [laughs] drunken karaoke with a mate of mine. And I remember we sang, I Know Him So Well. [Laughs] And I know it must’ve been on its last legs because I would only do karaoke in an empty pub, [laughs] you know what I mean. I wouldn’t let Joe Public suffer my dulcet tones, you know [laughs] what I mean.

Rosie: So we’ve got The Phoenix which was The Roebuck and other things closes, as you recall, as a result of all the redevelopment in Greenwich.

Richard: I think so. I think so.

Rosie: Yes. And then you’ve got The Castle which becomes 286, and Stonewalls, which is closing around the time of the Olympics.

Richard: Yes. Yes.

Rosie: What about The Queen’s Arms? Would you remember when that closed?

Richard: That closed just before I think. That closed before, I think it did, probably about – oh yes, they had a … Yes, that closed probably about two years before that, maybe 2010, something around that time, because it’s now flats isn’t it. So yes, if those walls could talk. [Laughs]

Rosie: And why do you think all these venues folded?

Richard: I think it’s too far. I think the rise of the gay app, there’s that side. And also the general – you know, people – generally pubs are closing, aren’t they, you know what I mean, it’s straight and gay, you know, so I think there’s that side as well. It’s a shame because they were of the time, they were fun, there was a community spirit, you know. And it’s great that this archive is recording those times for – because it was a fun party time really.

I think that anything – you know, that it seems to be less of a social thing now, it’s all people – you know, people meet other guys on the gay apps, and so, you know what I mean, and there’s less fun getting together stuff, you know what I mean, and such.

Rosie: I mean where would you look for that? In Lewisham?

Richard: [Laughs] Yes, yes, yes. Yes, I think there’s things like this which hopefully will take off. And I think there are certain places, like there’s now The Fox and Firkin I go to, and that’s very gay friendly. It always was, as I was saying to Paul, it was like when you got kicked out of Stonewalls by Josie you went to The Fox and Firkin. Or if you had an argument with Josie you went to The Fox and Firkin and you had your own little table. There was contingency tables there of people that were the ex- – or who had enough of the landlord there and so they went to The Fox and Firkin. And so it was always gay friendly. You could always kiss your partner there and hold hands or whatever, so yes, I felt it was fairly inclusive.

And they have queer markets now and things like that there, and gay friendly nights there now and things, so – and it’s quite a social do, so there’s something there. But they also have very straight nights as well, but so you have to pick and choose a bit.

Rosie: No, it’s interesting, isn’t it, that The Fox and Firkin stepped in [laughs] to fill that role.

Richard: Yes. Yes, yes, yes. It was always there a bit, you know what I mean, it was always there. It was always you went to The Fox and Firkin, and if you really had – you know, because there’d be gay people there. It’s something that you kind of knew through the years, you know. Yes, it was fun.

Oh, there’s the other gay – I forgot to talk about the Dover Castle and the – and what was that other pub – and the Goldsmiths Tavern, and – oh, this is going back some – and the – what was it? What was the one on the corner called that’s now a noodle house? Oh, I’d like to call it The Phoenix but I’m not sure.

Rosie: So let’s start with the Dover Castle and where that was – is/was.

Richard: Dover Castle was in Deptford, it was on the main street, and that was a fun pub. It was edgy and everything, and it was the one that The Deptford Dykes used to drink there, you know what I mean, and they were a force to be reckoned with, you know what I mean. You didn’t want to argue with them. I was talking to a friend of mine about The Deptford Dykes the other day and he’s like, “Oh wow, yes, I forgot all about them.” And he never lived in Lewisham, but he’d heard of them, you know what I mean.

Rosie: Is this a specific moniker, people called themselves The Deptford Dykes?

Richard: Yes.

Rosie: Or is that what you called the dykes in Deptford?

Richard: No, it’s what they called themselves. Yes, it was like they were hard, you know what I mean. I think it all stemmed from the housing in the [Peats? 00:29:09] Estate, you know how it was hard to let housing, and in the end it was let to lesbian and gay people because they couldn’t – the GLC at the time couldn’t rent them out to anyone really, you know. Yes, which is amazing when you think of it now, it’s beautiful flats on the river. OK, they’re councily but, you know, there’s nothing wrong in that. But yes, The Dover Castle used to be great fun. So I remember seeing drag acts there like Adrella, and yes, maybe even Lily Savage there, I don’t know. I remember seeing Adrella there a few times, and yes, it was a fun time until it exploded.

[Laughs] You know what it’s like, until the pub – do you not know? He’s like, “No.” Yes, it [laughs] – well he woke up, there was an ex- – you know you hear on the news, right, “Explosion in Deptford,” or something, “mind the traffic.” Because it’s on Deptford Broadway, in the A2 as such, and it’s like – [laughs] – and there was a gas explosion. No one was killed, great, you know, but whether it was an insurance job or whatever, because again these pubs did – this was – but this was early on. This was probably mid-Eighties, no, probably mid- – no late Eighties, probably, maybe early Nineties I’d say. And so it’s a brand new building there, and it’s not a gay pub or anything.

Rosie: I mean I’m not sure if Deptford High Street’s … Is that in the Borough of Lewisham or Greenwich? But in any event –

Richard: It is in the Borough of Lewisham, yes.

Rosie: It is in Lewisham, OK, well we need to know more about these Deptford Dykes. Tell me more.

Richard: [Laughs] Oh, I don’t know a lot because I was scared of them as well. [Laughs] It’s like [laughs] “You don’t mess with The Deptford Dykes.” But I think they were motorbike loving dyke people who played pool, and they were very much your butch dyke, if you like, you know what I mean. Yes, you didn’t mess with them, I know that. So I don’t know a lot about them really, but yes, I’m sure, yes, there must be pictures of them and things.

Rosie: But you would go to The Dover Castle, there’d be men there as well. And what was it like?

Richard: Oh, fun. It was just a fun pub, you know. It was just, yes, a fun get drunk pub, you know what it’s like.

Rosie: And what was the other one you mentioned? Oh, yes, Goldsmiths. I think you mentioned the whole striptease, but tell me more about The Goldsmith Tavern.

Richard: Oh, Goldsmith’s Tavern was great, it’s where Vic Reeves started. And yes, so they had cabaret nights as well as fun nights. Yes, it was a nice old pub as well, and you went in the back room for the gay cabaret, as such, with a stripper or a drag queen or whatever. It’s going back some that.

Rosie: So it was basically a sort of mixed/straight pub that had gay nights, gay cabaret.

Richard: Yes, yes, yes, it had something different each night. I think Thursday nights might have been the gay night I think, yes. I think so. But yes, because it had a gay night it meant it was gay friendly on other nights as well which is good. It was fun. And there was 309. Remember 309? That was the gay sauna, that was in the late – that only shut about five years ago maybe or so, you know.

Rosie: Where was that?

Richard: That was opposite The Goldsmith’s Tavern, you know what I mean. I don’t think the two were open at the same time, you know what I mean. The gay sauna was open maybe towards late Nineties I think, probably, for 10 years or so. Yes, so you had all the facilities, you know. You could have a drink then go for a bit of fun down [laughs] the sauna, then go to a drag show, so both [unintelligible 00:33:03].

Rosie: Yes, and I mean not to be incriminating anyone at all, and naming no names, but I think you did mention Hilly Fields earlier.

Richard: [unintelligible 00:33:09].

Rosie: Did she? Yes, tell me about that.

Richard: There was Ladywell Fields. Ladywell Fields.

Rosie: Ladywell Fields?

Richard: Yes, well Hilly Fields as well. Hilly Fields – no, Ladywell Fields was – yes, until they put new lighting in, the bastards, and shut the cottage. That, after being in The Castle/Stonewalls, whatever, especially on summer evenings you used to get a few tins and go down the Ladywell Fields. Or even if you was feeling a bit randy you’d go down there, and yes, it didn’t really matter what the weather really. [Laughs] And, oh, if you picked someone up in The Castle/Stonewall and you couldn’t be bothered to take them home. [Laughs] You know, you’re just [unintelligible 00:33:55], “Hey, there’s a bush round the corner,” [laughs] you know. It’s saves all the having to make coffee in the morning, you know. [Laughs]

Yes, but since then they’ve … It was one – do you know Ladywell Fields? It was like there was two sides to it, the one that was well lit, and the one was not well lit, so you can guess which side was the more adventurous side really. And, yes, but now both sides are well lit, so it is no longer – and also, yes, I think a few trees have been thinned out as such, so it’s not what it was. And also the cottage is closed. But yes, well it’s closed. I think it’s open occasionally, but it’s not what it was. [Laughs]

Rosie: I mean, Rick, you’ve given me so much.

Richard: I’m sorry.

Rosie: No. No, no, no, but there’s no else here is there. Well, no, I’m not saying stop it. So what else? What else have you got? Have you got any stories, specific stories, of nights, evenings when you were in where something particular happened?

Richard: They’re all a bit of a blur because it was so alcoholically driven, really. Yes, I can’t – none kind of – ooh, I don’t know. I don’t know, I’m trying to think. Yes, you want them specifically to Lewisham, don’t you really?

Rosie: Well any of the venues that we’ve talked about?

Richard: Yes. Yes. Ooh, I remember – now this is weird, this is kind of – like when I split up with my boyfriend, and it wasn’t a very – one of my many boyfriends [laughs] – and it was an acrimonious split. We weren’t happy, it wasn’t a happy time. And he got a mate of his – I don’t know if you can use this, but it’s like he got a mate of his to do a strip in the – to be a strip- – he was a stripper – to do a strip in a my local pub, in The Queen’s Arms. Not the Queen’s – The Queen’s – yes, The Queen’s Arms, yes. And it just felt weird that he – because the posters were all done in my boyfriend’s handwriting, you know what I mean, and you think, “Why has he done this?” It was a bit freaky. I don’t know why that came up to mind, but it was a weird night.

Rosie: So how about three – maybe three words, or three thoughts about each of the venues? So three words to describe The Castle.

Richard: The Castle, oh, fun, edgy [laughs] I’d say, and, oh, druggy. [Laughs]. I remember it being a bit druggy in my time. But not hard drugs, soft drugs. Class B – C drugs like cannabis was quite a thing. It’s South London, “Hello?” [laughs] you know what it’s like. So I probably – I hope I don’t get into trouble for that, but yes.

Rosie: But you’ve mentioned no names.

Richard: Yes. Yes.

Rosie: What about The Roebuck? Three words for The Roebuck.

Richard: Oh, [laughs] smelly, [laughs] Eighties, and grimy I’d say.

Rosie: And The Queen’s Arms?

Richard: Oh, local. Oh, yes, kind of – yes, it was just familiar, and it was open all night. [Laughs] Is that one word? [Laughs] Open until you got chucked out by Josie. [Laughs]

Rosie: I’ll allow that. I’ll allow that.

Richard: Yes, I remember knocking on the – you used to go to a pub, and you used to have to knock on the door, and depending on what mood Josie was in he would let you in or not let you in. Or it depends on whether you had an argument with him recently, because he was a bit of a fiery temperament at times, you know.

Rosie: Which ones have we missed? I mean the Goldsmith’s Tavern was …

Richard: That was nice old pub that had strippers and things. Yes, it was a nice pub. But yes, I miss that pub. Yes, and The Dover Castle. We’ve done The Dover Castle haven’t we?

Rosie: No, tell me about it. Give me some words for that then.

Richard: Dover Castle was, yes, scary, [laughs] a little bit with the Deptford Dikes, and the – but great cabaret. Good cabaret.

Rosie: And tell me more about that.

Richard: It would have the major stars like Adrella, yes, and –

Rosie: Lily Savage?

Richard: – Lily – I think Lily Savage. She probably did on her way up, it’s like their thing. And yes, and the strippers. It was always strippers. Oh, the strippers were great in those days; they used to have two strippers on stage at the same time doing what two strippers on stage could do at the same time. Yes, you didn’t want to drink out of those bottles, you know what it’s like. It was outrageous. Yes, you know what it’s like. Yes. Yes. Yes, you can guess what they did. [Laughs] Yes, but they were fun, dark times.

Rosie: Can you paint – ooh –

Richard: Yes, yes, I don’t know if I should say this, but The George and Dragon used to have a naughty night as well, a naughty Sunday I think. Sunday afternoons where it was a naked day. But that pub’s still going so I don’t know whether I should say anything, but –

Rosie: Everything in the archive’s going to be confidential.

Richard: Yes.

Rosie: Yes, yes, yes, but I’m curious about this naked – because presumably this is naked acts or naked punters?

Richard: [over talking – 00:39:55] Punters. The punters would be naked. But yes, the thing is that we all know each other. [Laughs] It’s all like, “Oh hello, [unintelligible 00:40:02] I saw you down the market,” you know what it’s like. It’s like “Oh, who are you going out with now?” that kind of thing. So in terms of anonymous sex it didn’t really exist. I think I only went once, and I’m thinking, “No, it’s all a bit embarrassing because we know each other so well.” [Laughs]

Rosie: You’re the first person I’ve spoken to who’s mentioned The Dover Castle, so can you describe it, like where it was, what it was like as a building, as an interior, and that just kind of stuff?

Richard: It was quite deep as a bar; it had pool tables in it. It was on Deptford Broadway, just up from – you know where The Positive Place is? If you imagine Deptford Broadway, opposite there, that kind of area. It’s a brand new buil- – well, brand new, Eighties building, Nineties building there now.

Rosie: What, was it like an old Victorian pub?

Richard: No, no, it was more I would say Thirties maybe. Architecturally, it wasn’t very interesting, it was like –

Rosie: So you walked through the door.

Richard: You walked through the door, there’d be a pool table with The Deptford Dykes on, and [laughs] she’d go, “Leave them, leave them, they’re happy,” you know what it’s like, “they haven’t had an argument yet,” you know what it’s like. Yes, and then you’d just have a drink and there’d be – and it was one of those bars where the drag queens would be on, and they could walk round and chat to everyone, and get everyone involved and things, you know what I mean. It was fun.

Rosie: Do you remember who the barman or women were, or who ran it?

Richard: You’re going back years and years now. You know what it’s like. Yes, sorry, I can’t.

Rosie: When are we going back?

Richard: I went there from about ‘85 to maybe 1990-91 when it might have been demolished, exploded, wherever. [Laughs]

Rosie: Well, Rick, it’s just been a brilliant interview.

Richard: Oh good.

Rosie: I wasn’t expecting that at all.

Richard: Oh. Oh, brilliant.

Rosie: No, fantastic. Any other thoughts? I mean we can pick this up again.

Richard: I would like to talk about the pantomimes. They were funny, because I love a pantomime. And Rose Garden and some friends of mine –

Rosie: OK, hang on. Because people have mentioned the Rose Garden, but I need you to introduce – say who this person is.

Richard: Oh, Rose Garden is – you know, she’s – oh, I think – I know – well I don’t know Rose Garden personally, but when I was – you know how I mentioned I was a teacher, and I wasn’t a very happy teacher with Clause 28 and all that sort of stuff. And I didn’t want the pupils to find out I was gay because it might’ve been seen as promoting homosexuality or something. And I was a Primary School teacher, the first thing they asked you is, “Have you got a girlfriend?” and all that sort of thing, you know. And so I wasn’t happy.

And I used to go, and Rose Garden used to be a hairdresser. I don’t know what his name is, but you know, Rose Garden. And I used to always walk past, and that was just near Charing Cross station, and that was on my commute to the school that I taught in. And I used to see him, and I always used to think, “Oh, that is a happy person,” you know what I mean. And I think it’s before he did drag, you know what I mean. And I used to think, “Oh, that’s a really happy person. He’s a happy gay hairdresser camping it up in – just having fun in London.” And I was thinking, “I’m in the wrong job here; I’m not happy.” And that was my first introduction to Rose Garden really.

And then I found out he was a drag queen, and he ended up living – well, knowing people in this area. And he – with a couple of friends of mine, as I say – did the local panto at the … It started at The Queen’s Arms. I think they did two ones at The Queen’s Arms. And they were brilliant pantos. I remember he did – oh, it was at the time that Kirsty McCall died, remember, and he did a – and his number was In These Shoes which I think was one of her last hits, you know what I mean. It’s like one of her last records, and yes, it was really moving.

Because she died around Christmas as well. He obviously rehearsed it before knowing that [laughs] she died. And it was a really fun panto because it got people involved, all sorts of people, amateurs as well as other drag queens. And yes, and oh, what’s his name? I can’t remember his name, but yes, Paul knows it. He used to always do Triangle. La la la la la – ting – triangle, you know, that was one of his songs.

Rosie: Oh yes, we’ve interviewed him. Ian.

Richard: Ian?

Rosie: Do I mean Ian?

Richard: No?

Rosie: From thingy and The Girl?

Richard: No, no.

Rosie: Oh no, no, no. Someone else?

Richard: So he was a barman. He was the barman there.

Rosie: Oh, OK.

Richard: He – Mrs – I can never remember his name. He’s one of these people that’s got grey hair, so he always seems a bit older than he actually is, you know what I mean. But yes, yes, he always did Triangle which was always – yes, he was always like, “Yes, triangle, triangle,” even though he was like – it’s kind of fun, you know. And they did two pantos at The Queen’s Arms, and I think they did one at one or two at The Castle/Stonewalls. I think it was Stonewalls in those days, yes. And that was fun.

Rosie: And because I mean people have said – so Rose Garden, am I right in thinking Rose Garden’s thing was that they would dress up as the queen? Or did they do many things?

Richard: Oh no, that’s Pete Morgan. That’s Pete Mor- – do you know Pete Morgan?

Rosie: Oh, OK, so I’m confusing the two. So tell me, who was Rose Garden and what was their shtick, and who was Pete Morgan?

Richard: Oh, Rose Garden’s still going as a drag queen. And yes, he does stuff with – [laughs] one of his – I always remember seeing him at Gay Pride – Brighton Gay Pride before it was as massive as it is now. And he did a number of – I’d like to think it was “Rain.” It was like “Rain on a wedding day,” you know that song, Ironic?  I think it’s that song. And he used to get a water shooter [laughs] and spray it at everyone.

But yes, at Gay Pride Brighton he used to deliberately go for the people from Lewisham. You knew you were in for it. As soon as he started pumping that water shooter thing you’d think, “This is it.” But yes, he’s, he’s from, I think he’s from Northern Ireland, and he’s a lot of fun. You know he did a lot for the gay scene in Lewisham, I think, in terms of he spent time putting this panto together if nothing else. You know, he did that, which was brilliant because really he was the professional in the company that kept it all together really, you know what I mean, which is good.

Rosie: So Rose Garden is doing all kinds of drag professionally.

Richard: And then Pete –

Rosie: Pete Morgan.

Richard – yes, yes, yes, he’s a proper Lewisham drag queen. Yes, I don’t know if he’s still going. I think he is, I don’t know, and he used to just do the Queen, really. But he [laughs] used to do – you know, of course everyone applauds when the queen comes on, you know what I mean. And he’d get out a – he used to say, “I’ve got a speech,” [laughs] and he’d get a – I always remember that, he’d take it out of his handbag, you know, the queen’s handbag, and say, “My speech is two pounds of potato,” [laughs] and it’d be a shopping list. And he’d go, “Oh sorry, wrong one,” you know. So yes, I think he was involved in opening things like when Castle became Stonewalls, or when Stonewalls became 286. I think he was involved in those ceremonial – [laughs] like in a partial ceremonial kind of way.

He does really like the Queen as well when he puts a wig on, that’s the thing, so yes. Yes, his boyfriend used to always hang around as well. His boyfriend had massive tattoos and things. You used to think, you know, when you’d see them, you’d go, “Interesting couple.”

Rosie: Any other thoughts? Reflections?

Richard: Not off the top of my head, no. It’s like I haven’t [unintelligible 00:48:31].

Rosie: I mean one thing is, this is for Lewisham, and we are looking at Lewisham. And do you think that Lewisham was a special case, like had a particularly vibrant scene? Or did you feel it was different? I mean obviously Bromley was a nightmare.

Richard: Yes.

Rosie: But did you feel that Lewisham had an identity?

Richard: Definitely, yes. Yes. It was like it was the first area outside Central London. I mean you could chat to your mates saying, “Shall we have a drink? Shall we just stay local tonight? Or should we go up to London?” And London would be a big night out; it’s like Heaven or whatever. And whereas the locals, it gave you that choice which was … And also you’d get people coming from Abbey Woods and Kent, and people like that coming, and they’d come to Lewisham so that was their big night out which is interesting. So it had a draw there, you know what I mean, I think.

And The Castle was seen as one of the oldest gay pubs in London, I think, if not the old gay pub in London. I think that was one of its selling points is it was an institution, you know. And it’s a shame it’s completely closed now, isn’t it, but there’s nothing. It’s like you can’t even go in there to see the ghosts, you know.

Rosie: I feel that that’s the headline here, “Can’t even go to see the ghosts.”

Richard: Oh right, oh yes. [Laughs]

Rosie: That’s a good soundbite.

Richard: Oh, well maybe. Maybe. Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

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Oral Histories: Sis. Stella Headley

An oral history gathered as part of the In Living Memory project, Pioneers and Protest.

In the interview, Stella discusses her life in Lewisham in the 1980s and her memories of the New Cross Fire and the Black People’s Day of Action.

Parts of this interview are featured in a film produced by the project entitled Pioneers and Protest: Seeking Change.

Transcript

Nena (interviewer): Hi, my name is Nena Bisceglia, and today I’m here with Stella Headley for an interview about the Black People’s Day of Action as part of  IRIE! dance Pioneers and Protest’s project for Living Memory, Lewisham. And today is Thursday 19th of May, and we are at the Moonshot Centre. Hi Stella, thank you so much for being here with us and for your time. I feel very lucky to have the opportunity to talk to you. And this is an interview about oral history, so we want to record your story, that’s why I’m not going to say too much, but I’ll love to have a conversation after this if you want. And could you please spell your name and surname for us, thank you.

Stella (interviewee): So I’m Stella Headley, that’s S-T-E-L-L-A, and Headley is H-E-A-D-L-E-Y.

Nena: Thank you. OK, so just to start with a bit of personal story and background. How would you describe yourself in 1981?

Stella: In 1981?

Nena: Yes.

Stella:  In 1981 I think I’d describe myself as a young rebel, and I was very eager to have my perspectives known. And also I think my dad used to call me a hustler because I used to try and think of ways to earn money to contribute towards the gas and the electric meter. [Laughs]

Nena: OK. Thank you. And can you tell us something about the area you grew up and where you went to school?

Stella: So I grew up in an area called Sydenham which is in the Borough of Lewisham. And opposite us was a park, Mayow Park in Sydenham. And we used to go – I have four sisters, so there were five of us, and so we used to go to that park every day. And where we lived there was a bank where you had to climb down through some bushes. You could go around the long way, but we just used to climb through to the main road and then run across the road to the park with our two dogs following us. And so we knew the park; every single part of the park we knew. So we were brought up in that area.

And in that area there were a lot of big houses with gardens, and so we used to do a – it’s called scrumping where we used to – I used to – I was the youngest, so I would be the one that would get hoisted over the fence to the apple trees or the pear trees or whatever fruit trees it was, and then the rest would follow. And then we’d pack our jumpers or bags or whatever with fruits and then run – [laughs] run home and, I don’t know, make an apple pie, or sometimes we used to collect blackberries.

There seemed to be a lot of bramble around that area. There was a woods, Dacres Road Woods, there was a lot of bramble and blackberries and things, so we’d collect blackberries and apples and things and make apple and blackberry crumbles, yes.

And the school I went to was not far. There was a bridge, a small bridge halfway down Dacres Road. And it was next to a church called –

Nena: Take us back to Dacres Road.

Stella: OK. Yes.

Interviewer 2: Could you pick up from Dacres?

Stella: From?

Interviewer 2: Dacres. Dacres Road?

Stella: Oh, Dacres Road. Yes, so there was a road called Dacres Road right next to where we lived, and there was some woods there called Dacres Woods. It had a big swamp in it, and we used to have a swing made out of a rope and a tyre and we used to try and swing from one side of the swamp to the other without dropping in the swamp. And there was a lot of brambles there, so we used to collect blackberries, and with the apples that we’d scrumped we’d make blackberry, apple crumble. And yes, we did a lot of exploring in the woods. And we used to go there in the evening times, at night times, and tell spooky stories. And I’d be the youngest, I’d always be the one in tears, and then we’d run.

We used to have this thing called Leg It. As soon as you’d hear someone say Leg It, you just run. But yes, so not far from there, there was a bridge next to a church called the Bonhoeffer Church, and when you go over that bridge you were in a different – actually it was a different postcode. So you go over the bridge and you’re in a different postcode. And not far from there was my school, my secondary school, Sydenham Girls School on Dartmouth Road in Forest Hill. And then, yes, so I went to that school from ‘76 to ‘81.

Nena: OK. And how was your education experience?

Stella: My education experience, wow, it was an – yes, it was an experience. See, on the one hand, at home, my dad, he was a record collector and so he used to collect records, and not just music but speech records. And so he had this record called Black Family Day, and it was from 1971, and it was a speech record of a Black Family Civil Rights Day in America. And so on the one hand I was conscious and aware of Black civil rights and things, but then at school I felt that I was stripped away of my rights whilst I was at school. So I had good days and bad days at school, and I think by the time I reached the fourth year of secondary school I opted not to wear school uniform anymore. I didn’t want to wear any form of uniform.

And in the early years whilst I was at the school it was interesting because they put you in groups and streams, and I was in this stream where I was studying History, Classical Studies, Religious Education, Physics, Chemistry, Biology, and English, and Maths. And I felt it was a punishment because all my friends were studying courses that I thought were really interesting. And so once you get to the fourth year, you get to choose your options and so I chose not to work towards O Levels and A Levels. I chose to work for just a Certificate of Secondary Education which was a CSE because I found those subjects more interesting for me.

Nena: OK. Thank you. And how would you describe the area of Lewisham at the time, and the community?

Stella: At the time my memories were, from where I lived, we experienced racism. We experienced quite a lot of racism. I have memories of neighbours on one side calling us names. Am I allowed to say the names?

Nena: It’s up to you.

Stella: So you had neighbours on one side not so much shouting, but as soon as you’d go in the garden they would say jungle bunny, golliwog. And then the neighbours on the other side would be singing songs that were clearly offensive. And so we – myself and my sisters – we built up a resilience against that. And sometimes you’d come home from school and there was racist graffiti written on your door with dogs excrement. And so it must’ve been hard for my mum really. It must’ve been hard for my mum because we were quite consciously aware of what racism was.

And my mum’s background was from – she came from Barbados, and she came from the Church of England background, and so she just wanted to assimilate and blend in, but [laughs] we weren’t being allowed to anyway. And so the area was quite racist. I remember walking to the shops and seeing – there’s one man in particular, he was really tall, and as soon as he used to see us he used to do the Heil Hitler sign. And he had an Alsatian dog, and he’d let his dog bark at us. And so sometimes, you know, we got used to his pattern of walking the dog.

And so what we used to do is there was a letterbox on one side of the road, and we used to get a piece of thread and tie it to a milk bottle, [laughs] and put it on top of the letterbox, and then put the other side of the string in the bush or something. So that when he walked past, the bottle would drop and smash. [Laughs] So we used to have our own way of getting our own back at him. But yes, but on a serious note, there was places around Lewisham that you just couldn’t go as a Black person because you would experience racism. And those places were not that far from where you live, so we weren’t welcome in many places, so I think that’s why we used to spend a lot of time in the park.

We used to spend a lot of time in the park because when you go further afield, and you have to walk from a different area then you’re likely to be called names. And even at school I experienced – a friend invited us to her birthday party, and when we got there, at some point I heard her mum say “Oh, I didn’t know, I didn’t realise that all of your friends were Black.” And I just happened to hear because I was going to the toilet at the time. But so there was always that subtle – if not overt, then it was really subtle racism going on. And there were places that just weren’t friendly in Lewisham. Yes, it’s changed a lot now, yes.

Nena: Thank you. So as you just told us, you had a great awareness of racism because of your family specifically and the role of your dad in your life, and because of your daily experiences in Lewisham. But can you tell us a bit about what made you decide to join the march specifically [unintelligible 00:13:24]?

Stella: Yes. [Pauses] I decided to join the march because on the day of the party I met my cousin and my friends, and we met up and then we went to the party. And three of them, the boys, they went inside, and myself and my other school friend we were downstairs. And then she was saying that she had to go, you know, she had to go home. And so we asked the boys, or one of the boys, to walk us to the cab station on New Cross Road. And so we got the cab, and she went home, and I went home. And then in the morning – a few hours later I think it was – the phone was ringing, and it was one of the boys’ mums asking me have I seen her son.

And I said, “Yes, he’s at the party. He was at a party.” And then she started panicking, saying that there was a fire at the party. And then I think I stayed awake until I think the news came on really early in the morning. And then the next day she still couldn’t find him. She kept ringing and I said, “I don’t know where he is,” and then that’s when I saw on the news what had happened. And then my cousin – I call him my cousin but he’s – because we are really close – he was missing as well. And then eventually I found out that he had died. [Pauses] And I think they recognised him by his dental record.

And so when I went to school there was a girl, an English girl, and she made a comment and she said, “Oh, that’s 13 less niggers we have to worry about,” no, “twelve less niggers we have to worry about.” And I got really upset about that, and then we had an argument, and then we had an assembly. And a couple of weeks later there was an assembly. We had an assembly, and this was on the day of the march. Because in between that I’d been going to Andrew’s house, and his brother was burned as well in the fire, and myself and my friends, we used to just go to the house. And his mum used to let us just go into his bedroom and we just used to hang about in the room and just sit on the bed.

And I remember one day I was there, and the brother came in, and I just couldn’t stop looking at his face. Because I think at the time he had jumped out and he was rubbing his face thinking it was dust and something on his face, but he was actually rubbing off his skin off of his face. And so the pigmentation had never come back, but at the time it was very sore, and I kept looking at him and I just remember passing out and just collapsing, and just waking up on the bed. And then after that it was a case of just funerals, and I didn’t really understand about all these funeral arrangements because I was 15 at the time.

[Pauses] And so yes, I think that on the day of the march I started to hear about at meetings that were taking place, and people were angry about it. And then on the day of the march, it was a school day, and then I remember it was raining. It was miserable and raining, and we got called to an assembly, and the whole assembly was about this march and what had happened. And then our headmistress said that after the assembly stops everybody’s to go to their lessons and nobody’s to leave the school premises. And then I just thought, “There’s no way that I’m going to a lesson.” After hearing that whole assembly there was no way I could bear to just go into a classroom with a shut door and just be in that place for the whole day.

And so I asked some of my friends if they’re coming, they said, “No,” they’re not coming. And so just after everybody went to their – I waited around for everybody to go to their classes, until the corridors were quiet and everything, and then I just decided I’m going to the march. And so it [laugh] felt like a long walk to the gates of the school because – and I’m sure – I didn’t look behind, and I didn’t look left or right, but I just felt that I was being watched. And I just walked towards the school gate, and it was one of these – I think it was about seven foot wrought iron gate with spikes at the top.

And I was thinking, “How am I going to get out of here?” you know. And then there was a teacher at the gate, and he said to me, “You know I can’t allow you to go through the gates.” I said, “Yes, I know.” So then he said, “Well, are you planning on going somewhere?” I said, “Yes, I’m going to the march.” And he said, “How are you planning on getting out of the school?” So I said, “I’m climbing over the gate.” And he just looked at me and he just winked at me as if to say go for it, but he couldn’t really. And so as soon as he winked at me, I just thought, “OK, here we go.”

And then I just climbed over the gate and then just headed for the bus garage in – there’s a bus terminus in Forest Hill, and you can get a 171 bus straight to the Marquess of Granby which is opposite Goldsmiths. And so I just got the bus there and then I got off there and then I saw a couple of my friends from school, the ones that was at the party. And then we just joined in the rally at the house. And then when it was time, we just started walking and marching with people.

Nena: Thank you. Thank you for sharing this. Are you happy to continue?

Stella: Mm-hmm.

Nena: So how did you feel when you joined the march? What was the atmosphere?

Stella: I didn’t really understand what was going on, it was just people; there was just lots and lots and lots of people. And I just kept looking in at people’s faces. [Laughs] I just kept looking at people’s faces to see if I knew anybody. And every now and again I’d recognise faces of older teenagers or older people that I knew so I felt comfortable that I’m doing the right thing because all the right people, I felt, were there around me thing. And so it just ended up as me and just one friend, and then we just started to walk. And I remember when we got to Blackfriars there was just things going on. The march started to change and [pauses] – yes, the march started to change, and people were just going in different directions. And then that went on right until the evening. I don’t even know where we were because I didn’t really know.

Like once you get into the area, I didn’t really know the city, and so we were just following just small crowds of people here and there, and so I don’t know whether – I didn’t really understand what the march was at the time, I just knew that I had to be there to represent my friends. And yes, I think we were there till it got dark; we were still there. All I remember was we were still there when it was dark. And when I got home I think my mum or somebody said that they saw me on News at Six or something like that, [laughs] do you know what I mean? But I don’t know, it was just [pauses] – I don’t know, it started off with just people together, and then we ended up just in a small group of people. Then it ended up as just two of us, then we ended up making our way home.

And then after that there was just so much stuff that I started to see in the newspapers, and I kept … Because we’d been consciously aware of racism and civil rights and stuff like that, I started to look at the newspaper clippings. And I think one of them said, “A Black Day in Blackfriars.” And I was thinking, “What does that mean?” And then whereas the local newspaper from round here, South London, said how marchers marched with dignity, you know, and I was thinking “Huh?” And so then I started –anytime a paper came out I started to collect clippings and headlines and stories, and started to just look and see how we were being represented.

And it was the same year, it was my final year at school, 1981, and it was the same year as the uprisings in Brixton. And so that year for me was just – [pauses] I think it was a change for me in terms of I am standing up for my rights now; I’m going be doing work in my community. I became a lot more aware of the social surroundings and inequalities and that thing. And so, yes, it was just a year that I used to listen to a lot of music, but the music I listened to was artists like Curtis Mayfield and Nina Simone. And it was always songs of freedom, or songs of struggle, or songs of your people’s rights.

And so I got more and more into my music, and I think for me that was a way of maybe even coping with it. Because every time anything came up about the New Cross fire it was emotional, it was traumatising. And I was a teenager, and my friends were. We were teenagers and nobody counselled us, nobody offered us any therapy, nobody … There weren’t no healing process for us at all, you know, and so I guess even now, I find it really emotional to talk about, you know.

And I wasn’t a family member of anybody, so it must be just a hundred times worse for them. But there was a group of us young people that we didn’t receive any counselling or anything like that, and so it’s like living with trauma and stress. And every single time it comes up you relive the memory, and you relive the trauma, and you relive all the experiences over and over and over and over again. And we’re talking decades now, but it still feels like it was yesterday.

Nena: Thank you. So you’ve said a lot about the impact of these events on you personally, and also on other people like you, so on the community. And how you described the impact it had on the UK, because obviously to Black people, to say your actions is referred to as a key then for the history of Black people in the UK, but how would you describe it?

Stella: I mean I think a week or so later there was a fire in Ireland and some teenagers perished in that incident. And I think Margaret Thatcher or the Prime Minister at the time sent her condolences, and I think the Queen may have sent her condolences. And it was on the news, and it was in the headlines, and there was a lot of sympathy. There was a lot of outpour from the public of sympathy. And for me, it just made me angry because nothing was said about what had happened in New Cross. And the things that were said, it was painted in a negative way. And when we tried to express ourself through the day of action we were described as a mob, or rioting.

If you look at the headlines you’ll see the way that they described us. When I say “us,” I mean me. And so it was a case of just me becoming even more aware of inequalities and becoming more interested in equality and injustice and that kind of thing. And I think that it’s steered me to, I guess, who I am and how I think now, and what I do, and what’s important – what I consider to be important.

Nena: Thank you. You said you didn’t really get any forms of support for what you went through –

Stella: Mm-hmm.

Nena: – and no recognition as well from the institution. But was there any way that the community – do you think this created any forms of connection within the community or maybe ways you supported each other for this event?

Stella: Yes, I mean like an incident such as that, and the way it was dealt with, it built a lot of mistrust within the authorities against the police. It pulled people closer together because we had things in common; you know, we were there, and sometimes we’d go to some meetings and you’ll see the same people so you’d get a bit of comfort knowing that there’s somebody else there that went through some trauma, you know the trauma that I may have been through, and other people may have been through the same thing.

But genuinely I think that it made people acknowledge each other more, and I think that it brought the community closer together. Because there were teenagers from all areas, lots of different areas throughout the whole of Lewisham, and even out of Lewisham, that it affected, you know? And so yes, I think that I guess for me the impact was that I could see a community that is traumatised and maybe still living with trauma now.

Nena: Yes. About this, I know I watched a YouTube video with an introduction to the Rastafari Movement UK where you speak about how your aim with the movement is the healing and repairing of this trauma and pain that has historical roots. And so, yes, what was the connection between your work now under that people’s direction? How do you see that?

Stella: I think that having had that lived experience I am very perceptive to, I guess, other people’s traumas. I can recognise it, and so maybe I’m an empath, I don’t know, but there’s a saying, “He who feels it, knows it,” and so I want to do work that is empowering and almost giving people a sense of release and freedom from whatever the trauma is. And so the work that I do now is around food, but it’s also around wellbeing. So the projects is food and wellbeing. And so the wellbeing side of it is spiritual wellbeing, economic wellbeing, physical wellbeing, mental wellbeing, and so people will come to us with a whole range of different situations.

And it’s always been about having a conversation with somebody, and listening and hearing, and feeling what the person’s feeling, and then talking and coming up with solutions together. And then so my organisation can then maybe make connections with other organisations, or signpost, or support that person towards the pathway to where they need to get to next. And again, I think it’s all to do with that whole notion of justice or injustice. And I guess, for me it’s that experience – the experience that I had in ‘81, and right from having the comments made from that person in the school, to climbing over that fence and thinking, “I have to go, this is something that I have to do as part of my community.”

And then when I arrived, and seeing hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of other people it made me feel, “Yes, I did the right thing, and you should follow your instinct.” And so when people come to my organisation now, and I know that it must have taken a lot for them to either pick up the phone or approach us, and so I feel humbled when someone comes and shares with me because I know what it’s like not to have someone to share with, and so that drives me. It’s a driving thing for me, so yes, I have time for people.

Nena: Thank you. And so, yes, through your activities you’re trying to practice this form of care – holistic I would say – for your community. And so if you have to think about the community of Lewisham today, because you’ve also mentioned that it has changed a lot through the years, and maybe your hopes for this community, what would you say?

Stella: There’s an elder in Lewisham called Jah Shaka, and occasionally I’ll go and talk to him, and we sit down and talk. And I remember one day we were sitting outside his house, and we were just sitting on the wall, talking. And I was saying to him, “So what is it then? What do I need to do to keep on doing my work?” And he’s an elder to me as a Rastafari, and he just said to me, “It’s really simple; it’s not complicated at all.” And then he said to me, “Just practice love and kindness.” You know, just love and kindness. “And just do that, just do love and kindness, and to everybody, no matter who they are, where they’re from, just practice love and kindness.”

And so I guess that’s the essence of the work that I do, and I think that that’s what I try to emulate in the work that I do. And I see that Lewisham has changed a lot from when I was born in Sydenham in ‘65 till now. It’s changed a lot, and there is more, I believe, love and kindness and tolerance in the borough. And so I guess my hopes and dreams is that it just keeps going, it spreads, and we all learn that life is not that complicated, really. And we have so many layers put on top of us through our experiences in life, through media that try to define who we are. But deep down, when you tap in deeply, there is this thing inside of everybody which is love and kindness.

Nena: So to conclude with, I would like to ask you, if you had to organise or think about the Black People’s Day of Action in 2022, what would it be about?

Stella: In 2022 it would be about healing and repair. Yes, it would be about healing and repair. And it would be healing and repair physically, mentally, economically, historically. It would just be a holistic healing of healing and repair. And yes, it’ll be a day of action of healing and repair.

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Oral Histories: Norma Lawrence

An oral history gathered as part of the In Living Memory project, Pioneers and Protest.

In the interview, Norma discusses her life in the 1980s and her experience living in Walworth during the Black People’s Day of Action.

Parts of this interview are featured in a film produced by the project entitled Pioneers and Protest: Seeking Change.

Transcript

Julia (interviewer): So my name’s Julia Honess. We’re at the Southwark Heritage Centre. The date is –

Norma (interviewee): The 14th.

Julia: – Wednesday 14th June 2022, and I’m interviewing Norma Lawrence about the Black People’s Day of Action. So Norma, I want you to cast your mind back to 1981 and tell me a little bit about your life in England in 1981 or thereabouts.

Norma: OK, in 1981 what was my life like? I was a full-time unpaid carer, just as I am now, but I worked part-time. So during the evening, when my other children were home I’d go to work in the evening, although I was a full-time carer because money wasn’t available like, well, as it is now. It’s still difficult, but you need extra cash, so I had to go to work, so I’d go to work in the evening. And also in the morning, at five o’clock in the morning when everybody’s asleep, I’d go back to another job. So at five o’clock in the morning I’d be catching the bus across the road to go to the city or wherever the work was. So that was part of most of my life, so during ’81. And then we got as far as to – you had the – I wasn’t involved in anything up to that point.

Julia: Can I just ask what the area was?

Norma: What the area was like?

Julia: What area are you talking about?

Norma: Here. The area where we are now.

Julia: Where are we now?

Norma: We’re in Walworth, it’s E17, the Walworth Road, the most famous road, Walworth Road.

Julia: And what was it like round here?

Norma: Very quiet, not many Black people. East Street market, you might find two or three just walking through. No yam and banana in East Street market. If you wanted yam and banana you’d have to go to Brixton. There was somebody who started selling yam and banana, a Jewish chap, and he started selling yam and banana. And what they did, they covered Tower Bridge on Friday, East Street on Saturday. So people would come straight from work and that, but there was no other Black people. Compared to now, majority of the people in East Street market that are shopping now are Black people, which in those days, 1981, there wasn’t many.

Julia: What was life like for a Caribbean woman, a Jamaican woman, in Walworth around that time?

Norma: There would be more problems for young children, like my children, because I’ve got boys. There would be more problem with that there than it would be for me. The time before that, before, in the Seventies when I lived at the other place – and during the Enoch Powell time, that was my time – that was very difficult for me because the children were small. By the time I moved here, they were a lot older so they could defend themself. So most of the places that they would go is – without naming, is a pub around the back there. It’s still there, and just say it’s a very famous pub in Walworth, near East Street. If you are streetwise you’ll know exactly which one I mean, and that’s where they all went.

But they tell me that when they first went in there, before there was enough of them to go in there, they’d be told, “Get out.” And we still see the same. Actually one of them is my next-door neighbour now, twice, two houses along. But until then, more Black people moved in area so they could all go in the same pub, and they all become friends then, yes. But for me, it wasn’t that difficult by then for me, but it was for the children. But before I moved here, during the Enoch Powell time, that was hell.

Julia: And where was that?

Norma: Because I lived on the Tabard Estate, we were the only Black family that lived on the estate, so people used to come and knock on my window, the kitchen window, we lived on the ground floor; “Enoch, Enoch, hoi, hoi, hoi,” and then they smashed the windows and tell us we had to get out, “We don’t want you here.” And then but mostly, for that, I just put a stop to it because the boys – don’t forget, they’re mostly boys, only one girl – I decided that nobody’s going to help us, and we’ve got to do it ourselves.

So one day when it start, we went back to the person – we knew who it was. We went to their house, and me and three of the boys went, and we called them out and I said, “Right, let’s start.” I said to the mothers and the father, “You stay here, don’t you dare move or you’ll have me to deal with,” and let them fight. But then the mother is saying that one of her son that was hit by mine was too young. I don’t know if you’ve ever heard this story before.

So she’s saying, “You can’t let your son hit my son because my son is very young.” I said, “Oh, the age matter? Hold on. Go and get your other brother, he’s the same age.” So I said, “One of them could go and get one of the younger ones,” I said, “Now, well they’re the same age.” So that sort of helped to put a little bit of duster on it. But it went on for years. We see the same people; we see the people now. They talk about it at funerals. You send them to get eggs, they come back, all the eggs are broken because they’ve been chased. Oh, by the way, they still go to the same person’s parents’ funeral now because everybody are adults now, yes, and people’s views have changed, you know. So, but for my life, my life wasn’t that bad.

Julia: So before you moved here – thank you. So before you moved here, were you aware of any ways in which people were protesting or demonstrating about some of the issues you’re talking about?

Norma: No. And if I did, I probably wouldn’t be concentrating on that, I’ll be concentrating and raising my children. Remember, they’re all boys, so I had to keep a very close eye on them. So apart from going to work I wouldn’t have done anything else, no. My time would be spent on keeping track of them, where they are, what they’re doing. My activities only start when I move here.

Julia: So what changed then in 1981?

Norma: First of all [pauses] – I’d say first of all like the carers group is slightly different because that used to help the other carers like myself.

Julia: But specifically, what changed around –

Norma: The demonstrating.

Julia: – you joining a demonstration?

Norma: Ah, well say from the situation of the New Cross fire, the way the media and the police were behaving toward – well, the way the police were behaving toward Black people in the first – young Black people in the first place, yes, my brain start telling me that something needs to be done; I need to take part in these things. When this first started, you know, Black people, young, young Black boys being arrested. I could look out of my bedroom window where I looked from upstairs and see they’re grabbing somebody off the street, chuck them in the back of the van, things like that. So I thought, no, something needed to be done.

But I didn’t like the way the police and the media were portraying the loss of 13 lives. So then I heard that there would be a demonstration. Actually I heard it on the radio. So I just make sure there was enough food in the house and told the boys where I was going. And they know what time they had to be back home, you know, everybody had to know where they each other are. And then I walked along here; I think they’d already walked past. They had already gone past, but you could hear the banging of the drums. So I met them at the Elephant and Castle.

Julia: Can I just ask you to go back a bit?

Norma: Yes, OK.

Julia: And just describe that in a bit more detail. So you said that you’d sorted everything out at home, and then you heard and saw the demonstration. Can you just take us back to that and describe it in a bit more detail?

Norma: Yes. Well, before I came out, I could hear the banging of the drums along the street, because I already heard it on the news that it’s going to happen anyway. But so by the time I’d finished what I needed to do in my house, they’d already gone under that bridge. So by the time I got the Elephant they had stopped. Well, I think they’d stopped. I’m not sure where the front was, and I definitely wasn’t in the front, and join it there. And somebody hand me a banner, and I hold one end, and I think it said on it, “Thirteen dead, nothing said,” and that’s what you’re supposed to say; “Thirteen dead, nothing said,” and apart from “We want justice.” So we joined it. So we just joined it at Elephant, then the march carried on.

Julia: What was the atmosphere like?

Norma: The atmosphere? Well, the atmosphere was they were angry. Well, people were angry, and they weren’t angry with anybody in the group, and they weren’t even angry, say, with the police. They were angry of the same reason why they’re there. Like I’m angry because the reason I’m there. I’m going to walk miles, but the only reason why I’m there is because I just do not like the way we are treated, so that’s why I was there. And so I was angry. I wasn’t angry about any individuals, I wasn’t angry that I’m going to start throwing bricks or stone, I’m just angry while I’m there. And everything seems to be fine with people talking to each other at the start of the march. The loudspeaker was going, but because at the back you can’t really tell what’s happening at the front.

But by the time we got to Blackfriars Bridge, at the beginning of the bridge, or towards Blackfriars Bridge, you knew that something is happening. Because in a demonstration, you see, if you’re at the front you don’t know what’s happening at the back, and if you’re at the back you don’t know what’s happening at the front. But then we realise that the police then, there, wanted to turn us back, which didn’t make sense because the only other bridge we would have gone over really is Westminster Bridge, and I definitely know they would’ve stopped you once you tried to get there because they think you’re trying to get to parliament. Just like if you’ve got demonstration now, you try going over Westminster Bridge, they’re going to block you. It’d be better if you went over Waterloo Bridge or Tower Bridge.

And then the police begun to try to turn people back, but we decided we weren’t going to go back, so we just carried on. The rest of it it’s just marching and shouting, so the rest of it is slightly vague how we end up in Fleet Street, and that was the worst thing I could ever experience. The office workers were throwing, emptying the wastepaper bin. That’s how they started first, the wastepaper bin as we went by. And then they start throwing chairs, office chairs, out of the window, and anything they could find they were throwing it out of the window on the demonstration.

And so I want you to imagine this; we are walking along the road there, the stuff is coming over, so now I’m gone on the pavement, just like that pavement there, so I wouldn’t get hit. And the policeman pushed me back out in the road and said, “If you didn’t want to be hit, why did you come?” And I said, “Well, I didn’t come to get hit, I come to support the rest of the people.” I wasn’t rude to him or anything, but he actually pushed me back out, and all hell let loose because things are coming out the building, thrown on people, but the police are not interested in that. The police said we wanted to drag people out of the crowd, and drag them off, and then the fight started; it started with the police.

We marched, we carried on, but I’m not even sure now, till now, how – I think we end up in Hyde Park, because we were moved from different routes. Every road you went down you were cut off and told to go to that one, and when you get to that one, and you were told you weren’t go that way. So actually, what you’re doing, you’re following everyone else. Because you know the route from here to Hyde Park, over that way, but they were changing the route all the time, it got very confusing, and then the trouble started.

That was that, but the next day – until this day I’m sitting here, I have not bought a Sun newspaper, and I will not allow anybody, anyone, to come through my front door with one. So if you’re a workman and you had one, I’ll ask you quite politely, “Could you leave it on the doorstep? You may collect it when you’re leaving.” If you insist that you need it, you don’t come in my house. I will not have The Sun in my house.

Julia: Can you explain a bit about why?

Norma: The day afterwards they describe us as hooligans, and if you look on any review you can see The Sun – actually they describe us, “Blacks Run Riot in London.” That was the big headline, “Blacks Run Riot in London.” We didn’t run riots; it was a demonstration for the rights of these people. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying the New Cross fire was a racist thing, it’s the way it was dealt with that angered me, the way the police did it and the media did it.

And even after that, I was angry – angry more than annoyed – is that even the Prime Minister never sent one word of condolence to those family. Neither did the Queen. Now if you think about it, Dunblane, they got some sort of sympathy from the Prime Minister. You had shooting in – that was at Dunblane, and you had other incidents where even the Queen – you had a fire in Ireland where lot of teenagers died, the Queen sent her condolence.

But nobody in the government, either Queen or the Prime Minister at the time, even sent a bit of condolence to the parents of these children. To me, I think it’s outrageous. And so at the time, that was one that – I’d already done the demonstration, but at the time that made me still angry, and I’m still angry until this day for the way these the parents of these children were treated. We know years later – it’s over 40 years now, and they still haven’t come to how it happened. Well, history might tell one day; they’ll find out how it happened. It’s a long way, and there’s a lot of people from it that are still suffering.

I mean, nearest I knew is one of the young man that died, I knew his father from my teenage days, and he changed completely. And once he’d lost his son he just went completely changed. He was a musician, and I think he was the one who gave his son the sound system to play at the party, at aged 17. And I think he blamed himself; if I didn’t give him the music it wouldn’t have happened.

So Walworth did take part in the demonstration, just exactly where we are sitting now. So you can imagine if you were standing here you’d see the procession going past and you’d hear the bang of the drum. So it is still here, and the railway bridge is still there, but they went under. So that’s most of my memory of going on the demonstration. I’ve never been in another one since; that was the only one I’ve actually been on. I do more active things, but – stand up and demonstrate something, but to march, that was the only one I’ve done and that was 40 years ago.

Julia: And so thank you, that’s so … It’s really moving, also, to be sitting here and you’re looking out on the road that you’re talking about.

Norma: Yes, yes, exactly. Yes, exactly, and to watch these people go. Yes, it’s just there. And even their railway bridge, because it’s like a signpost they have gone on the railway bridge, because you’ve left Walworth now, you’re going Elephant and Castle. You’re going into Elephant and Castle, so it’s supposed to come from New Cross, Camberwell Green, but it’s along Walworth Road and under the railway. And it just shows you how the area has changed, because there was a petrol station on that side of the road and there was also one this side of the road.

Julia: So you said that you’d … It certainly has changed.

Norma: It has.

Julia: You said that you haven’t been on a demonstration since, but you described yourself as being active and taking part in them.

Norma: I take that; I’m an activist. Yes, I’m an activist. If I see something that’s happening that I think it shouldn’t be happening, I will say so. And if I mean it, I think I’ll stand up outside with the banner, I will. And if it mean I need to stalk the person in authority who needs to deal with it, so be it.

Julia: Can you describe some of the campaigns that you have been involved in?

Norma: After the Brixton riot, I also helped to set up the lay inspector to the police station, where – because we didn’t like, again, the way people were treated when they were arrested by the police. So we set up a group in Southwark, and that gave you – at the time it was called Visitors to Police Station. And so we could go in any police station in the borough anytime, day or night, whenever time you chose. And you had to be trained by the Home Office, you also had to sign that thing. Because I remember them saying if you saw the Prime Minister in the police station you weren’t allowed to come out and tell anybody that you see him. That’s how they explained it, an easier way. Mind you, they did it, but we weren’t allowed to do it.

I did six years, so as I say, I went round to all the police station in the borough. And what it was is to make sure that they were treated properly, they were given that one phone call. We actually changed the old police station for the new one. So it used to be the old Carter Street, and that was changed for the new Walworth police station. Because the old police station, in the heatwave – heatwave like we’re going to have now – if you were in there and you wanted water, and you called for it – I won’t use the language that they’d tell you to do, but  you can guess for yourself. The officers were quite nasty to people that was arrested.

Now my view is you are arrested. They’re there to look after you properly until you go to court, and you’re charged. We weren’t concerned of what you did or why you’re there, it’s just that the law was obeyed by we’re looking after you. Make sure the place was clean, the cell was clean, and things like that. And most of the people we saw during that time was immigration. Most of the people there were immigration. Group Four, the security company, used to come and collect them probably every two weeks. You could be there for two weeks until they come and collect you.

The police weren’t responsible for you. All they did was to make sure you’ve been fed, and you don’t leave, so they don’t question you. But now that was one of the reasons why I joined that one. So I did that for three years, and then the Home Office asked me to do another three, so I did six years.

Julia: I know you’ve done a lot of campaigning and have been an activist for all the time that I’ve known you.

Norma: Oh yes, yes, yes, I know, and then I dropped.

Julia: Are there any other campaigns or activism that you think directly relate to your experiences as a Black woman living in the area or who’d taken part in that demonstration?

Norma: I hadn’t done any activities because being a Black woman, I do activity because me, myself, I think whatever activities I take part, whatever it is, I want my present to be heard. I’ve got something to say, and I’ll say it, and God help anybody else to try to stop me from saying it. So I join any group, that whether it’s the Walworth Society, because I think I want the area I live in to look better; I don’t want everything to be ripped down. So whatever group there is that I think it’s working for the common good of the area.

I also think, as a Black person, my voice should be heard, and I should have my foot around the table like everybody else. So it doesn’t all of it means you have to demonstrate on a march, you can still use your voice. And I’ll attend enough meetings, and I’ll stop them in their tracks in the meeting to give them my view. And in most cases, yes, they normally listen as most people know.

So it doesn’t always have to go on marches. If there was a march from here down to Camberwell Green, and it was – I mean I’ve demonstrated outside King’s College Hospital for mental health, but that’s with a group of people. It’s not to say as a Black woman I’m demonstrating on Black people’s mental health, it’s mental health after the people where I live. If the situation arises where it had to be done as a Black issue then I’ll go do that on the Black issue. But at the moment I find what I can see is at the moment is – in this area anyway, it’s an issue for everyone rather than a Black issue. Some areas it is, but this area it isn’t. I think because we’ve got more of us here and more of us have … And people change as well.

Julia: Thank you. That brings us to my last question which is, we’ve been asking people if they were going to take part in … Imagine you were going to take part or even organise a Black People’s Day of Action for 2022, what would it be about?

Norma: Actually it probably would … Yes, if I was going to be in one, I’d do it – it would be the Windrush because that’s still ongoing. And I think that is so unfair. And that was planned. That was no accident, yes. And if you could treat those people the way that they’re still being treated, I would go on a march now for the Windrush. Because when I think of those people who came here then, they were invited, they were asked to come, and they were needed because the people of this country didn’t …

You see, after the war, most – a lot of the men, young men, died, so there wasn’t enough people to build the country back. So the British government went to places like Italy and the Caribbean to look for workers to come and build a country. And then obviously these people, they were British citizen. My passport said that you are a British citizen, and you should be endeavoured by a magistrate. Have you ever seen one of them, what it says inside them? Oh, about Her Majesty, whatever, the Queen.

And for them, after that, to treat people in that way. That some people went on holiday, some people went to funerals, and find they couldn’t get back. And the cheek of it is, if you’ve been out, when you do find you can do it, apply for it now, “Oh, you can’t because you’ve been out the country too long.” “Well why were you out the country so long?” “Because you kept me out.” So I spend my time telling my white counterparts how it was. They might not like it; they don’t have to listen, but I haven’t come across anyone who hasn’t listened yet to explain to them how it happened and how all this started.

We knew about you in the Caribbean, we knew about the English – I don’t want to say British – we knew about the English more than the English knew about themselves. We celebrate every time the Queen had a baby. Everything had the Queen over your head; the school, the Queen over your head; the hospital, the Queen. The other generation, my mother’s generation, had a photo of the Queen in the house. I mean, my children wouldn’t have one past the front door, but my mother did. I mean even she still; even she was collecting photos of the royal family. I mean she’s left that in her legacy that we’ve got all photos and books and all things when Charles was little, because people of that era, they collected these things.

And I think for what they did, and we are not going anywhere. So if there was a Black People Action Day – and that should be done in the middle of the week like that one was done, because that was done on a working day – it should be done on a working day and not on a weekend, a working day. Not because we’re trying to disrupt, but to see how – give people more initiative that you’re quite willing to give up your day’s pay for what you think is right, just like we did, the previous generation did. So if I was going to go on a demonstration, a day of action, that’s what I would do.

There probably are other things, but not things that I come across. It’s also different for the next generation; they probably find a different struggle, so they might want to demonstrate on something else because they’ve got different struggle to what the older generation would’ve had. A different struggle. Like the people in the Nineties, they probably would be demonstrating Stop and Search. The people in 2022 might want to demonstrate on something else. It might be jobs. I’m not sure what they ..

Oh probably I might even want to object on immigration, because we know the immigration runs in two stage. One, if you’re blonde and blue eyed you’re fine. If you’re not blonde and blue eyed you ain’t coming. So you can see the difference between Romania and the other section. So there was no room. Before the war in Ukraine we had no room, but all of a sudden we found – you know, room is found. So not that I don’t sympathise for the people in Ukraine, but what I’m saying is there’s like two sides.

Because even today, a lot of these people they’re putting back on the airplane to go back to Rwanda, they’re … Afghanistan, Iraq, these are all the people that we dropped bombs on, and these are the people trying to leave the country because their country has got no infrastructure. And we said, “No.” We agreed, because that’s what they told the court, we’re doing what the public wants us to do. So in other words, the public doesn’t want those people who we went and destroyed their country, but the public don’t mind the ones we take, like Russia destroying their country.

And as the Ukraine man pointed out, “It shouldn’t happen. We are blonde and blue eyes.” That’s the sort of thing you expect in African countries, so you might find the next generation wants to demonstrate on that. But mine is what happened to the Windrush. It didn’t affect any of my family because although my mother came here in ‘48, she came, she actually went and got her papers. She went and paid for hers, and I went and bought mine; I’ve got mine as well. Just to be on the safe side, double whammy; I’ve got my mother’s and I’ve got mine.

So a lot of people didn’t because then they lost a lot of their papers as well. Some people did, and their family have lost it. The trouble is in our family we store things, we keep things. I’ve got my mother’s ration book still, so … So if we had to prove that she was here – and actually I’ve told this to my children, the reason why you keep certain papers, you never know. Nanny kept her ration book to prove that – and it’s got her name on it – she was here at the end of the war, so that made her actually being here. So it walks down to your grandparents. So that’s where we are.

Julia: Thank you so much for all your time and your insights as always. I just want to ask if there’s anything that you want to look back on over your interview, if there’s anything you want to say differently, or anything that you want to add.

Norma: Yes, the only thing is, these stories need to be told because they are going to vanish. I mean this is not the first one I’ve done. Because if they’re not told and recorded they would just disappear like lots of other things disappear. And traditionally, a lot of these things, although they happen, nobody records them. Like they’re saying, a lot of youngsters should be talking to their parents, these people up here, to find out how did they manage, what are their stories. You know, how did they manage when they first arrived.

I mean there’s a lady that we met the other day, I know two or three people who has tried to get hold of her to get their story. And her story’s so funny, and she makes us really laugh, because she said the first time she went to church and saw a harvest festival she’d never seen such beautiful food. And she’d give her feelings about the food. And it’s different with her; she came at 19 year old when lots of other people came at six and seven, so you see the different experience.

That’s why sometime, when you’re keeping these records, you need to get them from different ages of people because a person who come here 15 has got a different concept. A person who come here at 19, who had to go to work, sees things differently, and things around them differently. But things like this, they need to be recorded. And I think more people need to be – even youngsters – talking to their parents and record things.

We didn’t talk to my mother, but what we did, she did a lot of scribbling, and she left a lot of things that we can use. So we’ve passed some of it on to the Windrush oral people, stories about my mother and things like that. So that’s what I would, well I think a good idea doing it for that reason, keeping.

Julia: Thank you very much.

Norma: OK.

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